It really does happen!

If you take a look at me, you’d never imagine that I’d be one of those people who “forget to eat”.  I don’t look like I’ve missed a meal… ever.  Maybe you think that I’ve eaten some extra.  You’re right. 

Food is my drug of choice.

I’ve had many drugs of choice over the years…

Sex

Working

Shopping

Working out

Running

Some may even say the movie “Invincible” with Mark Wahlberg (it is playing the background right now!)

I believe that a lot of people are addicted, some to less socially acceptable things than others. 

it's true... I'm beautiful!

In the last week or so, I’ve had to fight the urge to stop at Wendy’s and get a big fat cheeseburger, fries, and a frosty.  It’s true.  The other day, I actually pulled into Taco Bell and ordered my food, and was so thankful they took forever that I pulled away.   It’s true. 

There is a lot going on in my life right now.  There are moments when I feel like my heart is full of mud and the only bright thing is a light that is shining because Jesus cannot be extinguished.  But man, that darkness sure tries. Nothing is bigger than Jesus!

One of my very favorite passages in the bible is John 1:1-5

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. ² He was with God in the beginning. ³ Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. ⁴ In him was life,and that life was the light of all mankind. ⁵ The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome^[a] it.

Thank You Jesus that nothing can overcome you! Even my crazy food addictions. I went from someone who planned EVERY meal!  For a month at a time to someone who forgets to eat. I thought that stuff really didn’t happen!

I have no idea what lies ahead of me these days, it’s a struggle to make it through some minutes.  And sometimes the darkness seriously tries to surround me, and I’ve got to fight with all that He is in me, but He is in me, so I cannot lose. 

This post was totally ramblie and I’m sorry about that… but my heart is kind of jumbled too.  I have to say that while I am all crazy, I am thankful for my friends who love me through it.  I think I’m on the edge of some crazy breakthrough…  because that stupid enemy is coming at me with everything he’s got… but he doesn’t have much compared to my armor!

Eph 6:10-20

Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. ¹¹ Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. ¹² For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.¹³ Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. ¹⁴ Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, ¹⁵ and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. ¹⁶ In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. ¹⁷ Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
¹⁸ And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people. ¹⁹ Pray also for me, that whenever I speak, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, ²⁰ for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.