Passion



Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)


Monday, July 31, 2006

Closed doors

How come I just don't "get" it??

I am going to see my friend Dani August 18/19th for a quick visit. We can't wait. We love Dani, I have heard about it from just about everyone (sometimes in the things they don't say) about taking my daughter. I don't care.

There used to be visiting on Thur-Sun. Thur & Fri are my favorite days to visit because the waiting room is quieter. It's less busy, and they almost always let us sit where we want (we have assigned seating - Welcome to Kdg boys and girls). I had my trip scheduled for 17/18th.

Pastor Jim is going to be out of town the 16th and asked me if I would do prayer service. "Sure" and in my head I am thinking, "I won't get to Terre Haute until 2 in the morning", that's ok, I can do it.

I have a MAJOR quote due the 17th. "I'll find a way, it's ok".

I was starting to wonder about all these "obstacles" but I pressed on. I like Thur/Fri visits better than Fri/Sat.

THEN Dani sends a letter, Margie - it must have been a long time since you visited, no more Thurs visits.

OOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.... I get it.

I'm a little slow. I don't know why I am not supposed to be there Thursday, whatever. I should have known. I am glad I don't have to drive that late at night. I am glad I get to see my friend, and next time, I hope I won't have to be hit over the head with "the plan".

Hebrews 11:3 3By faith we understand that the universe was formed at God's command, so that what is seen was not made out of what was visible.

Sunday, July 30, 2006

Serving

It's really been on my mind a lot lately, once VBS is done, how is that God is going to use me? I was watching "Second Chance" with Michael W. Smith last night, we had to break out the Soundtrack today, it's great, pick it up if you get the chance. I got it for $.97, bargain!! It is really worth the full price, sorry, I digressed.

There is a song on the soundtrack, #2, it's all in the serve. Music touches me so much, someone said if you sing, you pray twice. Last year it wasn't that difficult to figure out what I was supposed to do because I was doing so much, my biggest thing was to make sure I was glorifying God the whole time, that is probably when I learned most that it's about Him, not about me. I am a "Go Big or Go Home" kind of gal, so sometimes it's difficult for me because I hate being in the spotlight, really, but whatever I do, I like to do things that matter, I like to see the results, I guess that kind of sounds really selfish because I know it's not about me, but I like to see how God's kingdom is growing, why would you plant flowers if you never got to see them grow. I try to remember patience... but well... I am me after all.

So I have been asking God a lot lately, "You sure this is what you want me to do? Doesn't seem like much God, You sure". We have a lot of conversations, "trust Me". I do. I think of Matthew 17:20, ...if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." Now, I don't know if you know, but a mustard seed is pretty small, and somedays my faith seems like it, but I also equate the things I do to something that small. I think about the kids going to Thailand, now that's big, not only for them but all the people who are praying for them, supported them, and are brave enough to let go. I look at Marilynn and Bridge to Hope, that's HUGE! So I ask God, "Forms, you want me to do forms? How about a big program??" The answer comes... "OK... I'll do forms." It's all important.

So I am telling God no matter what it is, "Hold my feet to the fire, Till I’m breaking a sweat, Till I never forget". Whatever it is. I'm here. Just waiting...

It's all in the Serve.
Never gave you nothin’
People couldn’t explain away
Never gave you nothin’
Without something to gain
Never could slow down enough
To study a face, but now
I wanna know your name

Chorus:
Hold my feet to the fire
Till I’m breaking a sweat
Till I never forget
Your calling
Keep me on the line
Give me the nerve
Here it’s all in the serve

Locked in the diamond lane
I kept driving past it
Better to be safe than learn
What you’re about
Give me another chance
To go where you're going now
I’m here to walk it out

Friday, July 28, 2006

Complaint Department

I hate complaints. Don't they know that I did my best? Don't they know that with each decision that had to be made, I consulted the Big Boss Man. From schedules to snacks, from crafts to music. THere was not one decision I made by myself. it was His project, i just did some leg work.

I feel like they think I didn't do a good job, like somehow I failed, and do you know what that means? That means I failed God. When it's all over, I always feel like I am going to miss those kids, the complainers... not so much...

Certain people complained because the snacks "weren't challenging". It's a snack for crying out loud, and a juice box. Last year the kids did not get recreation, so we tried to combine it, the best of both worlds, we didn't want them to not have anything to drink for two hours... hello it's summer time, so we did recreation and a quick snack. Yeah, i know who is in charge of snacks next year, "thanks for volunteering".

They didn't like the schedule, next time, please, don't complain in front of my daughter... She is very respectful, but for crying out loud, she is MY daughter, and she is JUST like me, you are likely to get the smack down. SO, yeah, you guessed it, "thanks for volunteering to do the schedule next year". Great, now I can do something else.

