Passion



Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)


Thursday, June 30, 2011

I won't do that again!

The 'boys' in our office do a weightloss challenge, lose 10 pounds in 3 months. I decided that I would do it. First 'girl'. Everyone puts in $100, if you hit 10 pounds, you are guarenteed your money back. If you don't make it, your money goes in the 'kitty' and then is divided amongst the winners.

I made it! Buy the skin of my teeth! Literally! I'm so happy I made it! SOOO happy. Mostly because I was the first girl! And I wanted my money back.

Looking back... I won't do that again! I'm not a big dog, so I will stay on the porch!

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

In His image

Did you ever notice how people look down on each other?

At my job there are many different disciplines that go into what we do, how we launch a product. And quite frankly, it seems that people are always putting others down because they have the perception that someone’s job is not as important as theirs or not as hard.
I learned a long time ago , that every person is needed, that every job is needed.

Today I got a note from one of the Accounts Receivable peeps, they had checked on something for me, and I signed my email, ‘thanks I appreciate you and what you do’. I think by their response, they were taken by surprise. They are important, I truly do appreciate what they do, on the same hand, I appreciate the peeps I work with, I appreciate the peeps on my program, and I appreciate everyone who has something to do with the building.

Never look down on someone. Just because they may do a job that you may consider unskilled, don’t look down on them. Everyone is important. That guy that fills the supplies for your printer? Try running out and see how important he is then. How about the lady that cleans the bathroom? Who wants to go to a dirty bathroom? When I make desserts for my work peeps, I am intentional on asking them if they want one. They matter to me, not because of what they do, but because of who they are. They are loved by God and made in His image. They were made with skills (organizational, cleaning) for such a time as this. They are no more or less important than me or anyone else for that matter.

I’m thankful that God has opened my eyes to see things the way He sees them, not the way the world sees peeps.

“The LORD will vindicate me; your love, LORD, endures forever— do not abandon the works of your hands.” Psalm 138:8 NIV

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

I will find victory!

I’m a little disappointed in +.8 this week. Of course, being that I had ALL my favorites at the grad party, it could have been so much worse.

I will find victory.

I will find victory in the fact that as stressed as I got at one point or another, I turned to Jesus, not food.

I will find victory in the fact that I ate 3 cookies, not 3 plate fulls.

I will find victory that in my favorites, there were healthy options for me and others!

I will find victory in ONLY +.8 when it could have easily been +8 (you know it’s true)

I will find victory in that I am an overcomer!

I will find victory that tomorrow is a new day!

I will find victory in that I’m still a loser (overall) and that makes me a winner!

It's been busier... than normal...

It's been kind of nutty in our house for the last couple months, deciding to have a grad party, when all along you aren't planning to have one can make your life a little hectic, which it did mine. And I can tell you that I loved it! I loved the preparation, I loved the party, and I love that it's all over! Feel like my head's been in my belly button regarding all things other than the party.

I loved looking back the last few months at the last few years. Seems somehow that my life truly began when my Pean came into it!!

I'm thankful that it's over and I can now really enjoy all the work I put into my house!

Phyllis left for Cornerstone for a week of camping with friends! It's kind of weird because normally I have TONS of stuff to do during the week, and this week? nothing. (I keep saying "left unattended I can get into a lot of trouble" so I'm trying to stay out of trouble hee hee) I weigh in today at WW, and I will straighten my house, sent out a text or two to meet with some friends, going to GF Village with my cousin on Saturday morning after my nail appt, but nothing crazy going on in this neck of the woods, and I'm glad!

Thankful for so much!

Saturday, June 25, 2011

At the end of today!

At the end of a day like today, you look back, and you can’t help but get just a little teary. I can’t say enough thank you’s. Often people say to me ‘you raised such a great girl, you should be so proud”. I am. But I didn’t get here on my own. In each step of the journey there was someone, holding my hand, crying with me, laughing with me, praying with me and for me.

