I think grace and forgiveness go hand in hand. Upon thinking about my birthday somehow this one person, while I think they try, always disappoints me. Forgets my birthday, gets me something that just doesn't isn't me. it happens almost every year. And each year, I try to move past it. I try to forgive. "do they do it on purpose?" No, I don't think they do, but that doesn't mean it hurts any less. Forgiveness isn't about them, it's about the person who is the forgiver. Resentment, sadness, disappointment, it all has to be let go by the person who was hurt whether or not the "culprit" did it on purpose.
Here's the one thing I really thought about yesterday. Am I really forgiving if I keep churning it up? Am I dropping it on the ocean floor if I can't seem to let it go? If I say "every year it seems to be the same thing?" This year, I feel, ungreatful. I feel like they got me a gift and for some reason, they think it was something I like, even though I am disappointed because I will never use it for myself, and after all, aren't birthdays about us? Phyllis will get some good stuff, because I will use it for her, and I would rather give than recieve anyway, so maybe it was the perfect gift for me.
But I really do need to forgive and FORGET. I really need to work on this one...
Luke 6:37 37"Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven.
The mistakes I've made
That caused pain
I could have done without
All my selfish thoughts
All my pride
The things I hide
You have forgot about
They're all behind you
They'll never find you
They're on the ocean floor
Your sins are forgotten
They're on the bottom
Of the ocean floor
My misdeeds
All my greed
All the things that haunt me now
They're not a pretty sight to see
But they're wiped away
By a mighty wave
A mighty wave, mighty wave
They're all behind you
They'll never find you
They're on the ocean floor
Your sins are forgotten
They're on the bottom
Of the ocean floor
Take them away
To return no more
Take them away
To the ocean floor
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"Am I really forgiving if I keep churning it up? Am I dropping it on the ocean floor if I can't seem to let it go? If I say "every year it seems to be the same thing?" That's something everyone needs to think about...thanks for opening our eyes.