You see, I have felt under attack all week, satan sent his mighty army after me, I think he sent the WHOLE stinkin' army. But I don't have to worry, God is the greatest protection I have. And in Him, I take refuge. It bugs me that they complain. It does, I know I probably shouldn't, but I take it very personally. Because what I do for the Lord, I do it with all my might and all my love for Him.

If God is on our side, who can be against us. The mountains may fall, and the skies will crumble. But nothings going to stand in our way. I guess, they can take it up with Him. I got the number, maybe i can dial it for them.

Overwhelmed - in a good way!

I'm overwhelmed with joy on how much God loves me. Reminds me of this song
Your love is amazing,
steady and unchanging
Your love is a mountain,
firm beneath my feet
Your love is a mystery,
how You gently lift me
When I am surrounded,
Your love carries me
Hallelujah, HallelujahHallelujah,
Your love makes me sing
Your love makes me sing
Your love is surprising,
I can feel it rising
All the joy that's growing
deep inside of me
Every time I see You,
all Your goodness shines through
And I can feel this God song,
rising up in me,
You make me sing,Lord,
You make me sing, sing, sing
How You make me sing

I don't know if you are all sick of hearing (or reading) about VBS, but my heart is swelling. I know that there is much bad going on in the world, but I can't focus on that, because that is satan's work, but I feel God working in me everyday, even when the "demons" want to come to get me, they forget how much God loves me, He chose me, and I am His, He is mine.

I am overwhelmed at how much God uses me, and I am so honored. I love the friends God put in my life, the ministries I am directly involved in, the ministries I "just" pray for (even though I know Prayer is so important.)

I wonder how people live their lives with the absence of Jesus. I wonder how do they forgive, how do they praise, how do they just plain get through the day. I wonder... and I pray for them.

Today is the last day of VBS, tomorrow will be the last pictures i will post unless someone needs a little heart melting. And then God will send one of those beautious kids to do that. God is so good.

I'm overwhelmed, His love is amazing, steady and unchanging. How He makes me sing!!

Thursday, July 27, 2006

The story of Margie & VBS

I love VBS. Only because of God am I even involved. I never did VBS as a kid, actually two years ago, I took pictures, tons of pictures, that was my first experience with VBS. The next year they announced in church they needed a chairman (or chairperson -whatever). Crickets... I raised my hand (mostly out of guilt), "I'll do it if someone will help me". Along comes Dana, we had just started working together on the Evangelism team. So... here were two months to throw VBS together, honestly no clue, but we had a packet and we knew Sheila would do 2/3 grade, and Brent would do music. God would do the rest. That's what we thought, and boy, were we right!

VBS Ramblin' Roads somehow came together, by God's grace. And to Him goes the glory! Dana had already planned a trip to Florida starting the Tuesday after VBS started, I was in school full time, thankfully my teacher was a Christian and understood, yes, God works in awesome ways.

After registration on Monday, I was heard saying "never again, I am never doing this again". By Wednesday, I was already thinking about what we were going to do next year. Yeap, that's right, God worked in mighty ways.

So this is year two, Arctic Edge (unless I spell it, then it's Artic Edge, but whatever). I am addicted to God, addicted to the kids, and addicted to spreading His love one kid at a time.

I have no idea how He does it, but He does, He puts me in the right place at the right time. He knows what I can do, and what I can't, He takes care of the rest. Make no mistake about it, there is no way I could EVER do this without Dana, we're a team, and a great one we are. I hate registration, she does awesome at it, I do the crafts, she doesn't have to. I would be no good at teaching (or singing) but God gives those talents to others so I don't have to worry.

Are you wondering, are we going to do it next year? Yes, next year, we are leaping with into something totally new, we are doing it without a "template", we're going on our own with "Soldiers of God" shamelessly stealing from Metro's Boot Camp Idea (and Jeremy if you are reading this, I'll be calling). I know we can do it because God is with us all the way.

I love VBS, I am amazed at how God works in my life everyday. From teaching me that I can't do everything, to the love of the kids that I have, how they melt the ice that has formed.

Today's verse was Jer 29:11. it's one of my favorites. I think, I can have peace if I remember this one. "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

There was three today, hope you don't mind.

VBS Pics from Wednesday

See below for my post... I have two today, I couldn't help but share more pics of VBS... These kids make my heart melt!


Katie blowing a kiss...
Morgan praying, could you just eat her up!







Alyssa and Victoria!
Alyssa and Devale (I call him Coupe
Devale!)

Chris!
Chester and Alyssa








Pre-K class with Ms. Joann
Collin!










Phyllis helping Morgan
Jacob!








This is another Jacob, he's awesome!!