Family was here, friends, church family, work family peeps. Surrounded by so many, and I can honestly tell you, I couldn’t invite everyone that we love or love us. But it’s days like today when you just can’t help to be thankful. You can’t help but say ‘Thank You God, You have given me way more than I deserve”.

I will have a long blog post soon with a huge amount of thank you’s. But the first one just has to be to Jesus. I know that if I was the only one, He would have gotten on that cross for me. And truly, that would have been enough. My eternity matters that much, to Him, He loved me that much.

I think about His word, and how it has changed my life so much, how truly it is God breathed, and has given me new life. A life filled with joy, peace, love, and faith. It keeps me from the depths of darkness and makes me soar in the bluest skies.

I thank Him for His healing in my life, in my beautiful daughter’s life. Amazing.

He pursued me, chased after me, relentlessly, and I now, chase after Him. I pursue Him, and love Him, and experience a kind of love that cannot really be explained, only lived.

At the end of days like today, I feel so incredibly loved by so many. And by Jesus.

It is far more than I deserve.

Thank you to all those who shared in our special day, and thank You Jesus, for everything!

Friday, June 24, 2011

Harvest!

I’m reading a book called ‘Compelled by love’ I’m only on like page 20 but it’s so inspiring! I could probably read a lot more pages if I didn’t stop to pray or think about the beautifully scripted words on the pages. Right now I’m reading about reaching the lost.

I was reading my brother Cecil’s posts this morning

Galatians 6:7
Don’t be misled—you cannot mock the justice of God. You will always harvest what you plant.

He often posts scriptures in the morning and I read them and often pray them all day long. Man, the word of God is inspiring. I have in my bathroom word art that says ‘don’t judge each day by the harvest that you reap but by the seeds that you plant’.

I think about how many people I have impacted in a good or a bad way. My hope is that I’ve done a better job at loving and that I keep loving more.

I was thinking about things that don’t seem like that big of a deal make a difference. This is such a small thing, I used to be on first five. Totally inspired by my friend Stacy. She was the best first fiver ever! When you walked through the doors of Metro, whether it was FRHS or ‘the building’ you knew that she was happy to see you. When I started first five, I wanted every single person who walked through the door to know ‘you are welcome here’ even ‘welcome home’. I really tried to greet each person with a smile, and often a hug. The Torres family was no different! I learned their names right away ‘Cecil, Cecil, Robin, Amber’. They mattered to me even though I had never met them before. I will tell you this, those 4 + their newest Eden, have come to mean so much to my heart.

I’m always amazed at the way God orchestrates things. How He puts people in our lives that bless us so! Yesterday I was in my garage setting up a couple tables or something, and just said ‘God I can’t thank You enough’. There are things in my life that He has orchestrated that I never saw, that I will never see. So thankful He is the Ultimate Conductor in my life!

Psalm 98:5 (msg) Round up an orchestra to play for God, Add on a hundred-voice choir

Thursday, June 23, 2011

I keep getting in trouble!

Here’s the problem… I’m addicted to making food at a party. And every time I see something I say ‘I should make this’ the party food list is already long enough (truly it is, I even called one friend and said ‘bring tupperware’)
SO this is the final list! Final meaning… if I add anymore my daughter might get mad and not show up for her own party!

Chicken
Ham
Meatballs
Taco Bar (includes cheese sauce & rice)
Mac & Cheese (she was telling someone about this because it’s Homemade and I thought she was bragging but she later revealed that she was pointing out how ridiculous the list has gotten)
Pasta Salad
Chicken BLT Salad
Potato Salad
Veggie Tray
Fruit
Cupcakes
Sugar Cookies
Surprise cookies (meaning I’m not sure what Sara is bringing)
PB cookies
Brownie Bites
Corn Flake Treats

Things I’d like to add:
Mashed Potatoes
Cukes & Sour cream

Yes, I do realize that I could feed a small country. It’s ok, it will all get eaten or donated!!!!

as of late....

So I weighed in Tuesday, was thrilled, -2.2.  Total since back to WW, -15! 

