oh my...

I am amazed at God's timing sometimes. How He waits for us to be ready. He waits to teach us the lesson when our hearts are most open to it.

You can read my post from earlier today, it was really the post I should have written yesterday. My heart is exploding.

I am reading that book, Captivating, so much that I turned my monitor off at lunch. Let me tell you, that's a big deal, whether you believe it or not. Reading the first part of the book, I cried, I fought back tears during lunch.

It hit me during one of the pages, I want to be beautiful. Maybe not Catherine Zeta-Jones beautiful but that someone would look at me and think, wow, she's beautiful, even in sweatpants. Don't they say, "beauty is in the eye of the beholder".

And let me clarify something for you, other than for my husband, I do not want to be sexy. I can do sexy thin or fat. I want to be beautiful. And there is a difference. And until now, I never really realized that.

Definition of Beauty: 1. Having qualities that delight the senses, especially the sense of sight.
2. Excellent; wonderful.

Definition of Sexy: 1. Arousing or tending to arouse sexual desire or interest. 2. Slang Highly appealing or interesting; attractive

Sexy has gotten me in too much trouble over the years. And my heart desires to be beautiful.

Lord, please reveal to me what You see, what You created in me. Thank You Lord. In Jesus' beautiful name. Amen.

Romans 8:18-19 18I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. 19The creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed.