Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Saturday, March 17, 2018

Coming out of the Dark

I make no excuses  for the choices i make. They were mine to make.

Can i just tell you that for the last 6 months I’ve been in a season of really hard. I’ve fought to find joy and gratefulness and that i did. But it hasn’t been easy. 

I’ve known that exercise would help restore my soul but I’ve been so weary that some days i couldn’t take a step in the right direction. 

I have friends who encourage me so much in this crazy journey of mine. And I’m thankful.

Today i was driving and i looked up at the sky and there was an edge of clouds making way for the sun and this past week that’s EXACTLY how i have felt. 🌤

I’m feeling so much better and even if the scale isn’t reflecting it, i know I’ve made good choices, tracked what i ate, got in the word, journaled, exercised. 

I know my thyroid is like a dang turtle 🐢 and so I’ll be taking some supplements to help that. 

It’s been a good week and I’m coming out on the right side ☀️

It's a new season, it's a new day
A fresh anointing is flowing my way
It's a season of power and prosperity
It's a new season coming to me

~Israel Houghton, New Season

“Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.”
‭‭Romans‬ ‭5:3-5‬ ‭ESV‬‬

Friday, March 16, 2018

Growing fruit

I’ve been at the gym 5 days this week. It’s been easy some days and harder other days. 
Isn’t that true about our struggles. Some days i feel like an overcomer and some days and some days i feel like complete pond scum. 
You know what I’ve found makes me more of an overcomer? When i invite God to join my days. In what i listen to what i watch and what i read.

I was in bible study yesterday and we read Col 3
“Put to death therefore what is earthly in you: sexual immorality, impurity, passion, evil desire, and covetousness, which is idolatry. On account of these the wrath of God is coming. In these you too once walked, when you were living in them. But now you must put them all away: anger, wrath, malice, slander, and obscene talk from your mouth. Do not lie to one another, seeing that you have put off the old self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge after the image of its creator. Here there is not Greek and Jew, circumcised and uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave, free; but Christ is all, and in all. Put on then, as God's chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience, bearing with one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive. And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony. And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful.”
Colossians 3:5-15 ESV

I was thinking about what goes in my head and heart grows there. If I want love joy peace patience goodness kindness faithfulness gentleness and self control then those are the seeds i need to plant in my heart.

A farmer doesn’t plant corn and expect strawberries 🍓 to grow right?

Just like a farmer doesn’t plant a seed and expect the very next day there will be fruit 🍉 it takes time. He or she does their part and prays and counts on God to do His part.

That’s where i am. Planting seeds watering nourishment. I know the results will be better than i can even imagine (Eph 3:20-21)

It’s a journey of a lifetime, each day a faithful step towards Him!

Sunday, March 11, 2018

You get what you pay for!

Where our treasure so is our heart.

I joined Dearborn racquet and health club this weekend. I’ve been praying about this for quite a while.  I’ve been ready to make a change in my life for awhile. 

I’ve been trying to figure out what gym to join. You’d think “just join planet fitness they are everywhere and cheap”

I think it’s great that planet fitness has made exercise accessible to so many but i know people who pay for years but never actually never go for months , and I’m not knocking them either I’m just saying for me, it’s got to be painful in my pocket book so I’m sure to go!

There also had to be a note of convenience because if it wasn’t I wouldn’t be able to go because like everyone else i have a crazy busy schedule even when I’m scaled back. 

Add that i like machines and weights and classes.

I’m a complicated creature (like who didn’t know that?!?)

So that’s how i ended up at DRHC

I’m excited and i did two benchmarks. 20 min on elliptical and a 5k so i can track my progress each week.

Next i need to apply these same principles to dating (free dating apps 😂😂😂😂 and the results I, and others get)

And don’t even get me started about cheap crappy food!

Saturday, March 10, 2018

Obedience ❤️ And perfect days

Yesterday i let go of someone i had no business holding on to. Letting go came with great freedom. Even if something is good it doesn’t mean it’s good for us.

After letting go and being honest about it all, it seemed God Blessed me with the perfect day! 

