There are days when I get a little annoyed and
frustrated.
I mean like I could just…
slap someone. I mean like slap
someone really hard.
And then I read something like this… Go ahead read it, I dare you, I double-dog-dare
you. Read it and don’t be moved. It puts things into perspective.
As I sit in my air conditioned office, wearing nice clothes,
knowing my own daughter is safe, last night my greatest issue was that I was
soaked by rain after a walk with my friend, I know those around me are safe, I pray for those in
service (military, fire, police, EMT), praying for “those ISIS people” that God
would change their hearts… I find, I
need to change my own heart.
And sometimes I just say to myself, SHUT UP. You’re
dumb. People need to be loved, and you
were put here to love. I don’t know how
you love people in the middle east so far away, how do I hug them and tell them
it’s going to be ok, when I am not really sure that it is. I wasn’t called to
that. And it’s not like today, I am
going to leave on a jet plane and go, I just wasn’t, at least not now. And sometimes it makes me angry when people
talk about the Muslims in Dearborn like they are cut from the same cloth as the
ISIS people. I want to scream “shut up”
those are my friends, and quite frankly, they are less judgmental and kinder
than some of the Christians I know. Just
love them, not because they are a “them” but because they are people, and all
people need love. Us and them is never the answer, it’s just
not. Hate is never the answer.
I sit here thinking “what am I supposed to do God? What are you requiring of me? You’ve shown me
some crazy things over the last 8 months, You’ve moved my heart, and You’ve
shown me the mistakes I’ve made even if I had good intentions of loving people,
WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO?”
I think of this scripture…
Micah 6:8
He has shown you, O mortal, what is good.
And what does the Lord require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy
and to walk humbly[a] with your God.
And what does the Lord require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy
and to walk humbly[a] with your God.
But the truth is, I want to run, I want to
go fast. But running, in some direction
isn’t going to get me to where God wants me to be. Do you see that word? Humbly. Humbly.
Humility.
This is not about me. Yes, God is stirring in my heart to do
something, but I AM NOT A SAVIOR. God is
a Savior, and let’s not miss that He is Lord.
Lord.
Lord
someone or something having power,
authority, or influence; a master or ruler (definition from here https://www.google.com/webhp?gws_rd=ssl#q=lord+definition)
Power and Authority
I don’t need power or authority, I need
Jesus. If I am really going to love, I
need Him. I need to walk, slowly,
humbly, in the path He has guided. But
it’s not about moving, it’s about loving.
Every day. We must move in the
direction of Love, we must love, we must serve and love. Ok, maybe not we, but
me. I must do those things, I am not
accountable to for you, and your actions, I am accountable for me. (I need to remember this most at work, it’s
hard for me here, like I get the choice to live two different lives?!)
So thankfully God has ear-marked this day
for me to serve dinner to some people that I love. Three letters, M B K. one of my favorite days of the month, my day
of serving. It’s a day of smiling, love and
hugs. It’s a time of just being thankful
that He has called me, that He has equipped me.
Every day.
How will I love tomorrow? How
will I surrender me, to be more like Him? I don’t know.
What will I do about that article I just
read, because now that I have seen, I am responsible. I am not sure what God has planned but my
heart is open. Whatever it is.
Let us love.
Dear children, let us not love with words
or speech but with actions and in truth ~1 John 3:18
Let them know us by our love.
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