Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Monday, August 24, 2015

A small accomplishment

So yesterday I was walking around our church neighborhood and I noticed this building that's across the street from the school right near our church. The front is still standing but the back is burnt out and it looks like a jungle. 

You know how in our lives we can't unhear something or unsee something ?

Well last year when we were signing up for Life Remodeled I remembered that one of the speakers had said that girls couldn't ride the bus because the street lights were burnt out and the areas were so over grown that they were getting kidnapped. And you know what? That's not ok with me. It's just not and I make no apologies for that. 

And so when I saw that crazy jungle that really wasn't ok with me either. And I make no apologies for that. So i posted about it and some friends said they would help!  I have to pick a day.  But in the mean time... All day that building was on my heart. So I came home and made dinner and decided to go... Do something. 

All I have is mostly gardening tools lol. You'd be surprised what a willing attitude and a pair of hand pruning sheers can do!!!

I know that people talk to me and think I'm nuts and sometimes make fun of me. They do, I hear them, but I don't care. I laugh right along with them, because I know it's weird. 
I know it's weird to think I can change the world. I'm just a single mom who has not much. And when it comes to talent, a frying pan, a broom, and some small gardening tools is all I got. But sometimes, it's just small things that we need to make a difference to someone. 

You see, I know that it was just a couple bushes today, and next week it might be a bigger area, but now I know there isn't a place for someone to hide to harm children, or no little varmits  will be hiding those bushes that carry disease. And that means tonight, I can sleep a little easier, until tomorrow when it's time to do something else.  

“Dear children, let us not love with words or speech but with actions and in truth.”  1 John 3:18 NIV

Monday, August 17, 2015

Meal Planning for the next two weeks!

Last meal planning was great!  I was flexible and realized I planned too many meals but it was good because my freezer is stocked up and so is the pantry.  I am slowly putting food up. Peaches this week, and some green beans.  And I have no pinto beans, black beans,  or red beans canned (how did that happen!!)
Monday:  Brats, green peppers & onions, and leftovers

Tuesday:  BBQ chickenpizza (from leftovers and I'll make my own crust) after I get home from serving at MBK (Fried Chicken, Mashed taters, and Corn)

Wednesday:  Spaghetti (frozen sauce leftover from my trip to Roma's the other day)

Thursday: Leftovers

Friday:  Wedding

Saturday:  Chicken Stir Fry

Sunday:  Lunch: church BBQ

                Dinner:  Tacos

Monday:  Chicken on the BBQ

Tuesday: Out with Ivonne

Wednesday:  Sesame noodles (a version of this) and chicken

Thursday:  leftovers
Friday:  ?

Saturday:  Sprinkle for The Groves Family

Sunday, August 16, 2015

I love my church

I really love my church. I have had moments when I've been really proud of what we do "as the church", I'm thankful for two pastors who bring it every week, our worship team loves Jesus, a group of children's staff and youth ministry that loves and cares for the kids. 

We are small but mighty. 

I love that it seems that everyone serves in our church in some capacity. From the kids ministry inside our church so people can hear the word to those who faithfully serve twice a week to the homeless. We love.

That's what I love about our church. 

I love that God lives and breathes in each of us, and we exhale, Him.

There was a group of us who sat in my garage today as we wished our friend "hasta pronto" I thought how absolutely blessed I was to be a part of this little group. A group of people who love Jesus and do their best to live has He has called us.

So as this night closes, I find myself so very thankful

Saturday, August 15, 2015

There's fruit in the waiting

Do you ever just wait for something?

And you want it so bad? 

I hate waiting. 

Sometimes I want to skip to the end just to see what happens?

Does the boy get the girl? 

The end is always great but the story is always greater.

One of my favorite quotes is from the book "greater" by Steven Furtick, he's the lead pastor at Elevation Church. "You'll never get to greater until you are willing to leave good enough behind". It's one of the quotes on my white board at work.  Honestly there aren't too many actual work things on that board lol, program volume, SOP (start of production), and some random names I can never remember but always seem to need.

