Passion



Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)


Sunday, March 31, 2013

Meal planning

This week almost everything is based on leftovers and whatever is in the freezer/pantry. I'm not going to the store this week.

Meal planning for the week:

Breakfast frittata (quiche with no crust) - ham, cheese, broccoli, mushrooms

Pot pie served with green beans

Enchiladas (leftover pork roast and black beans) served with salad

Italian sausage, rigatoni noodles with butter, broccoli, and garlic butter


Easter dinner


My house isn't fancy, I literally just counted to see if I had matching water glasses for my guests. Truth is  that kind of stuff doesn't always matter to me. Yes, it's true, the leaf in my table for some reason doesn't match, it has a burn mark in it... And I didn't buy a table cloth because the one I liked didn't match my dishes (clashed horribly) and I would have had to buy new dishes (which if you know me, you know I stood in target for a half hour talking myself out of that idea!)

I say all that to say that sometimes I feel so inadequate as an entertainer. My aunt Janice's stuff all matches beautifully, I love going there and feeling fancy, and then... Well there is me, most of my serving dishes don't match, there won't be a table cloth, and then I remember, as fabulous as she is (& she IS fabulous!!!!!) I'm not aunt Janice, though our hearts are intertwined. And I'm beautiful in my own way. 
My favorite serving plate is one Phyllis made me in 2nd grade. My beautiful glass salad bowl, and the dishes I loved the moment I saw them at target (I want new ones but I'm waiting). One thing I can guarantee if you sit at my table, you are there because you are loved, and you're going to get a great meal!!! I'm just as God designed me!! And my table will be perfectly imperfect!!

Today's meal will include:
Pork tenderloin
Mashed potatoes
Scalloped potatoes (courtesy of aunt jan)
Rolls (courtesy of my dad)
Asparagus (courtesy of my aunt sissy)
Green bean casserole (courtesy of my bonus brother & his g-friend)
Broccoli 
Salad
And for dessert...

Strawberry shortcake with homemade shortcakes (see recipe below)


Ingredients
2 cups flour
4 teaspoons baking powder
3/4 teaspoon salt
1 tablespoon sugar
4 tablespoons butter
3/4 cup milk


Directions
Heat oven 450 degrees.
In a large mixing bowl, combine flour, baking powder, salt and sugar. Cut in butter. Mix in Milk. Drop by large spoonfuls onto a baking sheet. Brush with melted butter and sprinkle with sugar. Bake for 15 minutes or until brown. Cool and eat with berries, ice cream and/or whipped cream.





Saturday, March 30, 2013

Pure freedom!!!

There was this amazing moment when God told me that I would find the greatest freedom in Easter. The kind of freedom of freedom you (meaning me) hear about but this Easter you're going to experience it Margie.
You (meaning you the reader) see, I've always had this hurt, this real and true belief that I didn't matter. That I was loved out of obligation. I believed that I was the one left behind to be cared for. My sister died, and my mom died... And then there was me. I even heard my grandfather say "she's staying AGAIN" when i was like 5 (I actually don't remember mic from when I was 5 but I remember that).  I can only tell you that I kind of approached my Heavenly Father that way too. Somewhere I believed that, yes, He created me, but my gifts never seemed to matter. Sure, I can make an amazing spreadsheet, or need copies made? I'm you're girl. And I have always wanted my life to count for something. For Him. 
I went through a really hard time not that long ago and I felt like I was crawling on my hands and knees trying to get to Him, but somehow I just couldn't. I felt like I was bound, I felt like I couldn't breathe. 
And today we sang this song "my God's not dead" and all of a sudden, I had this crazy vision of Hod seeking after me, chasing after me, like a Lion looking for its young. And I could feel, I believed all the things that He has whispered into my heart, the things that He has said sternly, "I LOVE you Margie" even in this struggles, there was no way I was ever letting go of you, I LOVE you"!

Those things, they were hard. I know. Your sin, it was hard, but my perfect life was given for you to be free. Not just forgiven but FREE!  Wow! 

I couldn't even contain it! I started weeping! Oh how He loves me! In all my mess, He came after me because He loves me, He adores me! I'm His. He is Love. True Love. The kind of love that doesn't let go!

My life doesn't seem like much compared to His Holy Life but it's valuable, it's beautiful, and it's His. All His.

Friday, March 29, 2013

THE weekend!


I love having an extra day off!! I woke up at 4:30 and was up until about 6 praying, thinking about how good God is.

I went back to sleep until about 7 and then got up and cleaned out my car, it didn't take me nearly as long as I thought it would LOL. 

I moved on to cleaning house. I often multitask but I've found that I need to focus on one room at a time, not everything is better if I multitask.

One room at a time. In each room I remember how blessed I am, and I miss my house cleaner all the more, but I need to take a break from it. 