Phyllis’s party is Satruday, and we have another party Sunday. Of all the things I am stressed out about… what the heck I’m going to eat on Saturday is top of the list! I want to have whatever I want, there’s a reason why I chose the food I did, I love it!!  And let’s just not forget that I could eat my weight (which is a lot) in homemade potato salad (I’m completely serious about this!). 

My next goal is –20.  I’m giving myself a month.  1 month, 5 lbs, seems reasonable.  Starting Sunday I will be running again.  I have put off my training long enough, I have to get in the game.  I have been so busy, but I need to make it a priority and I will be running 5 & 10K’s as some added ‘fun’.  Fun?  I know… not really.  So soon I’ll be checking for them.

So that’s it.  Stressed about eating…  yikes… 

I did download the free Craving God devotional onto my nook, it was free!  So I think that will also help, you can get it online too, delivered right to your emailbox.

Check out the website http://madetocrave.org/

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

I want my life to count for love

Quite often I think about all the things I don't do, or will never do.


I'll probably never adopt a baby from Africa or any other country (but I'm a great Auntie)
I'll probably never be a pastor (though I can preach the gospel - in as few words as necessary)


I want my life to count for something.  I want to make a difference.  I want you to know that you are loved.  I work with teens and quite often, like adults, they make mistakes.  But they are usually a little less sly about keeping them under wraps than adults.  Adults have had years to be cunning, teens/college students, not so much.  


Recently I found out that a bunch of people wouldn't drink in front of me, or tried to hide it. I actually laughed out loud many times while thinking of this.  I wondered, is it fear or respect?  Do you think I don't or have never had a sip of alcohol.  Now, come on, have you never heard my testimony?  I would have a lot more respect for those who were hiding it if they just came forward (I already know who you are) and were honest.


Things like this don't make me love you less.  They don't make me love you more either.  I already love you. In all the days of my life, I want those around me to know I love you.  Doesn't mean that I won't be disappointed sometimes (I have high hopes for all those I love - you have much to achieve Jer 29:11), I just love you.  No matter what.


I hope at the end of the day, my life counts for love.


1 John 4:18-19 18 There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.
 19 We love because he first loved us

Fat Club

I joined the fat club at work.  I was the first girl.  You put in $100 and in 12 weeks (or something) you need to lose 10 pounds. It’s totally doable in a safe way and it’s good motivation.  If you lose the 10 pounds, you get your money back, and anyone who doesn’t, their money goes into the pool and divided amongst anyone who does.

Soooo…. By the standards of every scale I weigh on, I’m there, EXCEPT the scale at work.  I seriously think it’s broken! I weigh in today, so I don’t know what the WW scale will same (I’m hoping for -2.2) and I’m going to be close by the changes in my scales.

I am trying not to think about it, I weigh in June 30, it is what it is.  I know that I’ve done a good job in making choices of what to eat and what not to eat.  I’ve counted my points, even yesterday, I was hungry, I didn’t have any points left for the day (I had 36 points left from my extra) but since today is weigh in day, I chose strawberries instead of anything else.

Of course we want to win.  But thankfully, this battle, it’s already won by the Lord, I just need to stay in His path, He will take care of it all.


James 4:1 What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don’t they come from your desires that battle within you?


P.S I bought a pair of Capri's about 6 weeks ago... they were kind of tight... yesterday I got them off, without struggle and i didn't have to unbutton or unzip them :)

Sunday, June 19, 2011

I keep telling myself...

6 days and counting!  I'm excited about the party!  I have to tell you, that I hope I make it!  I'm exhausted!  I slept 10 hours last night!

I woke up with a migraine today so we didn't do much work!  Did a little gardening today, but that was it!  Got my list going for this week, but I feel like it is out of control.

I keep telling myself, I only invited people we love and that love us (and my list could have been so much bigger!) so if everything is not perfect, it's ok.  And besides, the most important part will be the food, and I've got that handled, just trying not to add anything to the list!