My friend Liz


I really wasn’t going to post today, I was just going to put up VBS pics, but I got an overwhelming thought that God just wanted me to post.

Her name is Liz. Oh my how do I love Liz. She goes to my church, we scrapbooked once a month until I just couldn’t handle one more thing and had to post pone it while I was finishing my last semester of school (Liz- we’re starting back up in September –k?).

She is awesome. Let me tell you about Liz. She has a smile that can melt away any problems you are having and make you feel even better when you are happy. Oh it’s a smile that you can actually see God smiling when she smiles. The hugs, she is always there with a hug for me. She instinctively knows when to get me to talk and when to just say “I’ll be praying for you”.

Liz also teaches Sunday School in the Toddler room and my daughter helps her out. My daughter thinks she is the “cat’s pajamas) – my word not Phyllis’s. Phyllis thinks she is so awesome and I think Liz should keep teaching Sunday School, she is a blessing to those kids!

Liz has two awesome sons, Chris and Randy. Randy is in our Youth Group and he has a quiet demeanor, but is so friendly, he probably thinks I am a crack pot, but I love him so much! His smile makes me melt too. I don’t know Chris that well but has been at our VBS so far all week, and is having a great time!

I made Alyssa (our awesome picture taker) take this picture of Liz and Phyllis last night so I could have one of two of them to put in my house so I can always remember.

Hey, Liz, I know you’re reading this – I love you! And I’m “misty” just thinking about how much I love you! And thank God for you!!

Phil 1:3 I thank my God every time I remember you.



Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Blessings!!!





















Today is a new day.

If you read my blog from late last night, you know I was struggling. It was a rough day.

But I prayed and prayed and I am quite sure I was lifted up last night in a lot of prayers. In my prayers a lot of things were answered.

"have I ever left you to fight on your own?" My answer to that is a big fat "Nope". He has never left me, He has given me all I need to get through each happy time, each struggle, with Victory. And the Glory goes to Him.

Thank you for your awesome post Tonya, you are right. I know...

Sara, great post.

Becky, thanks for the encouragement.

I love you all...

So instead of counting struggles and issues, lets count blessings, shall we? We'll chose our words wisely :)

1. Phyllis, she is so awesome! She has a wonderful heart, she steps up and walks with God and listens to Him. i know that kid was praying for her mom last night.
2. For my friends, what would i do without you?
3. My job, it's a great job, I do like it, frustrating at times, but it's wonderful.
4. My health, I may be fat, but I am in good health.
5. For my car that gets me wherever I need to go, from work to church and everywhere in between
6. For VBS, God knows I do not have the patience to teach, but He has given me the talent for organization and someone has to be bossy, right?
7. Dana. She rocks
8. Tonya, she rocks too.
9. Sara, she rocks and rolls
10. For all my blogging family, Dave, Pat, Tina, Kaymanc, all of you, I love you.
11. VBS (attached are some pictures from Tuesday night, sorry there are so many, I couldn't pick)

12. Gramma Crouch
13. People who made our once igloo turned to snow pile, back to an igloo.
14. There are a million more, I won't bore you... but the best one of all...
I have a God who loves me, and I can worship Him and Love Him until I meet Him.

I will praise you as long as I live, and in Your name, I will lift up my hands. Psalm 63:4

You got any blessings to count? We're fighting demons today, post 'em

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Today the key word for VBS is TRUST. Yesterday was a success, well, I think everyone thought it but me. Don't get me wrong, it went well, I think no one realized the mistakes except me. Which I guess is really good. Every year I think of ways to improve it.

The kids had a blast, it is amazing how people step up and use their gifts, we have an awesome choir director and his wife (who also teaches) who do the music, the teachers are so great, the crafters, the kitchen helpers, the enrollers, recreation, it's great!

Last year I was a stress ball. This year, I am sure I looked concerned, but my heart was trusting, I knew God had it all under control (on Friday I was a little stressed), everyone showed up (that's always a bonus), the kids looked like they were having a lot of fun. Ms. Angie had the little ones walking like polar bears, and talking on thin ice, it was great to see (and you know there's always that one kid who wants to break the ice so everyone falls in).

I have some ideas for next year, not sure if I think we should do a theme packet or go on our own... We will see, we will listen, and we will Trust.

Today's verse:

Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; 6 in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.

P.S. I was going to write about this verse yesterday, but I couldn't find the words until after VBS, isn't it funny how God works... I needed to learn the lesson first...

Monday, July 24, 2006


Fitting In

This morning I was reading blogs, needed to write mine, but didn’t really have any inspiration. It will come later I thought... I was on my way to work, and it did…

Did you ever see the movie ‘The Gospel’. Great movie. It’s the amplified version of the Prodigal Son. Thinking about having a movie night to watch it, I own it, bought the soundtrack on the way home (had to go to two stores) from the movie. It’s phenomenal. It was on StarsBLK last night; I was driving to work listening to Yolanda Adams belt out the lyrics of ‘Victory’ (song lyrics below). Whew, that women can sing and with the music turned up loud enough, so can I. Anyhow, I was praising and singing and I thought… now I know where I fit in… probably not where you think.

