Friday, March 31, 2006
She's better than me... She has a cleaner house... she has a better car... she's better in school... better at finances...She cooks better than me... She dresses better than me… she’s thinner than I am… she writes a better blog than me… she prays better than me... she reads the bible more than me... she has more joy than me...
We could spend most of our life in Green. Envious of others. I am not going to sugar coat this... Sometimes women are just not nice! Not kidding. I fall into this as well
There are somedays when I just don’t want to like someone because they have a trait that I wish I had or they do it better than me. But honestly, that doesn’t bring me ANY joy. It takes my self confidence to an all time low. I have to work on this, daily.
I think that our lives are so much better when we celebrate each other’s differences. I know I can’t do it all. When we use the spiritual gifts that we have been given and let others use theirs, we struggle less. And have more joy! I want JOY!! I’m selfish I want more joy, I choose to celebrate!!
Peter 4:10-11 10God has given gifts to each of you from his great variety of spiritual gifts. Manage them well so that God's generosity can flow through you. 11Are you called to be a speaker? Then speak as though God himself were speaking through you. Are you called to help others? Do it with all the strength and energy that God supplies.
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
cookies... I love cookies...
Who invented the cookie? I have no idea! Who makes the best cookies? Uhh... not to brag... BUT!! That would be... me!! I am always interested in what everyone's favorite cookie is...
with or without nuts?? Always pecans... no walnuts please
Apple pie bars
No matter your favorite, I probably have made it. Yesterday I made Oatmeal chocolate chip... they were yummy, but I always tell Michelle they are raisin so she doesn't yell at me for making cookies. People say, "these are so good... why did you bring them?" Cookies are perfect, you can take them on the go, compact, no calories (I have a magic oven).
I think for most of her life, outside of the magic Oreo, my daughter didn't even know cookies came in a bag. Not kidding. I have always loved making cookies, and because I didn't have someone (a mom) to make me cookies, I always wanted her to have homemade. My gram used to make Oatmeal Chocolate Chip but they were the dunkin' kind.... or you would hurt you teeth, but in milk... YYYUUUMMMMMMMYYYYYY!!!!
What kind is your favorite? I'll make them for you!!
Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights
Let me first start by saying that I am an ‘actions speak louder than words’ kind of girl… Action Speak Volumes!!
Most of my life I felt like I was less than anyone and everyone, and part of me still really feels that way. We can start with the thing that bothers me the most. My mom died. Let me tell you, I know that this wasn’t her fault. I know… I know… but I wondered how come God didn’t love me enough to let me get to keep her. I know… I know… it’s all part of The Plan. I always felt like I was never going to amount to anything in the eyes of my family, I was never going to be a “Mercy Nurse”. Nope. I’d surely puke on each and every one of my patients. Not the job for me. Thought being a teacher would be a great idea, I loved kids… but nope. So… I ended up working for one of the greatest companies in the world (I can say that, we’re global) as an admin, really, a card sorter, but whatever, now, Sales and Marketing, I LOVE what I do, and I have a heart for it (it’s hard to understand how I could have a heart for Sales) but I love it!! I sometimes feel like I failed my whole family.
Let me tell you, if you make me feel unimportant (even though you could SAY that I am important to you) whether at work, home, school, wherever, I will be so MAD!! Not angry, MAD. My stuff always has to wait because something or someone is more important. Sometimes the squeaky wheel gets the grease, I understand it, but I don’t like to squeak.
So I must decide how am I going to handle it next time (this time is already too late, I cried). How do I get people to realize that I am important, and what I do is important (otherwise I would find something else to do). But really, is it them who need to realize that I am important or is it me who needs to realize that I’m important? Is it my fears that make me feel like I am less than anyone else? How come I don't always look at the good things about me? I don't seem to see what everyone else sees.
Today (and probably tomorrow too), help me to see in me what You see in me. Help me to see, and really to focus, on the good things about me. Help me to build on the strengths and the spiritual gifts that You have given me so that everyday I can serve You and Your people better.
