Passion



Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)


Tuesday, January 17, 2017

Off to a good start!

It's January 17, the day after Martin Luther King Day. It was  the first year in a long time I don't have the day off.

We are only 17 days into 2017 and I've made some very intentional changes. One of them being how I spend my money. I've saved $27 so far just not having Starbucks everyday lol. What a terrible choice that was that became a habit.

I thought buckling down would be constricting but instead it became freeing and more creative! And that's been fun!!! Which is weird! Haha!

I really felt like God had been telling me to spend less. Specifically live on what you made 8 years ago. Truth is i need to save more, spend less. At this point, I can't do that. I have bills that need to be paid off, a trip to Uganda to pay for, but I'm getting there! I've even started mystery shopping to make some extra money to use as a fundraiser for my mission trip to Uganda!

I'm making good choices that will become good habits :).

It feels good to do this! It makes me feel a little regretful of how I spent money in the past but I can't change that. I can say I'm sorry and I can move forward. No shame, no guilt, just thankfulness!

I hope your 2017 is off to a great start!

Wednesday, January 11, 2017

My people

I shared with someone that I was nervous about raising funds about my trip to Uganda. It's a lot of money. I somehow felt at ease once I saw my tshirt for my fundraiser. It was a weird peace, but the one God knew to send at that moment. I might (eh em) cried.

Do you know that my whole life I've been scared? My WHOLE life. My mom died when I was a tot, I was scared my dad would die. Who would take care of me? Literally this was a worry I had my whole life. Let's me honest, I'm too much for just about everybody, who would have wanted that burden?

Because I've been a little (or a lot) too much for most people, I've learned to tame that back, be who I thought they wanted me to be. I always worried people would leave, and because of the loss of my momma at a young age, that's something I was scared of, people leaving.

As I became a single mom I worried about the money to take care of my daughter! Especially when she was sick.

I was always nervous that I couldn't really be myself around people. So I wasn't.

And then it happened, I met people who loved me for who I was because that's how God loves me. There's a remarkable beauty in that.

As you grow older, you realize the people around you aren't always safe. They will have their own agendas, they will be mean and hateful for no reason, other than their own jealousy and ugly pride.

I've learned to be around people who are safe for me. I don't worry about them leaving or not liking me. I know that the advice they give isn't for any benefit of them, but only helpful to me. They cheer me on and calm me down.

These are my people. The people I go places with and do things with that might frighten me or make me look stupid.

The people who say "MAR-gie!!" When I'm crazy or just say my name sweetly when I'm afraid or hug me when there are no words.

I got people.

Bucket people
Serving people
Praying people
Tshirt people
Friend people
Sister people
Haiti people
Church people
Family people
Friend people

I got people. People who love me when I'm scared, make me feel safe.

I'm always a little nervous, but God says "be courageous, I am with you always"

And who am I to argue with "I AM"?

Thanks for being my people

Monday, January 09, 2017

Steps to success

Today someone who doesn't take care of her health said "I had a _____" and I wondered why she didn't take care of herself. But the truth is... I don't always take care of myself!!!

My mom died of breast cancer
My dad had a quadruple bypass and
Countless vascular surgeries
My dad has diabetes...

And what's my excuse? Am I going to wait until it's too late?

So today, after cooking a big meal for my favorite people, I came home and roasted sweet potatoes, zucchini, asparagus, and broccoli. Found some chicken in the freezer for lunch tomorrow. I started back to Weight watchers online last week. Doing great and feeling great!

The truth is there is no time like today to make a difference in our lives. There is no tomorrow.

Want to read your bible more? Start today
Want to send letters to people you love? Start today.
Be encouraging
Be kind
Be loving
Take care of yourself
Today!

There are no excuses in success!

Join me !

Uganda

The truth is I'm a little nervous! Not afraid, really. Just nervous.

I'm going to Uganda.

Which is huge. The cost of the trip, the vaccinations. It's a lot. In 6 months.

It's a lot of money and a big responsibility. The me part of me wants to back out. But the part of me that belongs to God says "He called, I'm going" and thankfully the part of me that belongs to God stuffs a gag in the me part of me's mouth, gets the duct tape out, and shuts me up.

I've done everything from figuring out how much I need per week and per day. Yes. I'm making myself nuts!!

Just like every other aspect of my life, I need

GOD TO SHOW UP!!

I believe He will. I don't just believe it, I know it. I don't know how it will all work out, but I know at some point, At every point, I'll stand in awe of it all.

Here I am, send me!!!

Monday, January 02, 2017

Happy birthday! Happy 2017!

Happy birthday to me!!

I feel so thankful for a wonderful birthday!!

I made a huge pot of sauce hoping to have friends with me at church for my birthday and come over for lunch, but it was a simple day surrounded by just a few people and it was perfect, and now I have leftover sauce which is always a good thing!!

The day was really low key! (Except for the 200+ birthday wishes). Scaled back church due to a power issue, and it was glorious! It was like God gave me a reminder... "don't forget child, I'm in control".

I even brought cupcakes for the treats at church but since we didn't have power there wasn't anything else out :) as I saw my homeless friends on the way in, I gave them their normal treat plus a cupcake and thanked them for celebrating with me!!