If you know me, you know that wherever I am, I feel like I don’t always fit in. I have come to realize that life is not a jigsaw puzzle that all the pieces line up just the way we see them, God has a different view. My family is very different from me or should I say, I am different than them. I don’t fit in at work, I have friends there, but my perception is that I am different from them, not bad, not good, just different. Sometimes I don’t even fit in at church cuz I am such… oh, let’s just say I’m “such” you can fill in the blank. Most times I don’t mind being different, I know I am called to be different. I don’t mind it at all, ok, I mind it, but I figure, God has His plans and who am I to mess with those plans.

And as I singing, getting overwhelmed with emotion, eyes were misting up, I thought, I do have the Victory. I have the Victory of Jesus, I am blessed beyond belief that I can hear God talking to me, telling me where to go, I see how He has worked in amazing ways to work in and on me, I even sometimes see how He works through me. I was singing the first Verse, and I was just overwhelmed, He loves me, He protects me.

You know where I fit?

In the palm of His hand.

Victory
I got ,got the victory
I got the sweet ,sweet victory in Jesus
yes I do
He is a mighty conqueror
In him I will trust all my battle's He'll fight
I got ,got the victory
I got the sweet ,sweet victory in Jesus for me
He died but He rose on the third day
that's why I have true victory everyday
Verse 1:
Truly I been through the storm and rain
I know everything about heartache and pain
But God carried me through it all
Without His protection I'd surely fall
I been broke without a dime to my name
but all my bills got paid 'cause I called on Jesus name
You can't tell me that God isn't real
'cause I got the victory and that's why I'm still here
Chorus
I'm not worried 'bout material things
I don't have I just rest 'cause I'm sure in my savior's care 'cause
I know that my blessing is on the way
I can't see it right now but I stand by faith
I fought many ,many battle's in His name
I held up the bloodstained banner and proclaim
that Jesus is the Truth and the Light
believe it when I say He will make it alright

Sunday, July 23, 2006


Deut 4:35 You were shown these things so that you might know that the LORD is God; besides him there is no other.

This is tomorrow's scripture for VBS. the kids are going to the Artic Edge, and I thought for this week, I would write about each scripture and it's relevence to my life...

As I have told you, I grew up in a very multicultural city, Dearborn, Mi, I have many friends of Muslim descent. I used to believe, one God many paths. I grew up Catholic, I understood the basics of Christianity, knew I was Catholic, understood the Muslim religion, or at least the basics of it. I never wanted to be anything but Christian, I respect their religion, but I don't believe it.

I have been through a few challenges in my life, always has God walked with me, I have had the Holy Spirit guiding me for a long time, experienced forgiveness for the sins I have committed through the blood of Jesus Christ. I read this scripture and I thought, there is a reason for everything. All this so I would know besides Him, there is no other. God has used people in my life to touch it in so many ways, and I hope He continues to use me. And He has thought of us, to every detail, so that we would know, there is no other.

I can hear David Crowder, "there is no one like You, there has never, ever been anyone like You". How special are we that He loves us so much, all we go through, is just so we know, there is no one like Him, no one loves us like He does.

How great is our God? He's so great!

Saturday, July 22, 2006

Gram's 88th Party

The first pic is of all the grandkids with Gram.
Robert, Erica, Me, Jennifer, Phyllis, and of course, the birthday girl!




The next pic is me in the middle of "the kids", Phyllis, Jennifer, Erica, & Robert. They are so awesome, each of them is so different.






This is my uncle (top left), dad (top right), Gram (bottom left), Sissy (bottom right)