Lord, You know my fears, please take them from me.
In Jesus’ name I pray. Amen
Luke 12:4-7 4"I tell you, my friends, do not be afraid of those who kill the body and after that can do no more. 5But I will show you whom you should fear: Fear him who, after the killing of the body, has power to throw you into hell. Yes, I tell you, fear him. 6Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten by God. 7Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
There are some days when I feel all alone, when I feel like I sometimes have an empty soup pot. I’ve given all I have and haven’t left any for me, and then, and only then, do I get the greatest gift ever, I get to turn to Jesus and say, give me what I need, and it’s always enough, sometimes (most times) it’s more than enough. Today I was worshipping in the car to Jeremy Camp, it was a song written by Chris Tomlin (I knew I liked that guy!!), ‘Enough’. I must have listened to the song 6 times from the time I started until I got home (not kidding). And I was singing really loud to God, ‘You are more than Enough’. I was in a spot not that long ago, my pot was empty, and it was so empty that I was complaining about it being empty and not turning to the AWESOME One who could fill it, eventually I did, I told you, I’m slow. And before I knew it, my pot had so much soup in it, my blessings were overflowing, it was great. I even had ‘enough’ to share again, but my soup (blessings) came with a warning, “Margie, don’t wait until you are empty to come to me, there’s always Enough.
Loving/Serving God is a Win-Win situation, whatever you give for Him, will be brought back to you, 10 fold. You can’t out give God. I guarantee it, and I dare you to try. There’s always more than enough.
Phil 4:19-20 19And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus. 20To our God and Father be glory for ever and ever. Amen.
All of You is more than enough for
All of me for every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with Your love
And all I have in YouI
s more than enough
You are my supply
My breath of life
Still more awesome than I know
You are my reward
Worth living for
Still more awesome than I know
You're my sacrifice of greatest price
Still more awesome than I know
You're my coming King
Still more awesome than I know
Sometimes there will be a spotlight on someone...
Today, it's my favorite... Her name is Phyllis.She's the best. Is it possible to aspire to be like someone who is younger than you? She is all the good I am, times 100. I am so proud of her. At age 4 she was diagnosed with JRA (Juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis), I remember that day as if it was yesterday, and also as if it was a million years ago. She's in remission, Praise Jesus!! But she never gave up. She kept on, she hated it, it made her different. But she didn't know... she was always different, her heart is made of gold. She loves like no one else (but God help you if she doesn't like you). She is God's girl, just ask her. It is amazing to watch her. I'm so proud of her.
In her, I experience God's grace. I never deserved her. I still don't. I love her. She's the best.Thank you Jesus!!
1John3:2 Beloved, now we are children of God, and what we will be has not yet been made known...
Sunday, March 26, 2006
I was sitting in church today during announcements (I love announcements when I don't have to do them :) ), I was watching one of the most beautiful people I know talk about the prayer vigil this Friday, March 31 from noon to midnight. I was thinking about what a jerk I am. I know some of you are breaking your necks because you are nodding so much... but let me finish...
I love God, but sometimes I am so thankful that He loves me and our relationship is heavier on His side, I might not be proud of this, but I am thankful. Thank God for His Grace. I pray in the car, I pray while I'm doing the dishes, I pray while i make the bed, I pray while i clean the house. But most of my day is filled with a lot of "stuff" so like with everything else, I muli-task. I do sometimes stop and just spend some nice "quality time" with Him, but to be honest, I say I am using my time wisely, but I need to stop more. Be still and know that He is God.
The prayer vigil is a great time to just stop. Last December, I fell asleep in front of the cross, 3 times. It was so peaceful, it was great to just spend some time, to let go of the all the things that make me anxious (the list is long).
If it sounds great to spend some quiet time with God, please, by all means, go to First Baptist of Wyandotte (1925 Ford Ave, Wyandotte) on March 31 from noon to midnight, you don't need to be a member, just stop by. There will be prayer guides or a place to just be still.
