Take it all

I am amazed sometimes the way God speaks to me. I started blogging as kind of a journal. I was terrible at journaling, and somehow I manage to post just about everyday, I didn't really think I would stick to it, but I think the blogger is crack for me. I say a lot of dumb things on here, express a lot of thoughts that readers probably think are kooky, I've made some new sisters, and I've discovered the lessons God had put out there for me.

Yesterday, a couple of times, I almost deleted my post. I didn't want to admit that I don't always give my all to God. It sounds terrible. Funny thing (or not so funny) is that God already knew, whether you know or not, He knows my heart.

I think it was no coincidence that God's lesson through Adam was about giving it all to God, your whole life, and somehow you will never be disappointed and it will bring you more joy and happiness than you can ever imagine. It will be better.

I struggled with Fuel, and my puzzle piece and where I fit in, I openly admitted it. Like the kind of person I am, I can do fine right out in front, but really, that's not where I like to be, I like to be the one in the back, keeping score for the games (not playing), I like to be the snack bringer, the word putter-upper, I like to be the one in the background, the constant silence. Always there, just in case you need me.

Yesterday we sang a bunch of songs, and I will tell you, I heard angels when the kids were singing "How great is our God". I heard for just a moment the joyous noise that God hears, and I just couldn't help by smile. To hear the kids sing "shout unto God the voice of triumph, shout out the voice of praise... the enemy has been defeated, death couldn't hold You down, gonna lift our voice in victory, gonna sing your praises now" holds me in awe, and makes me misty just to think about it. But here's the one... the motherload of all songs sang yesterday "take it all". Its amazing that God gave someone the words that I needed to sing, that He wanted me to sing. I think it's a daily surrender and maybe somedays my white flag is a little bigger than others.

I'm glad God never gives up on me!

Here are the song lyrics and you can click on and have some full-on worship (sorry about the sound quality)



Take it All - Hillsong United
Searching the world
The lost will be found
In freedom we live
As one we cry out
You carried the cross
You died and rose again
My GodI’ll only ever give my all
You sent Your SonFrom heaven to earth
You delivered us allIt’s eternally heard
I searched for truth
And all I found was You
My GodI’ll only ever give my all
Jesus we’re living Your Name
We’ll never be ashamed of You
Whoa o oh
Our praise and all we are today
Take take take it all
Take take take it all
You sent Your SonFrom heaven to earth
You delivered us all
It’s eternally heardI searched for truth
And all I found was You
My GodI’ll only ever give my all
Jesus we’re living Your Name
We’ll never be ashamed of You
Whoa o oh
Our praise and all we are today
Take take take it all
Take take take it all
Jesus we’re living Your Name
We’ll never be ashamed of You
Whoa o oh
Our praise and all we are today
Take take take it all
Take take take it all
Running to the One
Who heals the blind
Following the shining light
In Your hands
The power to save the world
In our life
Jesus we’re living Your Name
We’ll never be ashamed of You
Whoa o oh
Our praise and all we are today
Take take take it all
Take take take it all