There are so many things that can bring me down, to let the darkness in. One feeling not good enough. I was talking to a dear dear friend yesterday and I started spilling my guts. I guess thinking and praying about the healing I am getting and going to get has opened some wounds. It turned out that me spilling my guts helped her too so she could spill hers.
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| This on my fridge, along with many other inspiring things |
I’m not the kind of Christian who can pretend very long that things are perfect, and quite frankly, I think that’s dumb. Have a good “God story” who cares about what your picture looks like. I think it’s normal for people to pretend that things are perfect. We all know them, their family “looks” perfect however in the background it’s all a farce (do you wonder if that word comes from Pharisees… hmmmm). The picture of their life “looks” perfect but it’s all a mess. You don’t even want me to go “there” and I won’t. We have to be real. We have to be real about our feelings or we are not going to help those who think “they are too far gone” for Jesus to redeem their lives. I remember thinking as a young broken mom that God wouldn’t want me. I mean, man, I was a mess, but God loves me. He was there waiting for me to just turn and embrace Him. And somehow, He uses me in all my mess.
He wanted something greater for me. He gave me this crazy vision when I was first saved. And I’ve seen the look on people’s faces when I tell them. The “yeah right” look. What they don’t know is that when that vision was given to me, I went to very successful women and asked them what I should do in order to prepare for that vision. In March of 2007 I started this blog. Wow. It doesn’t seem like I’ve been writing for seven years! It seems like three. When I read my past posts I think “whoa, you sucked as a writer”. But the more I write and the more I read, I think the better I get at it. Imagine, that advice actually was valuable (smile).
I think so many times we look at some vision of what we want and we think it will happen overnight. And so we try to make it look as though our vision is complete, that God has completed His work in us. And so we have a great “picture” but it’s not always about the destination, it’s about the journey. For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago. Eph 2:10 We need a good and true story, or who is gonna listen about the greatness of God. Even Paul was a Christian killer and look at how God used him. How many people have come to know and love and follow Jesus because of Paul? Gazillions!
Be real, be honest, love Jesus. Praise Him even in your pain. People will see it, and want what you have. You’ve got a story. Tell it. Our picture will be complete, and perfect, the day we are in front of Him, worshipping.
Did you hear that? That was a little piece of shrapnel hitting the bowl. “ting”
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