So I just watched this video, I was super excited to see it! I couldn’t wait!
Then I saw it. The first 5 seconds I gasped! It was my ‘I am Metro’ video. I look horrible. Not to be overly dramatic, but let’s face it, I look like jabba the hut from Return of the Jedi, I even have a green shirt on! Fat AND ugly.
You know what I think so much about? You know the part that hurts me the most, is really how I look, I know I’ll never see those numbers again, but how many people in the last few years told me I was beautiful! Are you kidding me? You are all LIARS! I see myself, you wonder why I never wanted to be in pictures or videos, because I guess maybe I always new that I looked like that but truly didn’t want to believe it.
I just think of how many people told me I was beautiful. It makes me sick. SICK SICK SICK! I don’t really expect that someone would say to me ‘hey fatso, drop a few pounds, its no wonder you’re lonely, you look like a pig” but why did everyone lie? That’s what I want to know. Why did you allow me to believe that I was beautiful?
What am I thankful for, now that I’ve seen the video? I’m thankful, as Birdie says in Hope Floats “I’m not who I once was”. Because I’m not, sure I have a long way to go, but I am not who I once was, and that was certainly good motivation…
As in Col 4:5 it says “make the most of every opportunity” well, in this case, it means pushups/crunches/dips and running whenever the opportunity presents itself.
Then I saw it. The first 5 seconds I gasped! It was my ‘I am Metro’ video. I look horrible. Not to be overly dramatic, but let’s face it, I look like jabba the hut from Return of the Jedi, I even have a green shirt on! Fat AND ugly.
You know what I think so much about? You know the part that hurts me the most, is really how I look, I know I’ll never see those numbers again, but how many people in the last few years told me I was beautiful! Are you kidding me? You are all LIARS! I see myself, you wonder why I never wanted to be in pictures or videos, because I guess maybe I always new that I looked like that but truly didn’t want to believe it.
I just think of how many people told me I was beautiful. It makes me sick. SICK SICK SICK! I don’t really expect that someone would say to me ‘hey fatso, drop a few pounds, its no wonder you’re lonely, you look like a pig” but why did everyone lie? That’s what I want to know. Why did you allow me to believe that I was beautiful?
What am I thankful for, now that I’ve seen the video? I’m thankful, as Birdie says in Hope Floats “I’m not who I once was”. Because I’m not, sure I have a long way to go, but I am not who I once was, and that was certainly good motivation…
As in Col 4:5 it says “make the most of every opportunity” well, in this case, it means pushups/crunches/dips and running whenever the opportunity presents itself.
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...just some thoughts from someone who thinks you are BEAUTIFUL and I may be a lot of things, but I most certainly am not a liar.