John 17:20-23 20"My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message, 21that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. 22I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one: 23I in them and you in me. May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me.
Be nice... Be thoughtful, and when someone is crying, be compassionate.
I love this blog thing... I don't know if anyone but Sara reads it but I really like it.
I got my wisdom teeth pulled yesterday. It hurt, but not as much as I thought it would. But I look awful. But that’s not my issue…
I WAS SO SCARED!! SO SCARED!! Say it with me, SO SCARED!! My dad wanted to know if there’s time for him to go get breakfast during my procedure, remember, I’m scared, I probably didn’t react well to this (Heck, I know I didn’t). Will my face blow up for three days, will it be as bad as I’ve heard??? Probably not, mine were a “simple extraction” (I still wonder why God gave us those stinkin’ teeth, not many get to keep them—and I would have been happy to keep mine but my teeth were shifting and they were infected often).
So, I am sitting in the chair, praying, ‘please God, I don’t want to cry, please don’t let me cry. I know you’ll watch over me. I already look terrible, no make up, if anyone seems me like this, I’ll never get married. EVER’. So I am praying, the very hot Doctor comes in (yes he’s married, out of my league anyway, but he’s hot) and he’s says, “don’t worry, these are easy ones, but there’s this one little tip…. Did someone turn on a faucet in here?? My eyes are now pouring, I was trying to pray but my tears were in the way. The doctor, so sweet, “don’t worry huney, it’s going to be fine, I promise”. The nurse, I think she was satan’s wife, not lying, she was just mean. Have you ever been scared of something stupid? I’ve had two surgerys in my life, a cyst, and Phyllis. She was not compassionate, not even the slight bit nice, “put these ice packs on- get out of my face- you’re a baby” I don’t know if that’s what she really said, but that’s what I heard.
I will admit… a LOT scared, a little PMS, my teeth are out, they hurt, a little, it’s over and PRAISE JESUS, I don’t have to do that again.
I will send the Doctor a note, he really did a good job, Dr. Bill at Downriver Dental (go see him just for a consultation—I’m telling you—he’s hot!!), his nurse… I’ll pray for her. She’s not nice.
Matthew 5:38 You have heard that it was said, 'Eye for eye, and tooth for tooth’
(I’m sorry, I had to use that one, you know God has a sense of humor)
Saturday, March 25, 2006
If you have ever been in my car you would know that on any given day it could look like a teenager's bedroom, anything and everything smashed in the back seat. And then when someone needs to get in the back seat, we just put the stuff in the trunk (the same way kids shove things under the bed, out of sight, out of mind).
If you read yesterday's blog, you know I moved my office to Southfield (I'm really trying to be positive here!!) And my backseat was filled with a few things from my office that could have been broken so I brought them myself. I had to move so much stuff, there barely wasn't any room in the back seat. SO last night I decided I would clean out the car. I found a lot of stuff that I held on to, don't know why, and now have decided to throw it away, heck, i even washed the front car mats!
It occurred to me that my car is like an extension of my life, it needs to be cleaned out, i need to let go of things that I hold on to that are just no good to me any longer. Sometimes it's things from my past that taught me a good lesson or has served it's purpose but now, it's just like that old Taco Bell cup, there's nothing I can do with it now. I need to be cleaned out, go to God, ask Him where I should be and what's my purpose today.
Psalm 51:10 Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit in me.
P.S. I'm getting all four of my wisdom teeth pulled to day, pray for me.
Friday, March 24, 2006
I'm moving to Southfield (my office not my home). I have been anxious about it all week. It's funny, well, not really funny, but that is when satan works in me the most, when I am anxious, he pulls me a little at a time, inch by inch, sometimes centimeter by centimeter away from God. But God came right after me on Wednesday and with one big YANK! I was back to the center. I went to an awesome life group (thanks Jim & Tonya and Sara) and it helped me to focus, I was talking with God (from 2-3 am-- we had a nice long conversation) and He said, why don't you just spend that time with me, in my word. DUH!! Sometimes I am a little slow... So I started thinking... Beth Moore Series, Joy Series, I am going to be good for at least a month, maybe longer. All this will help me in my walk.