Having extra days off, I tend to make list of the things I like to accomplish over the weekend. This weekend is no different!

Clean car
Clean house
Can Black beans 
Kroger - frozen potatoes, green beans 
Donations list
Finish Easter baskets
Walgreens for pictures

But truly this weekend is extra special because its Easter weekend! Easter, the day that death lost its victory! It's the weekend that the ultimate sacrifice was paid! I'm overwhelmed by what He did for me!!

Enjoy your weekend, but do not forget what it is we are truly celebrating!!


Thursday, March 28, 2013

Fundraiser opportunity

The story behind the shirts

I am selling t-shirts to raise money for my 2.5 week trip to Haiti. What? 2.5 weeks? 

Do you remember? I never wanted to travel outside the United States. I'm not that sure I really ever wanted to travel outside the great state of Michigan! And I've said it before, I used to say "if God calls me to an overseas mission trip, I'm hanging up". And then one day, He called. Water to El Salvador. I didn't think, I didn't pray, I just said "yes!" I certainly didn't want to go to Haiti!

Then it happened, god changed the shape of my heart to the country of Haiti! My plan: bring clean water to the beautiful people of Haiti. His plan: have me fall in love with orphans in Haiti. 

When I got to Haiti I thought "ohmyword what have You called me to?"
And then I prayed. And my heart changed. I fell so fast and deeply in love with Haiti. The land, the people. Pure and true love!

I entered a raffle and won 20 free shirts(standard sizes). I WON!!!!  I'm selling them to raise money for my trip! So the first 20 that I sell, 100% of the money goes towards my trip. After that its about 50% which is awesome!!! The price of the shirts is $15 (+$2 for 2xl and shipping if I need to ship it to you).

I'm taking preorders until April 7, 2013 :)



Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Since you asked..

Oh you didn't? Oh sorry about that! 

So today I had a great day (minus the horrible stomach ache I had!!)!!!

There were so many highlights I can't even begin to tell you! But I'll try.

I'll tell you the one thing that's been driving me nuts. All this homosexuality stuff. Both sides I feel are filled with anger, hate, and hurt. This is what I'd like to say... All of you... Shut up and love someone. How do I feel about it all? I loveyou. That's it. Both sides. I loveyou and watching you all fight and bicker? I feel like someone watching two friends fight when you love both people. I loveyou. I can't really throw a stone at either side because the bible says "him (her) without sin, cast the first stone" that means, I'm out.  Hear me. I loveyou. 

Ok so... On to bigger, greater, and better things. I saw some great peeps tonight!  What a great night!!

I also got to make an Easter basket for the cutest little girl!! I think her parents thought I was doing them a favor, but truly it was my absolute pleasure! I TRIED not to go overboard... But you know me... Oh it was so fun! I do still make an Easter basket for Phyllis and yes, I know Easter baskets have nothing to do with Jesus, but get over it, I love buying the stuff for baskets! It was so fun thinking about a cute little girl. But I thought about how absolutely blessed I am by being Phyllis's momma, then and now.

My friend is a gramma again!! Love muffins!! 

I made homemade chocolate sauce today for ice cream for some of my favorite peeps tomorrow. They probably won't care that its homemade, but I care :)

I'm selling t-shirts for my trip to Haiti! They are $15 each ($2 extra for 2x). I'm excited! I think they are cute (and for a boy and a girl).

Remember, I loveyou!

http://youtu.be/akaqO9LHrls




A day in the life of a God sized dream



Thinking about how I live my life in pursuit of my God sized dream...

Do you want to hear about my daily routine? Well I doubt that. I'm busy my thumbs will break of typing it all (I'm in my notes app today).

I do wake up everyday with great expectation that something great will happen today, that my life will point someone to Jesus. Even in the muck of my mistakes, I pray that my apology and my mess point someone to Jesus.
I start my day off in prayer and throughout the day, I pray. If someone posts something hateful I pray. If they are hurting I pray. I walk by maps, think of muffins being adopted, and I pray. If my friends are near or far from Jesus, I pray.
I pray about my heart, that it beats in one with the Father. I pray that everyday, I love bigger than the last. I praise Him in thankfulness.
Sometimes I'm some overwhelmed, I say nothing at all and I let my heart sing to The Lord, in good and bad.
I see posts that were nuts yesterday & I wonder when will we ever get it? Live love. Honestly, I care little about the sins of others, I'm busy hating my own sin, and trying to find the love language if everyone else so I can love them. For me, it means that I need to stop hiding behind tasks and be more relational, put my heart on the line, knowing it will be hurt and knowig  I will be stronger and love bigger because of it.

My God sized dream? To point thousands towards Him with a community center. I share my dream, I listen to friends and family who love me and tell me the things I need to hear and encourage me to live it. I pray, not my will, but Yours be done. I sing the song "word of God speak" by mercyme to hear His voice. 