I was cleaning the bathroom tonight and I was looking at my ugly 3X5 cards that are not so attractive but I read them while I get ready in the morning. And because I never swap them out, they're dusty, and bent...  And I wondered if I should take them down.  Seriously, I will never win Better Homes and Gardens decorator of the year, I can't take them down.  They are there because they are a daily reminder of the important things I need to be reminded of!  HIM!!!  So again, I tell myself, you only invited people who love you...  and they will know it's you...

so that's it... not too much going on, listening to God this quiet day.

What do I look like?

Don’t answer that.

I’ve been praying about something since last night. Reviewing me.

I was with two groups of people at two different times yesterday. One that doesn’t love Jesus, and one that says they do. At each time, more than once in my head I screamed ‘Yikes’ could be why I have a headache today. They didn’t look any different. And while it saddened me, I wondered… how many times do I not look like I love Jesus. Yikes! (again, reason for headache). Surely I thought people will say lots of great things about how often I do look like Jesus, however, I purposely don’t post things that make me look NOT like Jesus. Another thing that happened to me is that someone really hurt me when I asked for something they said I had to wait two weeks, but when someone else asked for it the answer was “I’ll get you one, just don’t tell anyone”. I was so hurt. I thought ‘wow, I can’t believe you just did that’ but it made me think ‘sometimes you do something for one but not for all” though I must say I really do try to be fair.  But whether I am fair or not, I will try harder to love bigger!

I got a note from someone last week, an awesome encouragement. It said ‘I have a dear friend at work who truly lives in and spreads the spirit of Jesus. When you first meet her, you don’t think she’s “one of those”. She isn’t preachy or solemn. She is very loud and fun and takes life head on, good and bad, and as I got to know her I realized she has a depth of faith I have never known in another person. Everything she does outside of the office she does to serve God. And as I watched the joy and purpose of her life, it made me want some of that, too.’ That was the beginning of her testimony. I was pretty shocked and thankful that God could use someone who messes up like me.

And then yesterday Pastor Chilly posted about what does it mean to live a Holy Life? Oh boy, fall short again. If I walked as though Jesus was holding my hand surely my life would reflect it. And I know that He is with me always, till the end of the age, He says so.
Matthew 18-20 (second bible lesson I learned) 18Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 19 Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”

‘I am with you always’ Jesus says. I believe His word. I believe in Him. And I believe Him. So I am praying, that my walk matches my talk. That when people see me, they see Him, that He will take me and mold me and use me to gather more to Him.

It’s a painful lesson when you see you in other’s. We learn from those lessons, over and over, until we get it.

Saturday, June 18, 2011

why I love...

Hurt.

Do you ever wonder why we do the things we do, only to be hurt? Or how about when we hurt someone unintentionally? And when I say ‘we’ I mean me.

I started to think about that after being hurt today. I was a little disappointed.

And so I started thinking… why do I love? Really? What’s the point?

Why do we love?

We love because He loved us first. I know people loved before Jesus came but since God created everything, we love because God loved us.

I read a quote today ‘If we really want to love we must learn how to forgive.’ ~Mother Teresa (timely I might add that I've never read that today... and needed it today)

So true. And I want to love and so I must forgive. It’s difficult because I thought that person loved me, truly, but their actions did not match their words. Disappointing. Hurtful. But I will forgive, but truly it is a reminder to me.

1 John 3:18 Dear children, let us not love with words or speech but with actions and in truth

Such a reminder to me today. Dear God, please let my words match the heart and the love You have for me. Let me truly love and forgive like You do.

It is Saturday

I've gone to post a couple times but my thoughts are racing and all jumbled up.

My heart is the same way.

I'm busy and tired.

I need to make my to-do list and ask others for help (for someone who is so bossy, i really hate asking others for help... oh pride, I will overcome you!)

Lots of celebrations today!

Lots of work to do THIS week!

Feel blessed and overwhelmed at the same time! sheesh!

Trying to remember... it's not about me!

Friday, June 17, 2011

Everyday is a struggle

Everyday is a struggle for me, especially when I'm tired, when I'm emotional.

