Maybe you wondered what my big decision was. (or maybe you didn't)
Well… it probably isn’t
as big of a decision as you might think.
I have purchased a ticket to go to Haiti in December. A lot has changed in my life since I purchased
that ticket. And so I am trying to
decide if that is where God wants me in December. I love Haiti and of course I
would like to go, but Haiti is not a place I just vacation, so it takes much
thought, much prayer, and much planning.
People say “well you said you were going to go, shouldn’t
you go?”
The answer is: Maybe.
Well, really the answer is yes or no.
I’ve told a couple people and they only thing they have
asked is “well what does God say?”
I can remember a time in my life when I would have asked
EVERYONE’s opinion. And then I’d weigh
it. it really sucked to be like that. It’s much too much, thinking I might
disappoint someone and quite frankly that is just too much for someone like me
who is a people pleaser. Much too
much.
Talk about a fruit stealer. I stole my own fruit. No one did that to me. I did it to
myself.
I hate that about me, or who I was.
I am not sure what God has in store, I know that He seems to
be shuffling the deck of my life, lately.
And I can tell you as a self proclaimed busy person and change hater, I
have found myself in the quietness of Him.
I have found myself embracing the change and feel like people think I am
going to have a hard time, but I’m trusting in the One who loves me. I find myself cleaning out, and letting go,
finding the clutter, the things that matter most to me. I find as I discovering
the things that God has created in me, and the things that it is time for me to
let go of, things I have been holding on to for far too long.
I love the fact that God has refined me many times, and in
the times of refining, I grow a little more each time. I find myself a little
stronger, a little more joyful, and little more… me.
Who God created me to be.
I love my new Fruit of the Spirit study, I am growing deeper
in love with God, who He says He is, who He says I am. I still don’t know if I am going to Haiti in
December. But I know that I will have
confidence in whatever direction God has me going.
He is with me.
Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will
hear a voice behind you, saying, "This is the way; walk in it." Isaiah 30:21
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