Addiction

Do you find yourself looking down on people who have drug and/or alcohol addictions? what about that fat person who you think "good Lord, how much really do they have to eat to get that fat?" What about a smoker? Do you think "why don't you just kick your habit already?"

Or do you realize that you suffer from addictions too? Do you eat too much? Do you drink too much caffeine, because you need it to get through the day? How about putting yourself down too much?

First of all, let me tell you, addiction is addiction, whether it's to the refridge or to the crack pipe, some addictions are looked down on while others just become the "way we live".

I decided to give up Diet Pepsi, I was drinking 3-5 a day. Yes, that' s right. It was horrible. I loved the sound of opening one, I loved the taste, that first drink was like a euphroic "mmmm". Not kidding. Not kidding at all.

I've been doing some hard looking at myself. Kick some habits, stupid. Things that are just not good for you. And it began with getting back on my vitamin regimen, but if I was going to put (spend) the money into it, I shouldn't be counter-active and pour bad stuff in. So... giving up Diet Pepsi seemed to be the first thing on my list.

Day 1 wasn't so bad. Day 2, I almost puked, I shook for most of the day, and had an insane headache. Wednesday was better but not great, only a headache, and tired. Today, I'm dragging a little slower, headache doesn't hurt as bad. I feel like I am on the up swing.

I've decided that it doesn't do me much good to try and kick every bad habit at once, because it's too much pressure and I tend to fall back, only to beat the crap out of myself, and continue on. Addiction. It's horrible.

You know another addiction I have. I put myself down way too much. I'm too fat, I'm not smart, I am ugly, I am... you can fill in the blanks with things you have heard me say. The addiction is quite self-destructing. Being mean to yourself if not honoring to God. It's like saying, "God, You are awesome, You made all these great things, but You kind of missed it on me" It's not humble either. While I am nothing without God, in God, I am something. I am glorious in Him, and the more I let His light shine through me, the more Glory-ous I am, it's all because of Him, getting out of my own way.

Addiction. Yuck.

Matthew 11:28-30 28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."