Today was one of the those days.  I'm both.  So on days like to day, I try to find victory in the smallest of things.  I passed on a cupcake (I did!) and I didn't eat mayo because it wasn't the olive oil kind (I did that too).

It might not seem like a big deal, however, we make millions of choices in our lifetime, they make up who we are, and today, I am successful!

Monday, June 13, 2011

Why I passed on ice cream...

Yesterday my name was on the board for a free Medium Ice cream sundae at a local Dairy Queen near my house. Let me tell you I was so excited to see my name that I almost drove off the road. True Story.


I had decided that I would go after I got done grocery shopping, I had also decided that I might just eat that for lunch instead of real food. True Story.

I love grocery shopping. I mean I LOVE LOVE LOVE it! I was thinking about how much weight I had lost so far, last week -4.6, -11.6 total for 6 weeks. I think about this while grocery shopping because it helps me to stay on track.

I have PCOS. Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. I am on 3 different meds to get rid of it. FOR GOOD. A big part of PCOS has to do with insulin production, and I am on Metphormin that is a treatment for Diabetes. I hate being on meds, but I also hate feeling like crap more. Another thing I am on is Adipex. This one I really hate. It makes me hyper and increases the rate of my heart. It is indeed a ‘diet pill’. I didn’t want to go on it, and I take half the prescribed dose because the doc did say that one full pill might be too much.

Anyway back to the ice cream. I decided that I want to get healthy. And we did have Roma’s the night before. And so I decided that I did not need the ice cream. I want to be healthy, I was thinking about how I want to live a long healthy life. In church on Sunday, Phyllis put her head on my shoulder as we were listening to the pastor teach. And as I thought about that ice cream, I thought, I’d like to have my granddaughter do that while we are sitting in church. It might mean that I will have to pass on ice cream sometimes, but I think it will be worth it.
On my mom's side...  my grandma never met me, my mom never met Phyllis... I'd like to break that cycle.

a little overwhelmed!

The countdown began long ago… We’ve got two weeks to go before the big party! I’m excited! And nervous. I’ve cried what seems to be a million tears in the last week. At one point I thought “I’m never gonna stop crying”. Thankfully I did.
I had my list last week, and it all got accomplished. A little every day. Team work in our house and family. This week I’ve got a ton of scrapbooks to get caught up on! I’ve got a plan! I know that no one will care about whether I’ve got every event in the books, but I do.
Oh, and did I mention, I have not ordered her senior pictures yet! TODAY!
Next week is cleaning and prepping and grocery shopping.
It will all get done, or it won’t, and either way, it will be fine!
So needless to say, I’ve been a crappy everything the last two weeks, friend, daughter, blogger, mom…
Grace.

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Menu for the week!

Crazy stuff happening this week! Count down is on for the grad party and I've been getting stuff done a little at a time! It's amazing how it all gets done when you make a list!

Have a great week!

Sunday - Baked Chicken, mashed potatoes, & broccoli
Monday - leftovers (Phyllis works & I'm having dinner with Vicki)
Tuesday - Chicken alfredo with broccoli
Wednesday - ?
Thursday - Tacos (I think) it's commencements!!
Friday - Hummus & fattousch
Saturday - Grad parties!

Friday, June 10, 2011

For crying out loud!

I can't stop crying, or at least I can't stop choking back the tears. (get it?) I finished the picture board for her party, we are having a video too, it will probably be 20 minutes long! and I just found some pics I forgot sheesh!

I just sent my girl off to prom. And I think that people think I'm crying because my baby is growing up, but really that's not it.I'm crying because I'm overwhelmed by how amazing she turned out, how beautiful she is, by God's grace, and how many people love us! I'm also overwhelmed with all the things that have to happen in the next three weeks! (Picture board is done! but I can't find the modge podge stuff to decoupage)

I was thinking about how at 5 days she smiled, and her smile has lit up my life ever since. I thought about when my dad was going to grow a mustache she said "you can't grandpa, how will I recognize you". I thought about zoo trips, and ice cream and trying out for the Rockettes, and baseball and girl scouts, I've thought about hugs and kisses and how she leans in when she knows I want to kiss her head. I think about the mom I am and the mom I could have ended up being (not good), I think about how I could have done it better, but how I really am a good mom. I think about how everything I've ever done has always really been about her.