My favorite Scripture is : James 1:2 Count it all Joy...but it's more than that... You can read the rest below. So instead of the all the negatives (I can do that very well) there was one really big positive, and that's the one I choose to look at. I get more time learning God's word. WOO HOO!! It's all in your perpective.
In Christ's Infinite Love,
Trials and Temptations2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. 6But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.
9The brother in humble circumstances ought to take pride in his high position. 10But the one who is rich should take pride in his low position, because he will pass away like a wild flower. 11For the sun rises with scorching heat and withers the plant; its blossom falls and its beauty is destroyed. In the same way, the rich man will fade away even while he goes about his business.
12Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.
13When tempted, no one should say, "God is tempting me." For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone; 14but each one is tempted when, by his own evil desire, he is dragged away and enticed. 15Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death.
16Don't be deceived, my dear brothers. 17Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. 18He chose to give us birth through the word of truth, that we might be a kind of firstfruits of all he created.
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
I won't lie, I thought that day, my life is changed, I'm renewed, I'm fixed, my faults, they are going away, I'm going to be better. WOO HOO! I'm a Christian. Can i tell you, my walk is long. VERY long... These boots were made for walkin'... Good thing too, because I have a long way to go. And as I sit, trying to release some anger towards others, and someone said to me "Great Christian you are". I'm a sinner, I try, I fall, I get back up (God picks me up), I try again. I don't quit trying to be better. I don't quit living my life for Him.
2 Corintians 5:17
17Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!
You're probably wondering, what the heck is she getting at...
Well, THE WORD tells us that once we are in Christ, that the old has gone, and the new has come, the lessons I've learned make me better and stronger. To go back is my decision (that darn free will thing) but really, I feel that if I commit my life to Christ, it is better, and that the old, it's gone, and I need to look to His word to help me get through each trial, each lesson. Because I am God's girl, and I may not be perfect, but He is, and He died for me (and you) so that we can be new again. And I want Him to use me.
I'm thankful for that day, the day that I became new again.
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
But when we forgive, whether it the pain inflicted on us is deliberate or not, it goes away. Jesus came down, He suffered for us. Why? Because He loved us so. Now, did He do anything bad? Did He sin? Nope, but He loved us, and He forgives us for what we do, and why shouldn’t we forgive? There is no reason. Pain will manifest upon itself. Don’t live with the pain, release it.
2 Corinthians 2:5-11
5If anyone has caused grief, he has not so much grieved me as he has grieved all of you, to some extent—not to put it too severely. 6The punishment inflicted on him by the majority is sufficient for him. 7Now instead, you ought to forgive and comfort him, so that he will not be overwhelmed by excessive sorrow. 8I urge you, therefore, to reaffirm your love for him. 9The reason I wrote you was to see if you would stand the test and be obedient in everything. 10If you forgive anyone, I also forgive him. And what I have forgiven—if there was anything to forgive—I have forgiven in the sight of Christ for your sake, 11in order that Satan might not outwit us. For we are not unaware of his schemes.
I guess I wrote this because I have been in a lot of pain lately. And I have been lucky because I can forgive, but my issue is that I can forgive, but I hold on to it because I feel like if someone did something mean to me, I must have caused them pain. And so I feel TERRIBLE!! Sometimes, I have to forgive myself, because that is the pain that really eats me up inside. Sometimes I have to choose to forgive others, and choose to forgive myself. If there is something you are holding on to, let it go, give it to God, His shoulders are never to small, His arm is never too short to reach out to you.
Monday, March 20, 2006
I am off school for the semester, looking forward to the much needed two weeks off.