Today was my Gram’s 88th B-day party, her actual B-day was the 19th. She doesn’t get around very well anymore, she has oxygen, she’s not always very nice, and she’s a little kooky.
When I am with my dad’s side of the family, I always feel like I don’t fit in. I am very different than “the adults” and I have one of “the kids”, I am the generation lost somewhere in the middle. I have responsibility, I am always making something or doing something but I have no say in anything. But I can say that they now do gatherings on Saturdays instead of Sundays because I won’t come if it interferes with church – well, they get one “Sunday” a year (thanks Sara).
Those kids are lucky, “the adults” learned from their mistakes with me, so “the kids” are better off for it. There are a lot of things I am because no one listened, I FEEL like no one even asked me my opinion on anything, until I was much older and they don’t listen anyway. They ask my opinion and do what they want to anyway. I always wonder, what they heck (Pat – not the word I would use) did you ask me for, you never do it my way anyway. I was (though they will never admit it) a constant disappointment. I didn’t get the best of grades, I didn’t want to be a nurse (they even tried bribing me with buying me a car), single mom at 20, I do not work in civil service or as a nurse, I am loud, oh, let’s add that I am Baptist, they are all Catholic, and the list goes on and on… and they wonder why I have low self esteem.
I love my little cousins who are now 14, 13, & 12. I always try to be interested in them, hug them, and love on them. They are all different from me, but like the kids in YG, I learn a lot from them, I hope they know how much I love them.
I am glad that God doesn’t wait to be in our lives when we are ready, He walks with us our whole lives. I love my family, but one thing I wish (and the buck stopped here), I wish they would have told me Jesus loved me. I wish they would have not taught me rituals and memorized prayers, but I wish they would have told me what it means to have Him in my heart, told me what those prayers mean. I am not really God fearing, I am more afraid of disappointing Him, though I know God is all powerful, I know that I want to please Him more than I am afraid of His wrath, because God, He’s a loving God. My family loves me in their own kooky way, my dad is awesome, not perfect, but he’s a great dad. But I am so jealous of those people who were Christians their whole lives, who had the foundation of God, and all that He is. I know my path, I know how God uses me in amazing ways because of the life I’ve lead, and that somehow I will touch others because of His love.

Friday, July 21, 2006

No Stoppin'

Ain't no stoppin' us now
We're on the move(We're on the move)
Ain't no stoppin' us now
We've got the groove(We've got the groove)

VBS is right around the corner. There's no stopping it, no matter what comes up in my life. I remember very well the stress of last year. It was crazy, calling to get tiles at the last minute for a craft because Lowe's & HD were out of the size we needed. Dana and I did not have a CLUE what we were doing, we just kept praying, knowing God would bring us through it.

This year it seems to almost have gone too smooth (that always makes me nervous no matter how organized I am) but this year has been just as big of a test of faith. I lost the volunteer list. Yes, that's right. I have to put ALL my faith in that it will work out. It will. I have a few odds and ends to pick up for the crafts, but really doing well.

I attribute this peace to being close to God. I know that God can bring me through anything. He is just so awesome. My heart still aches a little (ok a lot) because of the lies, but there is nothing I can do to change it, it's up to God to heal it. I know that He is giving me all I need to heal, one bandaid at a time. I know that each day I grow a little closer to Him.

Come near to God and He will come near to you. James 4:8

Thursday, July 20, 2006

Inadequate

Sometimes I wonder what the heck I am doing? I'm not qualified. For a lot of things.

VBS co-chair? are you kidding me? when I signed up for it last year, I had been to ONE VBS and all I did was take pictures. I know what kids like because I have one, thank goodness you can buy those little books and information so they tell you what to do... and from there... you can be creative.

I am speaking at a Prayer Service in August, I did it last year. I worked on it for 2 weeks. I never did it before, the people that go to my church, they are well versed in the bible, like I am going to teach them something. Yeah, right. But I give it my best shot. I liked it but I feel a little overwhelmed. I am always afraid no one will show up, it will be just me and God (and that's ok too).

Now, going to "lead" a bible study. Oh yeah, did I mention that I never did that before? Oh yeah, that should be interesting, I will have to study a lot so I don't look like a fool and don't embarrass God (or Beth Jones - it's her bible study).

I often feel inadequate. I think there is no way I can do it, and if I do, people will think I am an idiot or think "this time she really did something she wasn't prepared to do" but looking back on Sara's post the other day, being unprepared isn't an option. I will pray, listen, and execute. God will make sure I have what I need. I am in adequate, I am bruised and broken, but thankfully God can pick up my pieces and put me back together, and use me.

All things are possible with God. Matthew 19:26

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

I don't know what to write. I am a woman with a lot of words, but right now, they all escape me(I think this is God's way of MAKING me shut up). Here is the words to a song that I have been singing a lot lately. It's by either Michael Gungor or Lisa Gungor. It's awesome...

There is a God who loves me
Who wraps me in His arms
And that is the place where I'm changed
And that's where I belong

[Chorus]
Take me to that place Lord
To that secret place where
I can be with You
You can make me like You
Wrap me in Your arms
Wrap me in Your arms
Wrap me in your arms

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Just because you're paranoid, does not mean someone is not after you...

After everything that is going on lately... I feel like this test, someone is watching me. I am all about being true to myself, and in doing that being true to God. To the average person it may sound wierd, but I don't want to disappoint God. When someone looks at me, looks at my heart, they know it's bought by God, it also may sound wierd but I want them to see I make mistakes but how I handle them, that is what is important. Grace.