Being a mom isn't easy, under the best of circumstances but being a single mom is HARD. People say that I make it look easy, but it's not, why do you think I never stop?

I'm just so incredibly thankful. If you would have asked me 19 years ago if I wanted to be a mom right now, I would have said no, but how thankful I am that God knows best. it's true. Father knows best!

By the grace of God go I!

I was totally shocked yesterday when after they read all the top ten’s parents info to find out that I was the only single mom. Now I know that there could have been divorced families but I was the ONLY single parent. I tell you the truth, I was shocked and pretty proud of what I have accomplished when I looked at that beautiful young woman up there! She works hard! She accomplishes much! And she loves Jesus!

But let me tell you this, I know that it is by the Grace of God that I go. I know that she is His love and grace made flesh in my life. I know that He was with us all along. I know that there were soooo many people in our lives that made this possible. And I was thinking ‘I could write a book’ and maybe I will, if only for me, and those 1000s of people who have affected our lives in a good (or not so good way – afterall, sometimes we learn who to be by NOT wanting to be some people). My dad has been amazing in my life, and my family, ohmyword. But I also know that I have had some pretty amazing bosses. Bosses who let her color at my desk because for whatever reason, I needed to work and I didn’t have anyone to watch her. I have been blessed to work for a great company that was God’s provision in paycheck and insurance. I have friends who I consider family who have cheered us on, prayed for us, and hugged us! There is a God in heaven who never stops blessing us!

I am proud of what I’ve accomplished, we’ve come a long way baby, and I can’t wait to see what’s next! But I’m gonna celebrate this for awhile!

1 Cor 15:10 But by the grace of God I am what I am, and his grace to me was not without effect. No, I worked harder than all of them—yet not I, but the grace of God that was with me

Wednesday, June 08, 2011

Sharing my Journey

I’m pretty excited about my weightloss this week!  -4.6 pounds!  Last week was +1.6 so seeing that number was pretty freaking awesome!  The best part? They asked me what brought me back to WW and I got to tell them, Jesus!  And the woman in front of me said ‘I’m not very religious, but I pray’.  Hmmm… maybe this is going to be a time to share the love of Jesus with her!  Every week I can’t wait to encourage her! 

I was thinking about the verse Josh 1:9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”

So true!  Don’t be discouraged. I thought I could have easily gone back to the old way of eating, skipped WW all together but this is my journey right now. It’s hard and exciting! 

I hit my first and second goal this week!  Woo hoo!!

Tuesday, June 07, 2011

Phyllis graduates!

This is my baby’s last week of school before she graduates! I know I will cry because I am so proud not because she is graduating. It’s true what they say ‘they’ll always be your baby!’ She’ll always be my pean! She truly is God’s grace fulfilled in my life in a tangible way.
I did cry the day she finished Kindergarten, but never because I’m sorry to see my baby grow up, each age has had it’s benefits! There’s nothing like a hug from your two year old but there’s also nothing like a hug from your 17 year old when she comes home from Colombia and you find out that she told everyone ‘I get to hug my momma first, she’s MY mom’. There’s nothing like hearing her first words and there’s nothing like having a great conversation at Roma’s about whatever. There’s nothing like the conversations when they are little about what they want to be when they grow up and there is nothing like talking about the future and having no idea what she wants to do but to let herself be lead by God. There’s nothing like watching her learn to sew for the first time at Girl Scout Camp and having her come home with her homemade Prom dress that she invisioned and made come to life! There’s nothing like that can take away the memories or the love or knowing that she loves Jesus. There’s also nothing like looking back knowing that we didn’t get here by ourselves, there was a LOT of God’s grace, a lot of people loving us, praying for us, and cheering us along the way (and hugging us too)!
So as my baby graduates, my heart is overwhelmed with gratitude and love! And I can’t wait to head off to the next adventure!
Col 2:6-7 6 So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live your lives in him, 7 rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness.

