I often feel so brave that if someone asked me to go cliff diving, I’d go. Or I’d get on a motorcycle and drive across country (with a helmet of course). Or I’d do some other ridiculously scary thing to me.
And sometimes my legs seem paralyzed with fear. That I could stand in the same spot forever. Thinking “I’ll just wait here”.
And then I remember it.
God did not create me with a spirit of fear.
2 Tim 1:7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind (NKJV)
I learned it in NKJV and it is actually my favorite version of this particular verse.
Today I was just thinking about all the crazy awesome things that are coming this year! So many things I NEVER thought I’d do. And each one started with a single step, sometimes with my eyes closed, arms out. I loveYou Jesus, I trust You. The steps weren’t always easy but I trust Him.
I was literally dreaming about the word ‘Hope’ today. Expectation. Trust.
I think about all the things I’ve messed up in my life, but I know that when I put my love and hope in Jesus, my life truly changed. It didn’t mean that it got easy, though living your life with less (because I’m not without until I’m in heaven) consequence certainly is MUCH MUCH MUCH better. Can’t even compare the two.
I trust Jesus. I sit with here with great expectation that if God calls me to something or somewhere, He’s got it covered.
I have my Hep A&B shot tomorrow. My insurance does not cover them. I was telling friends at dinner tonight, the money just comes, I don’t know how, it just does. And I come home today, and there, from God, is the money to pay for the shot. WHAT?! Again?! Yes, it happens to me all the time.
Hope isn’t a silly thing, that might happen. If God says that He will take care of it, I wait in expectation for Him to show up!
You see, God truly did not create me with a spirit of fear, He created me with a spirit of Love, and I love Him, and I know that fear isn’t real, but Love is. And it wins.