I don't know who it is, if it is God who is checking to make sure I am faithful in the little things, if it's someone who is just on the verge of doing the "Jesus" thing, I don't know if it's satan (yes, I still don't like to capitalize his name) to see how far from center he can carry me, but you know, it just might be Phyllis, how will her mom come up against this opposition. Will mom/Margie do the right thing? Will she walk the talk she has been saying? Will she pray like she tells me?

I'm doing my best, I am a new creation, and sometimes I am a new creation every week, day, hour, minute. Sometimes I have to start over, regroup, get my poop in a group (that's for you Pat), I need to listen to the directions of my Almighty Lord (again- because sometimes I didn't get it so good the first, second, or third time).

I might just be quiet for awhile. I may seem like I am doing nothing, I am just listening. Being still, shutting up. Finding the answers in His word. I know the answer is in there, I just need to find it.

Psalm 46:10 Be still and know I am God.

Monday, July 17, 2006

I forgot who I work for...

Yikes... VBS is right around the corner... Dana and I went to the church to start getting everything together, seperated, I am a little anal. Ok, a lot anal, it's my way. Last year we were overwhelmed by donations, we had so much stuff, we didn't know what to do with it... this year it didn't seem that we had as much. I was freaking out, our budget isn't huge, who has time to go and get everything. So... we took a walk over to the other side... the side that had leftovers from last year. Ok, we had an overflowing box of stuff by the time we were done.

Before we filled the box, they (Dana, Sue, & Dawn) tried to tell me, don't worry Margie, God loves children, Margie, but that wasn't stopping me, I was freaking out. I forgot who I worked for. Hello, God gives me health, parking spaces, cures for Rheumatoid Arthritis for Phyllis, Answered Prayers, Unanswered prayers, yeah, He pretty much takes care of it all. Yeah, He's good like that.

So, I looked at the list that we need to shop for, it isn't much at all. I remember who I work for. He is good, He is SO good!

Oh... and we have an igloo, you should see it... it's sweet! Made out of milk jugs. God is good, He's what? He's so good!

Romans 12:2 Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will

Romans 8:28 God works for all those who love Him.

Matthew 6:34 4Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own
I am not one to let crap drag on, but I also have become one who doesn't speak quickly (James 1:19). This has gone on long enough.
But today is the day I need to meet something head on. God will be by my side the whole time, probably with one hand over my mouth.

Please pray for me.

A better blog later, I promise.

Sunday, July 16, 2006

So it was very hot today, we invited ourselves over to our cousin's last night, there was no way I was going to spend the time away from the water on a day that was going to be so hot that hell was jealous... so we went to Rob & Wanda's, cousins on my mom's side. They were gracious enough to have us (I even brought my own floaty). So as you know... it was a beautiful day! I just sometimes am in awe of how good God is to me. Visited Metro, Jeremy was on top of his game today, Mike as always, worshipped like a rock star, and that Diva in the back - whew, she knocked my socks off. With everything going on, I just was so in awe of how God touched my heart.

But somehow after church it got better. Went to our favorite Subway in Dearborn, yes, I understand, it's a long way for Subway, but it's worth it. Saw my friend's dad. The off to the K's (my cousins) to spend a beautiful day in the pool. I thought I would share some pics...

The first one is me, reading my book! Then Erin (Rob & Wanda's beautiful daughter) & Phyllis, one of the view from my floaty.


ok... on to more positive... Went on the boat yesterday, thought I would share some pics. It was BEAUTIFUL day! Gorgeous, worked on my tan! Read a new book, 4th this year! WOO HOO!!
Top 10 Reasons why I like going on the boat
1. Swimming
2. Tanning
3. Reading
4. No one cares what you look like
5. Relaxing
6. Watching the kids enjoying themselves
7. Hanging out with Deni & Dad
8. Remembering how much God loves me
9. Eating without guilt
10. Past memories/Making new ones

