If you think...

I've done a lot of thinking about myself this week. i know... completely selfish (maybe that's part of my problem)

I've been working being healthier (which means body and spirit). Planning to run a 5K in May.

Only to have people say...

1. You should do one in November, basically why wait?

2. You're beautiful over and over again by people who read my blog, thinking it's going to help the way I feel about myself.

All of this makes me so uncomfortable but here's my heartfelt response...

1. I don't want to run the 5K in November , this is a process for me, just like my 3 day walk. It's not really so much about the run, it's about what needs to take place in my heart to do the run, just like the 3day.

2. You can tell me over and over again that I'm beautiful, it doesn't make me believe it anymore the more you say it, actually it makes it worse because I feel like you're saying it to try to convince me of something that isn't true, like an Obama commercial. This is something that I need to work through and someone saying that I'm beautiful seriously sets me back one step for each step forward I take.

So really, if you think you are helping, it's not. I have to work this out on my own...

Ecc 3:11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.