I took a long nap (1.5 hours) I've been really tired because my back has been bothering me and I haven't been sleeping well. It's gonna be hard to get back into the 4am wake ups that I normally live!!! But it won't take long to be back to 9pm sleeps and 4am wake ups!

We went to see the movie "fences" with Denzel Washington. Wow! What a great movie!!! It made me think about how if we don't find joy in the hard of our lives we will be miserable and stuck. I'd really recommend the movie!

I'm looking forward to 2017!!  I always ask God to use me and I have the opportunity to go to Uganda in 2017! A trip to Washington state to see dear "kids" of mine! A driving trip to the East coast!

I rejoined Weight Watchers to get my physical life back on track!!

I loved 2016 even with all its challenges and I believe 2017 will be filled with its own set of challenges (and goon squad) but every year that we learn, grow, and love, it's a good one!

Saturday, December 31, 2016

Adios 2016


When I look back on 2016 I can’t help but smile.

What a year it’s been. 

Was it all good?  Nope.

But was God good, the answer is always the same, yes.

I can’t even remember everything that happened. 

It certainly was a year of change.
3 trips to Colorado
2 mission trips
100's of people fed
Changed churches and never thought I’d get involved again.  I thought I’d just do whatever God asked me to do… on my own. But I know (and always knew) we don’t do things for God alone.  He is the healer of our hearts, and the redeemer of all things. There were parts of  2016 reminded me of what happens when I try to do things in my own strength, and parts of it brought glory to God as I followed Him.
We now live in Dearborn and our Lincoln Park home is no longer ours. It all started with a house that cost $13000 in East English Village…  a lot of houses, tears, and emotions later, we ended up in our current home, and I can’t help but laugh when I think, God knew.  And each step in the process was to learn, and to recognize His goodness.

We also got a dog.  Cookie.  A rescue.  Who knew you could love a dog this much?  Its crazy to me.  Just in case you’re wondering, this did not make me a dog person, I love our dog.  LOL
I started a new job at a new company, and I LOVE it. 
 I look back in lessons in community gardens, soccer fields, hugs, tears, words, and love. 

I can’t imagine this life without love.  On days when I think I can’t go on, love carries me through.  I am thankful for prayers and hard days, and the happy ones. 
I can’t help but end this year thankful. 

I will be home tonight, doing laundry, getting the house ready for some people to come over for lunch after church.  The house is quiet, with the sound of washing machine is humming.  I am thankful.
I am thankful for dreams I didn’t even realize that came true. I am thankful for serving opportunities that never end.  I am thankful for laughter, and the good and the bad tears. I am thankful for new opportunities.
I am thankful for a God in Heaven who loves me.  I am thankful for a God that pursues my heart, and that every day I fall more in love with Him.  I am thankful that the moment I think I can’t love Him anymore or feel more loved by Him, it seems He shows up and blows me away with a love that is bigger than before.

I can’t help but wonder what 2017 will hold.
I honestly can’t even imagine.

I know that His love and faithfulness will see me through all of it.

Friday, December 30, 2016

A new year!! New hope!

War, not peace, produces virtue. War, not peace, purges vice. War, and preparation for war, call forth all that is noble and honorable in a man. It unites him with his brothers and binds them in selfless love, eradicating in the crucible of necessity all which is base and ignoble. There in the holy mill of murder the meanest of men may seek and find that part of himself, concealed beneath the corrupt, which shines forth brilliant and virtuous, worthy of honor before the gods. Do not despise war, my young friend, nor delude yourself that mercy and compassion are virtues superior to andreia, to manly valor.
Steven Pressfield, Gates of Fire: An Epic Novel of the Battle of Thermopylae

I heard this quote today. I thought about all the young lives that may not make it out of a dangerous city. Lack of education, sex trafficking, gangs, death, pride, and drugs.

I thought about our need to make a difference in the lives of those in generations coming up. How much they need us. How much we all need each other.

I think about how there is only one way to win against injustice... to fight it. To fight against it with prayer, and love, and doing something. It's not ok to wait for someone else to do something, because we are someone else's someone else.

I believe that 2017 is going to be a year of change. Only I can determine if the world around me will have a change for the better.

Some days it might feel like war, and that we can't go on, and some days we will run with great excitement towards our goal with great expectation of things to come!

I'm dreaming about great things, a bigger garden, the soccer field, new beginnings, a love of a lifetime, and contagious joy.

Join me, won't you?

Monday, December 26, 2016

Christmas sweetness

As I take down my tree (for me a day late) I think about how wonderful my Christmas season was!

I have always loved Advent. The focus on Jesus. The focus on hope, love, peace, and grace for me. This year I did extra to prepare to see Him in the everyday.

I stayed and held tightly to His word, I focused on serving others, even the Christmas stockings at work were focused on the things that are needed during winter. They didn't really know but I did.

I cooked and fed people just as I love. I served with friends and really just enjoyed the season.

As it came to an end, I spent it with family, and friends and it was peaceful. I didn't have much expectation for the holiday, just to enjoy it.

I got to spend time with my dad and daughter, and lots of family and friends.

I can't help but be thankful. I'm truly blessed, i am given way more than I deserve.

Thankful for the rest of the week I have off!! I'll enjoy everyday, because I have been given the great gift of love!!