While I'm waiting I always try to remember that God is preparing me. 

I had a dream a few weeks ago about this guy, and he said "I wish I
Would have met you sooner" and I smiled and said "but I wasn't ready" lol like i was chicken that wasn't ready, still raw inside. The truth is that was the absolute truth. God has down some crazy things in life in the last 10 years but I can say that even in the last three or even the last year my heart is overwhelmed by the healing that has taken place so that I can love more. 

It's certainly not always easy but the work He has done in my heart means I carry around a fruit basket and don't chuck it at people. 

You don't make jam until the fruit is ripe. 

Friday, August 14, 2015

Thankful ramblings

Today was a great day and one of those that I just feel so incredibly thankful for.

I went to Blocks, which if you get the chance to go anyway but the weekend is enough to be thankful for.  And I got stocked up on some things (like my 50 lbs of potatoes!!!) and lots of different veggies! We love beets and I was able to get a big box and we will roast them for dinners. I'm gonna make sour pickles that are good for digestion... And a few other things to get ready for the shin dig on Sunday that will be at our house. Just  don't wear your "farm Detroit" shirt because tons of people will ask you questions because they think you work there. Lol

I found myself so thankful that I can cook for my family and friends. And I can do it on a budget.  And I'll store food up for the winter.

And I needed to go to aldi for normally stocked items in our freezer and pantry. I've really missed my girls Ava and Lana so I swung by their house and asked them if they wanted to go grocery shopping. Now I laughed because you would have thought I asked them to go to cedar point. They were so excited! I mean that's how cool I am haha but really I guess it doesn't matter what you do when you love someone, as long as you're together <3

Later Quin is coming over and we are going to Sam's club to get some things he and his beautiful bride to be need for their wedding. And I'm making lunch :) I'm thankful to help them and able to spend time with him!!

Im thankful today <3

Thursday, August 13, 2015

Understand your "attacks"

Did you ever have a time in your life when maybe "the enemy" came after you? I personally don't like to give the devil too much credit but I don't ever doubt that there is one and he'd like to distract us. 

I happen to be in a time of preparation, learning, resting (for me), listening. And I feel like in the last week the enemy has tried to distract me. I could tell you stories, but I won't... Sometimes it's hurtful and sometimes it's amusing. I just think "I must be on the right track or he wouldn't be working hard to shove me off in front of the train.

So... In the past week, I've had a couple "things" come at me, things that would have been considered "big guns" in the past... But I know who I am! I know who God made me to be, I have learned that things that seem "like big guns" are only distractions, they are like water guns and so it's important to know what we are fighting against.  I just had to blow dry my super cute hair after that "attack" lol 

I thankful for the times that I rest and spend time with Jesus! 

And now I'm singing the jingle "on the right track to nine mile and Mack"

Eph 6:10-17 10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

Tuesday, August 11, 2015

Peace, love, and kindness

I have no idea what God has in store for me and sometimes it drive me completely batty and sometimes it brings me such peace :) how is that? My only answer is... Have you met me? I'm a fruit loop 

Lately I've noticed that my very big personality is shrinking. Big is a protection for me. I use my big personality to keep from getting hurt. 

I hate being hurt. I mean no one really likes it but I think that it has also over shadowed the best parts of me. The parts that love others. I didn't let people in so they couldn't hurt me, but that meant they couldn't love me either. And I couldn't love them to the fullest potential of love either.

I have found myself in uncharted territory and it's weird, and hard, and good too. I have found myself in the sweetest of spots. My heart filled with joy but also hurt.  

While in that hurt, I've had to work through some things... And that's never easy but the best fruit is at the top of the tree, closest to the Sun! 

This week we were studying "kindness". 

*Jesus asks "who is your neighbor?" 

*And kindness is the outward expression of love.

Those two points have been rolling around in my heart for the last couple days.

In order to love like Jesus, and to live out that love (kindness), I've got to be vulnerable. 

Yikes. That's scary.

The hardest things are always the scariest. And where I find the most peace in letting go. 

I'm learning to really live by loving more.