I don't live my days out perfectly, I just don't. I wish I did :/ my love bucket doesn't run over like it should, I'm loud when I should be quiet, put I press on, moving forward. In prayer, and in love.

Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 3:13, 14 NIV)

http://youtu.be/dOb6ub-NLWA

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Brownie mix

I saw this on Fb and you can give the dry ingredients as a gift and add a tag with the directions to complete!

Let me tell you! These are deelish!!!!

1 c sugar
1/2  flour
1/3 c cocoa
1/4 t salt
1/4 t baking powder

Add 2 eggs, 1/2 veggie oil, 1 t vanilla

Bake 350 for 20 to 25 minutes 

8x8 pan

Masterpiece

Here’s the story of a lovely lady…


So… I went away for the weekend, maybe you wonder “what did God reveal to her?”

This was a big deal for me, when God says “I need you to be Mary not Martha” it goes against everything I am. I am a Martha. Being Mary honestly has no attraction to me. That’s just me being honest. But I know that sometimes it is necessary.  I don’t understand why anyone would sit around when they could be doing something, besides, I can listen and do something at the same time, it’s called multi-tasking people.

So I went up Friday. I was a little jittery. How does one sit still with nothing to do? I have NO idea. THANKFULLY I brought some of my favorite movies, so I put in “remember the titans”. Never have seen it? WATCH IT! I’ve seen it probably 200 times and I still cry! It’s amazing! I fell asleep watching it and woke up at 5:30 in the morning (it’s my time to wake up).

I wondered what big thing God was going to reveal in my life. I was expecting some big lie that I’ve been believing, I was honestly expecting to hear some big thing, I expected to be crying the whole time…

I sat there Satruday… trying to be still saying outloud “ok, what is it? Whatcha got for me?” and then… I sat there… squirming like a kid getting ready to take a test they didn’t study for.

Nothing.

So I went for a walk… because I love the outdoors (I know hard to believe since I am so fancy). I walked and I talked and then it came.

There isn’t anything, just stop believing all the lies that people have told you your whole life that don’t match the truth of who I say you are.

What?

That’s it?

“well, if you’d actually do it, then we wouldn’t be having this conversation, now would we?

And stop doing things that aren’t meant for you to do. Do what I say, nothing else. We’ve got plans, if you’re busy doing everyone else’s work, how will you ever have time to do Mine?"

You see God has big plans for me, and if I’m listening to everyone else, how can I listen to everyone else?

There have been so many times when I’ve done something to impress someone else or get them to like me, or even just make sure they don’t hate me. I’ve done a disservice to them, and to me, and I wonder, how many blessings I robbed from someone else because I took on something that wasn’t mine to do?

It’s amazing the things that God can do in my heart, if I open it to Him. If I stop worrying about what everyone else thinks, and just care about what He thinks. People will probably like me more if I reflect Him anyway and don’t reflect hurt and anger (how about that?)

God has something big planned. A community center. It’s a God-sized dream for sure. It’s a Greater life. I don’t know why He gave me the vision because, quite frankly, I feel like nothing most of the time.

I don’t know why He calls me to do the things He does. I feel like the most ridiculous youth staff who suggests we have “baked potato bars” as an outreach, but maybe some kids don’t eat. I don’t know, but He gives me these crazy ideas, and I just go with it. Or why I like to do paperwork, and collect donations for mission trips. It’s weird. I know. I’m a weirdo.

I don’t know why He called me to go to El Salvador with a bunch of crazy friends, which to be honest, I felt like I had no idea why they wanted me to go, I didn’t feel like I brought much to the table (that’s just me being honest). But I went, and I bought ice cream for long days, and I hugged hard and smiled big, and spoke the craziest broken Spanish pretending I knew what I was saying.

I know people look at the city of Detroit and say “why bother?” You know how I know? THEY SAY IT TO ME! They call me a hopeless romantic. They call me nuts.

Yeah? So.

I know all those things about myself.

But I honestly know this.

God made me beautiful

He made me with a big smile (you think I don’t know I have the greatest lips??)

He made me with strong arms to hug hard

He made me smart

He made me funny

He gave me strong shoulders to carry the burdens of others

I’m a great communicator on paper, with words, and with no words at all

He made me thoughtful and encouraging

He even made me easy on the eyes

I'm God's Masterpiece!


He loves me every day, no matter what. Even in my mistakes (which someone just sent me an email of one I just made… oh Father give me grace!!)

And so I will go forth, in the path that He created. Hold my hand and join me, won’t you?

Eph 2:10 NLT For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.

Homemade Chocolate Sauce

Its kind of a weird thing, when I serve others, I don't like to buy everything, I actually like to make it from scratch.  Call me crazy but it means that sometimes it takes a little longer but it also means that the food tastes better.  (at least that's what it seems like).

