oh what a feeling

I think a lot of people think that just because I'm emotional that means I don't bottle things up inside.  Oh I do, and I'm sitting here, crying because I've got so much bottled up I can barely stand it.

Let's just start with the obvious, the bakery, what a dream, oh this desire I can barely contain it.  I checked into one place.  $200k.  WHile I realize that nothing is too big for God, that completely seems out of my grasp, and the thought of this missed dream makes my heart ache. I could see such life when I walked in the door.  I can't even imagine.

I hurt my back today getting desserts out of my car, ironic, right?  Just a little twist the wrong way and pain has been shooting up and down my body.  It hurts really bad, seems to be getting better but still really hurts. 

I got a note from someone today, its funny that when people tell you that they are telling you something in love but haven't really shown you any love or you feel like you've been blown off for months, and that you don't really matter, its hard to take in love.  Just saying.

So that's it in a nutshell. 

Psalm 61:1 Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer