I had to laugh, I think even outloud when BG said I have such a positive attitude. Oh, dear, that is what I let them see. I try not to focus on the bad, but it does get to me. I have learned a new knock knock joke taught to me by my "best friend", it's in quotes because with friends like that, who needs enemies, and it was also taught to me by someone who I thought was my friend, but... Ugh! leave it at that...
Yeah, you see, I am a sinner, I try really hard to not act all righteous. I know I have lists of things to work on, from here to heaven. And it seems to be growing every day, but I am lucky, I understand the blessings that God has given me, and as a "Hopeful Cynic" I try to focus on the "hopeful" and not the cynic.
It's hard for me, but I try to put on my "God Glasses" for reading all the blessings, because trust me, I can be more negative than I care to admit. But I don't know what the point is. Sure, my friend stole my CDs (but they are on their way to me, I hope!) but you know what? She didn't steal my faith.
I look at the experiences I had and I think about how blessed I am for a couple of reasons.
1. My faith is stronger than whatever satan can throw my way. I can only guess that if these things that happened in the last few months would have happened a few years ago, and it's possible I would have walked away from Jesus due to hypocrisy. Yeah, that would have sucked, what would I do then?
2. I learned great lessons, about how our words need to match our walk.
3. I had a lot of people watching me, people who are not part of the faith community. I may have done some rumbling, but I stayed true. I called a spade a spade when it needed to be called out and put in check, and I forgave, still working on the forgetting part...
So I wish I was more positive, but it's a lesson in learning.
Heavenly Gracious Father, we are on the back side of a wonderful experience of "the trip". Help the parents and family of the kids to hold on and be patient, they're almost home! In Jesus name I pray. Amen