I know that some things like chocolate sauce can be purchased so cheap in the store, but there is something about knowing that you love the people you are serving, and so... I make homemade.

My friends and I are serving at one of our favoritest places, and I'm in charge of the ice cream social (HA!) which really just means I'm in charge of bringing the sundae stuff.  I'm only calling it an ice cream social because it sounds churchy and I think it's funny!  So I am bringing Sprinkles (can't make those homemade), cherries (can't make those homemade), ice cream (I guess technically I could make this homemade but I'm not), and chocolate sauce (HA!  FINALLY something I can make homemade).

So, here is the recipe I trying.

Chocolate Sauce

2/3 c unsweetened cocoa

1 1/3 c white sugar
1 c milk
1 t vanilla

In a medium saucepan over medium heat, combine cocoa, sugar and water. Bring to a boil and let boil 1 minute. Remove from heat and stir in vanilla.

Monday, March 25, 2013

The vision

Sometimes I wonder what God is thinking.


He sends me to Haiti & El Salvador for Mission trips, after I specifically told Him I would never go. Ha!

And putting together a community center? I don’t know the first thing about that.

But you know what I do know?

I know that kids need Jesus! I know that kids need to know that they are loved! They need someone to believe in them, and even if it’s just me, no matter what happens, it’s worth it if one beautiful child knows they are loved.

That they know and believe that they are valued, loved, and worthy! No child is a mistake, and the muffins that will know Jesus will believe it!
Photo credit
 http://mikeforbesdesign.com/2010/11/23/dear-detroit/

It makes me absolutely crazy that we spend more money on prisons than our children. Imagine if we INVESTED in them, our time, and yes, our money. And I don’t mean just throwing money at a situation, but really invested.

People believe in this city. I believe in this city. I believe the children, in the people of this city. Matthew 10:39 says Whoever finds their life will lose it, and whoever loses their life for my sake will find it. I’m really praying about what that looks like for me.

But here’s a small peek into the vision.

A place where groups, large groups can come and stay for mission trips. An everyday place where children can come and find their value, seek refuge, fill the needs of their lives, discover their worth, and gifts.

20 showers
HUGE kitchen 3-4 convection ovens, a huge walk in fridge, walk in freezer, a huge pantry
Open rooms for teams to sleep (climate controlled)
Basketball courts
Football, soccer, and baseball fields (how to make this all one spot will be the challenge)
Community Gardens
Computers
Music (vocal and instrumental)
Counselors
Art
Theatre

HOPE
LOVE

A place where kids/families/people of the community will know they are loved, valued, chosen, worthy of love. A place where they meet Jesus in a real and tangible way!

One the doors of every entrance, it will say

I love you every day, no matter what!

This is way bigger than me, that’s for sure, it’s not bigger than God, and it’s time to invest!

Also, please know, I’ll be asking for your help! God’s gifts will all be needed! You (and I) were created for such a time as this!

Please join me in prayer! That’s where we start and finish (and everything in between), at the feet of Jesus!

Sunday, March 24, 2013

Menu planning

Sunday - Italian wedding soup
Monday - Hawaiian chicken, brown rice, broccoli
Tuesday - Greek salad
Wednesday - leftovers
Thursday - taco salad with black beans
Friday - out
Saturday- Aunt Janice's with family
Sunday (Easter) - pork roast, mashed potatoes, cheese potatoes, green beans, asparagus, strawberry shortcake


I made the Italian wedding soup, but instead of using noodles, I used mini ravioli's! YUM!!!

and I found a recipe that was being posted around facebook for the Hawaiin Chicken

1 c pineapple juice
1/2 c brown sugar
1/3 c soy sauce
2 lbs chicken

Mix first three ingredients and pour over chicken. I had fresh pineapple, so I blended it up with the BS & SS


Cook in slow cooker for 6-8 hours.  I'm going to serve with brown rice and broccoli.

Saturday, March 23, 2013

It was easier not to feel. Before I knew what love was. The kind of love where you leave yourself out there, it was easier. Sure I always wanted that, but I never really had it. Until one day the walls came down and I trusted someone other than Jesus with my heart.

And I want it again. And as I am walking in the woods quiet with God I get the sense that I will. As if the Holy Spirit calms and says just wait. Look at this picture God painted you, He has great things but its not just your heart that has to be prepared.

I looked up into the sky through the trees and it looked like a heart. Maybe that's what I wanted to see but nonetheless that's what I saw.

Just wait.

Learn who you are. Learn what you love about yourself and know all the rest was created by God for His glory. All these beautiful trees they are nothing compared to the magnificent beauty that God has created in you. Stop listening to every voice that has spoken anything but love to you. Only listen to Him.