Saturday, July 15, 2006

I have an addition to my post from today. While I was out on the boat, somehow I always feel closer to God when I am out there. It's like super duper cable internet! We were talking, mostly I was talking, and i have said before that I am very good at seeing the best in people, but sometimes because I want to believe the best in people. It can be a good thing, but sometimes it’s not. I think people are in our lives for a season, not a lifetime.
I mentioned earlier about my friend, some lies about her and me. I hate lies. I think if you tell one, come clean, and then move on. But like Mike said, “a lie becomes the truth” and they just keep going, and I am sorry to burden all of you with this, but I have to get it out.
So God and I were talking… I said how come it’s cream that comes to the top, and he said, sometimes it’s pond scum. Remember yesterday at Cedar Point… “OOOHHH YYEEAAHHH”… I know that this liar was in my life for a reason, and somehow I drew comfort in this friend, but apparently that season is over. The leaves have fallen from the trees.
The thing about me, I do see the good in people, but raised the way I was, I see the bad in people, the really bad in people. And that’s the part of being sensitive to a lot of things I don’t like. Sometimes I can see it right away, and sometimes it takes awhile.
I will address this in my own time. I will confront this liar about what she has done, and I will do it with a heart that is protected by God, right now just thinking about her makes me want to vomit. I feel like I am closer to God than I have ever been, and I know it sounds really weird, but I feel like God has something awesome in store for me, He’s testing me with some little stuff, giving me enough rope to do a lot of good but in case I get into trouble, He has me close enough to not distrupt any good that is already done, and I feel like right now, Satan is trying all his little dirty tricks to keep me from being faithful in the little things, but that stinky butt has forgotten one thing… I wear the Armor of God proudly. I wear the buckle of truth. I know that the words I speak are the truth. I have the breast plate of righteousness, my feet are fitted with the gospel of peace (otherwise, I would be telling someone off instead of praying about it and searching for His word). I have the shield of faith that God knows what I need to defeat Satan, I wear proudly the helmet of the salvation that comes from the good Lord, and I have the word of God.
And for you, the one who keeps apologizing, stop, because of you, I have seen the truth, and the truth shall set you free. I should thank you. SO… thank you… and I love you!

Eph 6:10-20 10Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. 12For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. 18And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints. 19Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, 20for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.
"a lie becomes the truth" (Billy Jean by Michael Jackson)

I have a great friend, she is very dear to me, I haven't known her very long, but we have a ton in common, it's ironic that when we talk, I understand her experiences because we have had so many of the same. I know God brought us together in friendship, to celebrate each others victories, to comfort each other in our times of need. We have both had "old lives" and are so pleased that we now live our life in Christ. My issue today is that we have a mutual person (the person who introduced us - for once it's not Sara) who lied about her, just said a lot of things that were not true about her. Now, normally, i would mind my own business, "I'm Switzerland", but this time I felt it necessary to let my friend know because really, I prayed about it and it was wrong the things this person was saying about my friend, and I love her. And somehow, oh i know how, the mutual person (first I used mutual friend, but there is nothing friendly about her) is now lying about ME!

So my first instinct would have been to go over there and pop that person right in the nose. Ok, thankfully, I did not. But I started praying about this lying thing, I prayed for the mutual "friend", I think that she doesn't even realize how wrong it is. I think she lied, then she had to cover it up, and with all the dirt she used to cover it up, she began to believe her lies, I actually think she believes her lies as the truth because of all the justification. A lie is a lie and say them about me, I may forgive, but I don't know if I will forget, trust is a big thing with me, break my trust and it's tough to rebuild, especially when your truth is not the truth, how will I ever know if you are lying or telling the truth. I am a straight forward kind of person, I tell you what I think, I typically don't hold anything back, I try to live my life in an honest way, I've learned in a few short years that it's easier "to keep your story straight" if there is nothing to hide.

So I am praying, for my true friend (and her punkin, she got bit by a "skeeto" and had a reaction), I am praying for the liar, and I am praying for me (selfish, I know).

But the moral of the story, just tell the truth, it's easier on everyone.

In hope of eternal life which God, who cannot lie, promised before time began - Titus 1:2
You shall not bear false witness against your neighbor - Exodus 20:16
You have not lied to men but to God. —Acts 5:4

Friday, July 14, 2006

I looked up a lot of bible verses, I don’t know how well I did, I really am not good at doing it, because usually the verse is already picked out and then I write/read/talk about it. But I did my best. I’m off to Cedar Point!Love you

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Promise Yourself…

To be so strong that nothing disturbs your peace of mind

My peace I give you. —John 14:27
What greater strength can we find but in the Lord Almighty. In John 14 Jesus gives us peace. When we remember that God is our center, and nothing is stronger than Him, we will find peace.

To speak only of health, happiness, and prosperity to everyone you meet

Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. Eph 4:29

I think this is so important. I had this awesome friend, Tommy, he used to tell me that everyday I should say something good about myself (low-self-esteem issues) and he said that I would start to believe it, that my world would be surrounded by positives.

To let your friends know that you see something in them

Romans 1:11-12 11I long to see you so that I may impart to you some spiritual gift to make you strong— 12that is, that you and I may be mutually encouraged by each other's faith.

Encouragement is so important. It builds us up while the world tries to knock us down.


To look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true

A merry heart does good, like medicine. —Proverbs 17:22

I can only speak from my own experience, I touch more lives, do more good, feel better when I look at the bright side of things.

To think only of the best, work only for the best, and expect only the best

You shall have honest scales, honest weights, . . . I am the Lord your God. —Leviticus 19:36

This one kind of speaks for itself, there is no higher power than our Lord.