Monday, June 06, 2011

Let the lists begin!

I’m a list maker. How do you know if everything is accomplished if there is no list? How do you get it all done without being overwhelmed? Not sure, because I’m a list maker! I’m excited about Phyllis’s Party but there is still a lot to do!
First list (and probably most important) – Food.
If you’re wondering what’s on the menu, the question might be what’s NOT on the menu LOL!

And trying to decide – food inside or outside (what’s your thoughts?)
• Taco Bar
• Chicken – ordered from Kroger – just need someone to pick it up for me!
• Ham – Dad’s got it covered!
• Spanish Rice – Marissa
• Meatballs – me!
• Chicken BLT salad – Kathy
• Pasta Salad – me
• Potato Salad – Wanda
• Veggie Tray & Homemade ranch dressing – me
• Mac & Cheese – me
• Pickles/Olives (green and black)- hoping I can get someone to do this but if not, I’ll handle it!
• Hummus- Malek Kabob (Vicki is picking up)
• Tabouli - Malek Kabob (Vicki is picking up)
• Cookies – Vicki (sugar), Sara? – not sure, Me – Peanut butter
• Cupcakes – Funfetti, Chocolate, & Banana –Us

And here is the lists of things that need to be accomplished this week
• Order Balloons – Phyllis
• Video – Deliver Pics to Katie today – she might hate me after she sees how many pics
• Picture Board (at least pic the pictures)- Phyllis
• Plant Flowers and clean out the rest of the flower beds
• Finish Word art in my office – “To describe my mother would be to write about a hurricane in its perfect power.” Maya Angelou along the top
• Schedule Door installation with Garrett
• Schedule Chair molding installation with Rob (and hopefully the coat rack & light in kitchen)
• Wrap Card box
• Scrapbook a couple pages

It’s going to be a busy week!! But it will be good!

Saturday, June 04, 2011

I hope they know how much I love them!

Yesterday two of ‘my kids’ got married. I sat with some of ‘my kids’ and some other leaders that I served with, and I thought, I wonder if they know how much I love them? I hardly ever see them, and sometimes I read their facebook status’s and I’m like ‘yikes’ and sometimes I’m like ‘yay’ I love them so much!!! Every time I hugged them I felt like my heart was going to burst!

I kept telling them to come over! I’ll cook! I love hearing about their lives, I love seeing them smile, I love watching them grow, and I close my eyes when the choices might end up looking like a train wreck (it happens)!

I hope they know that there is always a meal at my house, a hug waiting, a listening ear.

I know that my life might not look like much, or that people don’t understand why I serve, but I think I get to love more than I deserve, and in return, I get more love than I deserve.

I’m one blessed woman!

1 John 3:18 Dear children, let us not love with words or speech but with actions and in truth

Friday, June 03, 2011

what if you changed the world?

There is a quote by Ghandi - "be the change you want to see in the world"

I love that quote.

Yesterday I felt awesome, more energy than I've felt in a month! It felt so good to feel good. I think that on my worst day I have more energy than most on their good days but I always like to run at peak performance. Part of the issue was last week I ate like crap and felt like crap, garbage in garbage out. I woke up angry because I hate cancer, but I listened to worship music and praised God and slowly as I handed everything over to Him, I began to feel better.

One of my favorite other sayings is 'given a cape and a tiara, I know I could change the world'. I believe that, I also believe that I don't need either of those things, my crockpot will do. My gift of cooking will never ever get me a standing ovation from anywhere, but I know that my gift of cooking nourishes people, their bodies and their souls, people know that when I show up with my crockpot that love is overflowing. I LOVE THAT! I know that as dumb as it seems, I know I'm changing the world, and leaving the balance on the side of good. On the side of Love.