You are beautiful.
Greater things will come.
Be quiet.
Do what you're called to do. Nothing more.
I will supply the needs you are to fill.
I'll make a way, a crazy path, I've already set it into motion. Your obedience and faithfulness to Me has brought you to this place. Keep walking in obedience, you were created for such a time as this.

It will all come in My time.

Follow Me.


Friday, March 22, 2013

Away I go!

I’m super excited to go away for this weekend. I know most people go to spend time with friends or family, me, I am going to spend time with Jesus. I am going to listen, to speak, to cry, whatever it is that God has in store.


I’m packed and ready to go.

I’m ready to let go of some hurts that I’ve been holding on to for most of my life.

I’m writing thankful lists

I’m sure I will be writing

I actually am opening my real bible, my favorite one instead of my phone.

If you try to call, I will not be answering, there is NO phone reception, so if you text me, I’ll get back with you when I can. I’m actually thankful that I won’t have the option of using my phone, I hope I don’t break into a rash from withdrawals of my phone. LOL

I do have a few things planned out but a lot of things I do not have plans.

I expect that I will be hurting and rejoicing.

I expect to cry. I hope not to throw up.

I’m thankful to my friend who is letting me stay at her place. She’s such a blessing to me!

Pray for me, will you?

Pray I hear from God, that I believe Him.

That I have safe travels.

And I return, more in love with Jesus than I am now.

That His visions are revealed to me, and the steps, no matter how small are revealed in the way in which I should go.  And that I am obedient to take those steps in faith.

Jer 29:11-13 11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

A Greater Dream


What I do you cannot do; but what you do, I cannot do. The needs are great, and none of us, including me, ever do great things. But we can all do small things, with great love, and together we can do something wonderful.” ~Mother Teresa


I’m always dreaming. I never would have imagined that in 2007 on my first mission trip that I would dream and imagine and be a part of the planning team of our Detroit Mission Trips. I feel so honored and blessed to get to be part of it.

When I dream about our trip I think of the limitations that our ministry has (like a camp that can hold us all) or the fact that as our group grows we run into the limitation of where we stay for our mission trips. If I know our limitations and our strengths, it makes the trip better and more successful.

We can’t be the only ones with these limitations.

What can this single mom do about these limitations?
Not much.

But God.

I have not given up on my dream of owning an apartment building for families.

But as I was praying this morning about a place for us to stay when we go on our Detroit Mission Trip and I was envisioning groups coming from all over the United States to come to Detroit and bring Jesus.

What if…

I started a non-profit. Chosen by Him.

What if I got a building. Either donated or I got the money donated.

What if in this building there was two amazing kitchens, stocked with pots, pans, serving utensils.

A gym (with plenty of showers for mission trips)

A climate controlled place for groups to sleep. (I’d break it up minimally into 4 large spaces. Boys/Girls, Jr High/High School)

It would have computers, craft rooms

Oh, and let me add I’d love a theatre.

I’d love for it to be a place a lot bigger than a mission trip flop place. I’d love for it to be a place where children can come and know they are Chosen by God.

A place where those who excel at sports, can play sports. Those who love to perform, can perform, those who need help in school, get the help they need.

A place where people can feed people food and the spiritual food they need. What if it was a place of gathering for other ministries.

If only…

If only I was willing to take a small step.
It means I have to be brave.
It means I have to ask for help.
I’m praying for direction, praying for being brave. Praying to know my strengths (from Jesus) and my weaknesses (those are other people’s strengths).

2 Cor 12:9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.

It reminds me of the movie “field of dreams”. If you build it, they will come.

If God gives me the vision, and I am faithful in small things, He will be faithful in the big things.

Matthew 25:23 "The master said, 'Well done, my good and faithful servant. You have been faithful in handling this small amount, so now I will give you many more responsibilities. Let's celebrate together!'



Tuesday, March 19, 2013

My thoughts...



I’ll go wherever He says.


He’s the boss of me. LOL

Doesn’t mean that I’m not scared out of my mind.

It means that I trust Him through my fear.

Sometimes I feel so brave, and sometimes… I feel nuts.

Who buys vacation time to go to a developing country?

Me.

Why?

Because I love Jesus.

I hope I don’t throw up!

Did God forget that I said I wasn’t going on overseas mission trips? EVER.

Was God ignoring me when I said that I would never go on three trips in one year?

I was so brave when I said “whatever He wants”

Now I want to throw up.

I’m in love with Jesus.

But I’m still scared.

I hope I don't blow this.

I will tell you though, I feel like the luckiest person on earth.

I get to love His children.

I get to smooch muffins

I get to hold them.

And love them like they are mine.

Did I say I’m scared?

But fear isn’t real.

Faith is real.

How am I supposed to concentrate.

Muffins.

I wonder if I have enough underwear.

Can I do laundry at the hotel?

I need another suitcase.

I love You Jesus.

I’m crazy.

Here I am.

Send me.

I hope someone meets me at the airport when I come home.