Nail appt
Bible study
The city
Refreshing time with a friend
Signed up for the health club 
Cooking for the masses 
Time at home 
Life is good 

Perfect really ❤️

Friday, March 09, 2018

Defender & Protector

I've been listening to this song for a few weeks now, but on serious repeat this week. 

The truth is I'm struggling with a few things and the first thing I want to do is put up walls and keep people out, but the very thing that keeps people out, also keeps me in and separated from those I love.  I've been working on this and as soon as I feel the heaviness of that wall, I put it down, and think about why I am putting up the wall and really dive into what I am afraid of. 

Life behind walls is no way to live. 

As a group I'm in they asked (thanks Mike O'Neill and Nicole Tromble for leading this group):

Do you have anything in your life you are hiding, something you are ashamed of?

Are you ready to invite God into that?

Are you ready to deal with it or do you honestly not want to do down that road (yet)?

I've been thinking about it all week.  I've been looking at the things I need to change and making changes.

One thing I've got to work on is clutter.  This week I tackled my room, my closets and I've got a bunch of stuff to donate (and I threw out some stuff too that wasn't worthy of donation).  "Stuff" just gets in the way and it needs to go.  It comes from times of not having much so I over compensate because I couldn't buy it before but now I can.  I'm working on becoming a "reformed spender". 

I'm also working on feeling and letting my feelings be known and not being afraid to share them.  Though I think I will also hold back if I live afraid I am going to lose out on all God has to offer.

I am leaning on God to be my defender and protector.  I will be wise, but instead of living in my own strength and my own barriers, I am going to ask God to be those things for me.

Thursday, March 08, 2018

Let us be women who love

Thankful to a beautiful woman who shared this and lives it out better than anyone i know.  These are the words my heart would have said if it could

Let us be women who love. 
Let us be women willing to lay down our sword words, 
Our sharp looks, our ignorant silence and towering stance 
and fill the earth now with extravagant love. 
Let us be women who LOVE.

Let us be women who make room.
Let us be women who open our arms and invite others into an honest, spacious, glorious embrace.
Let us be women who carry each other
Let us be women who give from what we have.
Let us be women who leap to do the difficult things, 
the unexpected things and the necessary things.
Let us be women who live for Peace
Let us be women who breathe Hope.
Let us be women who create beauty.
Let us be women who LOVE.

Let us be a sanctuary where God may dwell
Let us be a garden for tender souls.
Let us be a table where others may feast on the goodness of God
Let us be a womb for Life to grow.
Let us be women who LOVE. 

Let us rise to the questions of our time.
Let us speak to the injustices in our world.
Let us move the mountains of fear and intimidation.
Let us should down the walls that separate and divide
Let us fill the earth with the fragrance of Love. 
Let us be women who LOVE

Let us listen for those who have been silenced
Let us honor those who have been devalued.
Let us say, “Enough!” with abuse, abandonment, 
diminishing and hiding.
Let us not rest until every person is free and equal.
Let us be women who LOVE.

Let us be women who are savvy, smart and wise.
Let us be women who shine with the light of God in us.
Let us be women who take courage
 and sing the song in our hearts.
Let us women who say, “Yes” to the beautiful, 
unique purpose seeded in our souls.
Let us be women who call out the song in another’s heart.
Let us be women who teach our children to do the same.
Let us be women who LOVE.

Let us be women who Love, in spite of fear.
Let us be women who Love, in spite of our stories.
Let us be women who Love loudly, beautifully, divinely
Let us be women who LOVE. 

By: Idelette McVicker

Wednesday, March 07, 2018

The beauty

There is something about snow.  It is calming to me.

I never understood why people loved it (Netta!) until...  Until I really started seeing the beauty in it. 

I've always been a summer kind of person, sun, fun, fast.  And one day I learned to embrace rest. 

Rest isn't weak or bad or lazy.

There is beauty in the rest.

When I see the snow, I think "slow down, rest"

I know it's March and I'm as ready for spring just as much as the next person,  but I feel like God is saying "Rest, dear child, I'm here, I've got this, dear child, just rest.  Rest in Me".

So today, see that beauty and all it represents, because it represents Him.