I know that my heart has been changed. I know that on my own, there is no good in me, but opening my heart, and letting True Love in, only good dwells in me. I love what Jesus has done to my heart, I love how He has changed me, I love that I take that change and sprinkle love with every step I take when I walk with Him. It's like heart shaped glitter <3 John 1:1-15
1 In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. 2 He was with God in the beginning. 3 Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. 4 In him was life, and that life was the light of all mankind. 5 The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome[a] it.
6 There was a man sent from God whose name was John. 7 He came as a witness to testify concerning that light, so that through him all might believe. 8 He himself was not the light; he came only as a witness to the light.

9 The true light that gives light to everyone was coming into the world. 10 He was in the world, and though the world was made through him, the world did not recognize him. 11 He came to that which was his own, but his own did not receive him. 12 Yet to all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God— 13 children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband’s will, but born of God.

14 The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the one and only Son, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth.

Thursday, June 02, 2011

I hate cancer!

I hate cancer. If you know me, you know that I really don’t like to use the word ‘hate’.
But today, I’m angry, and hate seems to be the only word that fits. I hate cancer.
I hate that it robs sons of fathers, it robs daughters of mothers. I hate that it just robs children of their parents, of the joy of grandchildren of spending time with the grandparents. I HATE IT!

I’ve seen enough, I’ve hurt enough for my self and others! Have I seen people survive, beat it? Yes, but that doesn’t make me hate it any less.
I fell asleep praying for miracles, and woke up praying for them again. Praying for peace for those who have loved ones that have passed. Praying for strength for those fighting, and thanking God for those who have survived.

I hate cancer.

But I will continue to praise God. Even when it’s hard.


Psalm 105:1-7 1 Give praise to the LORD, proclaim his name;
make known among the nations what he has done.
2 Sing to him, sing praise to him;
tell of all his wonderful acts.
3 Glory in his holy name;
let the hearts of those who seek the LORD rejoice.
4 Look to the LORD and his strength;
seek his face always.
5 Remember the wonders he has done,
his miracles, and the judgments he pronounced,
6 you his servants, the descendants of Abraham,
his chosen ones, the children of Jacob.
7 He is the LORD our God;
his judgments are in all the earth.

Wednesday, June 01, 2011

Scheduling in my exercise

I haven't been very good at working out/running lately. I've been super tired which i know that exercising will help.  It's one of those 'make times' things.  It's been so difficult.
Monday - Rosie
Tuesday - WW
Wednesday - Life Groups
Thursday - nothing but something always comes up
Friday - Bible study (this week a wedding YEAH!)
Saturday - errands and for most of the month of June - grad parties
Sunday - church, time with Pean, and dinner for Alive Leaders

Did I mention that I work full time (outside my home)? and getting ready for a grad party really does take a lot out of a gal!

Today a friend text me about getting together.  My suggestion? walking around Eliz Park and talking.  Normally we eat somewhere, but I really need to start scheduling in my exercise. And running is part of that.  My girlfriend sent me a great link
http://www.runnersworld.com/article/1,7120,s6-380-381-386-236-0,00.html

I am going to the endocrinologist today, checking on my PCOS.  I also know that part of the reason I feel like crap is because I ate like crap all week.  Garbage in, Garbage out.  But this is a new week.  Full of endless possibilities <3.

Focusing on one of my favorite scriptures today.  Love it in the message version:

Phil 3:12-14
12-14I'm not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. Friends, don't get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I've got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward—to Jesus. I'm off and running, and I'm not turning back.

It is what it is...

This past week has been crazy.  when you fail to plan you plan to fail.  isn't that my personality?  I'm such a planner.

It was a crazy week, followed by a crazy weekend of pizza.

I weighed in...  +1.6 OUCH!  but it does not define me.

I made every choice to put that food in my mouth to end up with the results I did.

When I sent my little Phyllis a text she said 'good thing there's next week'.  She's so supportive.

I've been really tired at night lately.  Trouble getting off the couch.  That's not like me.  Gonna get back on my some of my supplements, I've been off them for awhile and I think I need to get back on them!

I'm going to the endcrinologist today about my PCOS.  Not sure what he will say, but I'm excited (kind of) to kick this in the butt and move on!

It's a week ahead of good choices!