This is nuts.

I'm so excited!!!!!

I sing

Sometimes life is just plain overwhelming.


I find myself trapped by fear, but hurt. By lies that I’ve believed for so long.

There are moments that the only thing that helps me to survive is that Jesus loves me, and God has it all under control.

The light of Him, demolishes the darkness.

His truth breaks the chains of the lies I've believed for so long.

His song in my heart is the reason I sing.



Monday, March 18, 2013

Stuff going on at our "little" church



I have an announcement! It’s a big one! A giant leap for me! It might not seem like a big deal to you… but for me, this is MONUMENTOUS!


I want to do a woman’s bible study!

This has never actually happened to me. Seriously.

I have never trusted enough to do one of these with people I don’t know. I’ve been in life groups, and I’ve been open and honest with people that I trusted, but I’ve never put myself out there with women. I just haven’t. I haven’t wanted to, but God is working so much is this tiny heart of mine, I just can’t wait to start. The bible study is part of Her Life, the women’s group at my church.

And I was just watching our church’s service from the weekend, and I’ve only listened to the first two songs in the beginning of service, and I have to tell you that I’m almost crying. A lot of people call us a rock n roll church and some discredit us because we are over the top sometimes. We do crazy things like have baptisms in swimming pools, put crazy signs all over the Downriver area, we’ve got crazy kids who love Jesus, we have a college ministry. We serve the city of Detroit and our local community. We look different, we certainly don't have stained glass windows (and there is NOTHING wrong with stained glass windows, they are just expensive, and our Pastor is cheap – he will tell you).

I have been coming to Metro since January 1, 2006. It’s often been a rocky road, mostly because I’m a nutcase sometimes. But it’s a place where I have found a perfectly imperfect church. I have run right into Jesus at the door. I’ve had weeks of being tough, I literally walk in the doors and started crying because I know it’s safe to feel there. I know that people might think I’m a nut case for crying in church, but my church is a place that I know that I will meet Jesus. I live in a world that teaches me to be tough, but I belong to a God in heaven who tells me to trust Him and that I am allowed to feel, to love, to accept and give grace. It’s a place that I can be safe and real. It’s a place where I find and give a Love bigger than me.

Sometimes I just can’t believe that I’m let in the door, not only that, they let me serve there! I get to work with the greatest people ever. Our Youth Staff for both Fuel (our Jr High Ministry) and Alive (high school Ministry) are second to none because we all serve under the best Youth Pastor ever!

Our church had this crazy vision of these business cards to give out. I thought was such an amazing idea, I took 3 packs (shhhh… we were supposed to only take 1 pack I think but you know, I’m a rebel). I keep them in my purse, and I give them out once I’ve established a relationship with people, like the cashier at the grocery store (true story) or I use them to invite the young man who helped me with my groceries to invite them to Unite (after I gave him a $10 tip for helping me – say what you want… money talks!) I love these cards. I don’t know if the people I invite will come, but I know that I will do whatever I can to get people to hear the heart of God. And it all starts with a smile. And let me tell you, sometimes I have to pump myself up to do it, it’s not always easy! But I love Jesus, I know that He has changed my life, and it wasn’t easy for Him either!

So here I go, going forward! Stepping out in faith. Trusting God.



Sunday, March 17, 2013

Trusting

Sometimes I have a hard time being alone. I know that really I’m never really alone. I get that. But if you know me, you know that I want to be married. Many times in my life, I would have settled just to be married. I would have settled for less than God’s best for me.


Sometimes I go to a wedding and it’s so perfect and I think “I wonder if I will ever really have that”. I wonder why God gave me this crazy desire to be married, and I’m 40 and still single. I am not often quiet about it to God, I’m not some sweet daughter of the King, I have those moments when I just yell and scream. And sometimes I sit sweetly and say “whatever You have for me Lord” and sometimes I am excited about what God has planned, even if it means that I never get married.

People think I’m so awesome, LOL. I don’t just say that to say that, people actually tell me. They can’t understand why I’m not married yet. Oh, I can give you soooo many reasons why. I can tell you that I actually think that God knew what He was doing when He hasn’t brought me a husband… yet.



You see, I had a lot of baggage I have been carrying around. I’ve slowly been unpacking that dirty laundry out of my suitcase. It’s almost like an old trunk, more than luggage. I would slowly take things out, look at it, and decide if it’s worth keeping (a gift) or if it should be discarded. As if I’ve been saving something that could bring me harm. Like something that would attract moths, and ruin the good that is in my trunk.

I was listening to the song “Forever Reign” by Hillsong United .



There was just this moment yesterday, in my sadness, that I remembered that God has a plan for me. He is… so much more than I could ever express. He reigns. And in my brokenness and my sadness, He is.

Sometimes people look at me with sadness and they have such pity in their eyes. Poor Margie… she’s not dating, she’s not married, she’s alone.