To be just as enthusiastic about the successes of others as you are about your own

Love your neighbor as yourself. —Matthew 22:39

He tells us, love your neighbor, I think it’s such a blessing to see others grow.

To forget about the mistakes of the past and forge on to greater achievements of the future
Be clothed with humility, for "God resists the proud, but gives grace to the humble." —1 Peter 5:5

How lucky I am that I don’t get what I deserve. I know that Jesus died for me, and I am so thankful, I try (I said try) to not dwell on the past, there is nothing I can do to change it. No need trying.

To wear a cheerful countenance at all times

Count it all joy when you fall into various trials. —James 1:2

This is my favorite verse. Whatever I am going through, it’s all for the greater good, and sometimes the smile is fake, but sometimes I know God is molding me and making me into a better creation.

And give every single living thing you meet a smile

I am the light of the world. He who follows Me shall not walk in darkness, but have the light of life. —John 8:12

This one reminds me of the song, “this little light of mine” because we are the light of Christ, He shines through us and I know that sometimes I feel like I am glowing when I smile because Christ is coming through my facial expressions to everyone around me.

To spend so much time improving yourself that you don’t have time to criticize others

Do you not know that those who run in a race all run, but one receives the prize? Run in such a way that you may obtain it. —1 Corinthians 9:24

Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up. —1 Corinthians 13:4

When I improve myself, when I feel good about the life I am leading, I see the best in others.

To be too noble for anger

"Be angry, and do not sin": Do not let the sun go down on your wrath. —Ephesians 4:26

I have learned that anger is a wasted emotion. It very rarely reaps any reward.

To strong for fear

Jesus] said to them, "It is I; do not be afraid." —John 6:20

To large for worry

Matthew 6:25-34 "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[a]?

28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

And too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

We have a great High Priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God. —Hebrews 4:14

This one, kind of self explanatory, we have the greatest gift ever, there is no reason why we shouldn’t be happy!

Thursday, July 13, 2006

When I was first starting out in the Transnational Division at Lear I was sent to Dale Carnegie. And Lord, have mercy, I needed it. I was mean, and hurt, and hurtful. The later because I could be. I learned a lot in that course. More than I ever thought possible. I did have an issue with the week that we had to memorize “The Box Factory”. Seriously, I was quite the little B word and refused to do it. I am sure Sue (the instructor) wanted to kill me, but she didn’t.

There was one instructor, Wendy, she wrote this poem, and read it, and I loved it from the first time I heard it and for 6 years it has traveled to each desk, makes its way to the wall in a place where I can be reminded of it, daily, hourly if I need to. I think for the next couple days I am going to search for scripture verses for each sentence.

The Optimist’s Creed

Promise Yourself…

To be so strong that nothing disturbs your peace of mind
To speak only of health, happiness, and prosperity to everyone you meet
To let your friends know that you see something in them
To look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true
To think only of the best, work only for the best, and expect only the best
To be just as enthusiastic about the successes of others as you are about your own
To forget about the mistakes of the past and forge on to greater achievements of the future
To wear a cheerful countenance at all times
And give every single living thing you meet a smile
To spend so much time improving yourself that you don’t have time to criticize others
To be too noble for anger
To strong for fear
To large for worry
And too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006


The things I do...

I have a pretty full plate, employee, mom, daughter, friend, church-goer, church-doer...

I like to be busy, I like to be involved, I like to volunteer. But here's the issue sometimes, I do too much (don't say a word), and sometimes I don't enjoy all my blessings because I am just too tired.

Last year I was a list of things, Evan Board, VBS coordinator, Sunday School teacher, volunteer extrodinare. Because I was so exhausted God gave me specific directions, "the church needs some 'doers', they need leaders too, but this year, it's not you - do you hear me, it's not you!"

So this year, I am working on some small stuff that needs to be done, making up paperwork, doing a little booklet, still doing Driven and VBS, and I sit and pray "are you sure Lord, I could do that?" And it's always the same "nope".

There are things in my life that I am not sure what my purpose is, I don't know why I am there, the school I chose, the job I am in. I do know one thing, whatever the reason, it's all about Him, its not about me.

So as I embark on some new things for me, its about the Glory to God, not the Glory of Margie. And whatever it is that He wants me to do, He'll bless it, and doors may shut, only to be replaced by bigger, and better double french doors. As I sit here, and pray, "dear Lord, you know I love You, and I know You love me, and Lord, whatever you ask, Lord, it's all for Your good, and how You are going to work in the lives of others. So no matter what it is, Lord, my answer is yes. Yes to whatever you have in store for "little me". In Jesus' Name I pray. AMEN

Proverbs 16:3 Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed.


And Bryan, thanks for making me laugh!