I’d like to just say, pray for my husband, pray for me, that God continues to work in my heart to be the wife, He created me to be. A serving and loving wife. But I want you to know, God has a great plan for me. He’s got something so much greater than just a mediocre life for me. I have an amazing life. I know it might not look like everyone else’s life. But… I’m not like everyone else.

I love teenagers
I love Haiti
I love Detroit
I really do believe I can change the world (even if it’s with root beer floats, clearance toys, hugs, checks, smiles, and a love bigger than I ever knew)
I love Jesus

One day, I do believe I will be married. And whoever is lucky enough to marry me, it’s gonna be great, and we will both say “I’m the lucky one”.

God has a great plan for me. It’s gonna be wild, it’s gonna be great, it’s gonna be full of Him. And whatever it is, I trust Him.



Eph 5:21-3321 Submit to one another out of reverence for Christ.

22 Wives, submit yourselves to your own husbands as you do to the Lord. 23 For the husband is the head of the wife as Christ is the head of the church, his body, of which he is the Savior. 24 Now as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit to their husbands in everything.

25 Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her 26 to make her holy, cleansing[b] her by the washing with water through the word, 27 and to present her to himself as a radiant church, without stain or wrinkle or any other blemish, but holy and blameless. 28 In this same way, husbands ought to love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself. 29 After all, no one ever hated their own body, but they feed and care for their body, just as Christ does the church— 30 for we are members of his body. 31 “For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh.”[c] 32 This is a profound mystery—but I am talking about Christ and the church. 33 However, each one of you also must love his wife as he loves himself, and the wife must respect her husband.



Cookies!!

I got a wonderful gift from my friends John and Heather Carter! Cookies!!

I can tell you I felt blessed beyond belief for these cookies!! A box of yummy goodness!!

I met John and Heather when they were Directors of Reach Global http://www.metrosouthchurch.com/reach/reachglobal/
I can tell you their hearts are absolutely amazing!!
They are going to Thailand this summer with their family! Talk about the best family trip ever!! (You can see what great examples they are as parents!!) they are selling cookies to raise money for their trip!!

Check it out here!! http://www.my-sweet-mission.com/?m=1

And by the way, they had no idea I was doing this!! I just love them to pieces!!




Feeling and finding freedom

I know that when I struggle it's because I'm usually fighting against what God has for me and I'm being selfish.
Thursday I found myself completely singing the meme song. And you know what happens when I sing the meme song? I don't talk, sing, or worship Jesus.
I was feeling lonely, anxious, I was overwhelmed in so many ways.
The world tells me that it's all about me. Survival of the fittest. Get mine.
I felt awful!!! My brain even went back to co-dependent thinking. And I caught myself. And I prayed to God to change my heart. And I went to bed.
I knew enough to shut my big fat mouth.
No glory was going to go to God if I opened my mouth. I was gonna have I say I was sorry for something I shouldn't have said. And I know that the words I said could have lasting impact telling lies to others. So I shut up.
I new joy would come in the morning if I shut up, well, it would come either way but its more joyful if I keep quiet.

I know people think I'm always crazy busy but I really have been slowing down. I will tell you, busy is easier, slowing down allows time to feel, which sometimes hurts. I am learning to ask myself the source of my feelings and hurt. In the hurt, comes great freedom!

Glory to God!

Therefore if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed. (John 8:36 NKJV)

Friday, March 15, 2013

Book Giveaway!!!

I've been wanting to have a book give away!  And quite honestly I've had quite a day, and I refuse to leave the balance on the side of evil, so I'm doing something nice!

I'm giving a book away!!! I've got a great book for you!!  It's by Holley Gerth

I'm so blessed to be part of the God Sized Dream Team and I'd love to share this great book with you!

Here are the rules! 

Tell me your God sized dream!  And remember, even if you think it might be ridiculous, or someone else might think it's ridiculous, there are millionaires walking around who thought up the Chia Pet, and the pet rock!  People probably thought Katie was a little crazy or even Mother Teresa (and they are amazing!!!!)! 

Dream away!  Drawing will be Monday, March 18, at 8PM EDST. 

Good luck and dream big!!!  God's got great plans for you!!

Friday Ramblings!


 For we are God’s masterpiece.
He has created us anew in Christ Jesus,
so we can do the good things he
planned for us long ago.
Eph 2:10
 TGIF!


I’m thankful for a lot of reasons that it’s Friday.

My favorite reason is that it’s ‘Friday Fun Night’ with my girl Sheila and Sam is going to be joining us tonight! We are celebrating Sam’s getting into WSU! So proud of her!! Like all celebrations they start at Roma’s! We haven’t been in awhile so this should be great! Then who knows what kind of mischief we will be getting into! HA!

I am excited because two of my favorite people are getting married tomorrow! They are very cute! And I’m getting my nails done, and I also have a family thing tomorrow too!

I do have a headache, but hopefully it will be on it’s merry way.

Is it weird that I want to tear down the paneling in the basement and hang drywall? Who wants to do that kind of thing. I mean, like actually WANTS to. I’d like to make my basement a pleasant place. Oh, I’ve got grand ideas, and have no idea how I will make it happen! LOL But maybe I’ll figure it out, and do it in stages. Eventually I’d love to really have a kitchen down there too. Oh, maybe some day! Maybe I can get some kids over to help me!

I’m excited because next weekend I am going away to spend some time with Jesus! I’m excited and wondering if I can be by myself that long lol

I got behind in my bible reading, and I’m finally almost caught up! I don’t know how I got so far behind that I was literally a month behind, and sometimes when that happens I get so overwhelmed, because I think ‘ugh, that’s why you never finish things” ugh. So instead of beating myself up, I picked up where I should have been (thank you Youversion!) and then did 1-2 days worth of bible reading in addition to my daily reading, and now… I’m almost caught up, and I’m so thankful! I am glad I didn’t give up! So, if you are behind, BE ENCOURAGED and get back on track!

The following week is Easter and we haven’t been invited to anyone’s house which is kind of weird, so I decided yesterday that I would just cook dinner. If you would like to join us, let me know. You know there will be good food ( though probably not good for you!). Not sure what yet (I’m sure there will be cheese potatoes because they are one of Phyllis’s favorite), but it will be yummy!

I have to tell you, I am so excited about the upcoming mission trips! If only we could solidify the place to stay (this is by far the hardest part of the trip!) when we had 25 people, it was a piece of cake, now, PRAISE THE LORD the trip is ginormous now so we just don’t fit into a small church, but that also means we make a GINORMOUS impact to the city for Jesus! It’s pretty amazing! Praying like crazy for an open facility! And don’t even get me started talking about Haiti! SO SO SO SO excited about loving the muffins! Just waiting to find out if it will be 1 week or 2!

Well, there is lots rambling around in my head! My heart is full! I’ve stopped singing the ‘meme’ song which tends to drown out the Jesus song that is usually playing in my heart!

Sending love!

Thursday, March 14, 2013

Nothing

It's been a crazy day!

It's not easy for me not to have to a of things to do. My life is actually a lot more balanced between doing and just being. It's not an easy thing to get used to.

I find myself sometimes overwhelmed.

And so my instinct when overwhelmed with feelings?

Do.

Do something. Anything.

Just get busy.

Doesn't have to be something bad, of course, I'd find something good to keep me busy. I can fill my calendar with good things! But I know that's not what I'm supposed to do.

So I chose rest. I chose to feel the things I was feeling. Even though it wasn't easy.

So, good night. Sleep tight.

Tomorrow is a new day!


Psalm 46:10 ...He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations...

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

My thoughts on the new Pope!

Ok, really, so who cares what I think about the new Pope? Well probably no one.


But since it’s my blog, I’ll tell you anyway. You can choose to close this if you’d like.

John 17:21 21 that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me.

I was raised Catholic, whatever that means to you, I’ve got my own thoughts on it, and I won’t tell you the good or the bad on my thoughts of it.

I can tell you what I’ve heard, I can tell you what I’ve experienced, but I won’t.

I will tell you that occasionally, I like to go to the Catholic Church. I still do some of the same things I always did, like look up the songs to see if we will be singing some of my favorites. I think about how my cute little peanut used to want to sit in the front row because she wanted to make sure that Jesus saw her.

I can almost say the whole mass pre-changing of some of the phrases from the Catholic Church because they are all pretty much the same. And some people think it’s wrong that they service is always the same, but me, I appreciate it. Now that I know the bible, I can tell you where some of those things come from. I love the tradition of it. You might not, but I do.

Is my life affected by the new Pope? Not really. Except that I was disappointed that it wasn’t Cardinal Maida. To me, I know him, so I want him to win! I was sad when I found out he didn’t vote because he was over 80.

Cardinal Maida
I think, and this is me thinking… We do a lot better job representing Jesus when we just love, honor, and respect each other.

I know, people bring up the bad things that priests have done, but I don’t think we would want anyone throwing all our stuff out there. We are ALL representatives of Christ, no matter our position.

I’m excited that the Vatican was able to come to a vote, being in Unity with the Father. I’m glad they are going into the Easter Season with a strong leader.

So those are my thoughts, let’s just love each other. Congratulations Pope Francis! You’re not the one I would have voted for, but no one gave me a ballot, so I’m glad you’re in your new position! May you lead more people to Jesus, may you speak life and truth, and love and grace to those you come in contact with!

Acts 4:32 All the believers were one in heart and mind. No one claimed that any of their possessions was their own, but they shared everything they had