Passion



Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)


Friday, September 21, 2018

Tell them 

Yesterday i sat with a bunch of beautiful ladies and at one point, i stood up and told one of the ladies how much i admired her.  And i thought "how come she doesn’t know i think she’s the greatest? How come she doesn’t know she’s a hero to me and when i grow up i want to be just like her ?" 

I talk about her all the time. 

But then i wondered, do i actually tell her? 

💩

I don’t think i do.

Often, i wonder how people think of me? Well, i don’t always have to wonder because they tell me, all the bad stuff. So i fight my own crushing terrible self image and theirs. It does make me want to be better. It makes me strive to show the world the good that’s in my heart. It’s almost made it impossible for me to accept a compliment unless it’s from someone i really trust. 

I seem to take for granted the people who show up in my life, the ones who i trust. I seem to think they know how i feel about them even though i don’t say a word. Actions speak louder than words, right? 

Not always. 

Words communicate how we feel. We need word, sometimes in those moments when we are getting beat up, we need to remember the words that people have spoken to combat negativity. What if all people heard were the crabby things people said about them? Ick.

So my charge to myself is to tell people i love, what i love about them. What i admire. Because i can’t leave speaking life into someone to someone who won’t actually do it.

Life is hard. Let’s breathe life and love into others. 

The picture above is my friend crystal. She’s beautiful and funny. She loves people grander than just about anyone i know. She’s encouraging and you can trust her to tell you the truth. She’s grace giving and hard working. She lives a life worthy of the calling on her life. She’s a hero. An unsung, often taken for granted hero (aren’t most of them). I’m thankful to know her and if you know her, i know you’re thankful too. She’s the real deal. 

Monday, September 17, 2018

I had to Move!!!!

I had forgotten who I am.

It happens. 

 People say hurtful things to me, even if it was a joke.

I am forced to do things that are outside of our comfort zones.

I take a look at the things that I fall short of, so much so, that I forgot the things I am good at .

I got all weird about these gifts that I bought for some people I love and respect. The truth is that I'm a pretty good gift giver. It's because I really try to be thoughtful about the gifts I give.

I just got so stupid because I forgot who God says I am, and I'm thankful for friends who remind me. And tell me to knock it off. (thanks AP)

There are a lot of things that aren't my gifts, we all can't have all the gifts.

I haven't been on my regular work out schedule, my eating schedule is whacky. So nothing seems normal.

Today I woke up tired, so I made a different plan for moving (went for a walk in the beautiful sunshine at lunch). The walk gives me time alone with God that is different than reading. I see the beauty He created and I am reminded that I am part of that beauty.

It gives me time and quiet to hear His voice.

It also gives me time to laugh as I see signs like this... I had no intention of trespassing, swimming, or ice skating, and NOW I WANT TO!

I'm reminded who He's made me, strong, brave, beautiful (Thanks Linds), I love fierce, I notice beauty in others and all around me.  I'm funny.  Smart, Kind, helpful, loving...

Just like He created me, and He has my heart.














Saturday, September 15, 2018

Don’t feel sorry for me

Don’t ever be sad for me because I’m single. Sure I’d love to marry my best friend, go on adventures, someone to share my days with. But don’t feel sorry for me because i don’t.

I have a great life. It’s full of love, hope, grace, AND adventure. It’s not "conventional" but my life never had been. Raised by a single father, raised a beautiful girl. Fought my way through corporate America, love and serve Jesus. I have community gardens, work with people to put in parks across the street from schools in Detroit. I sell T-shirt’s to make sure kids get water bottles to drink clean water. I buy school supplies by the dozen. 

I loved this meme


I see the looks i get when people ask me if i am dating anyone. No. But don’t feel sorry for me, I’m not waiting for mr. Right. I want Mr. Right for me. The one God chose. And he’ll come or he won’t but i ain’t sitting around waiting. 

I don’t want someone who thinks i should take care of him, i want someone i can love and can love me, however that looks for me.

Friday, September 14, 2018

Home Peace Home

Today i ran home for lunch before a customer meeting. I’ve been anxious all morning. Lots going on. 

I drove up to the house, and the anxiety ratcheted down a notch. Then i walked up to the front door. Click. Down another level.

I walked in my house and a wave of peace came over me. I breathed in a little deeper. 

My house is a place of peace. I purposely created it that way. It is lively but it is peaceful.

It doesn’t happen overnight or magically. It takes effort. But it’s worth it.

I came home and my daughter cleaned the house and the peace here is something i can’t explain. 

If i could give advice to someone, it would be this. Create a place, and work at it, that brings you home to a peaceful place. 

Wednesday, September 12, 2018

Honor 

I barely understand it myself. All that’s happened in the last 6 months and i can’t begin to figure out the why...
I was stressing out the other day on the way to the gym... and i felt like God said to me "i meant it when i said to honor your mother and father"

""Honor your father and your mother, that your days may be long in the land that the Lord your God is giving you."
‭‭Exodus‬ ‭20:12‬ ‭ESV
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It’s the first commandment with a promise.

HONOR - verb
1. regard with great respect.
synonyms: esteem, respect, admire, defer to, look up to; 
2. fulfill (an obligation) or keep (an agreement)

It’s not always easy to take care of my dad. We have a long history and it’s not always good. 😭 but it’s not always terrible either. ❤️

It’s day 1 and it hasn’t gone exactly smoothly... like why would the pharmacy send insulin with no needles? Or even ask if we needed them? Sheesh 🤦🏼‍♀️but I’ll call tomorrow and get some needles. And make sure my dad gets the best care possible.

I don’t know why God has put me in this situation. I don’t have to like it all the time but i can find joy, i can love, and i will honor both my father and God.

The song below (click the link) came on yesterday and i started weeping.

God is doing a great work in me ❤️

https://youtu.be/kHtdwYGvueI

Saturday, September 08, 2018

Its not a lot really

I have too much stuff. Talking to a friend the other day and talking about how we just have too much stuff and then i was thinking about how much we moved into this house and how much i actually got rid of before we moved.
I also have another friend who is always challenging me... less waste, less plastic, recycle, reuse, declutter. So i decided 30 days 30 items. One thing a day. Since my life is a little unpredictable lately I straightened up and got ahead of the game just in case. Technically I’ve already gotten rid of about 30 things but when i sold the chair cushions i counted it as one. A bag of clothes with 12 items i counted as one and i didn’t count the 3 items i threw away. And i don’t count the pile i started before i challenged myself to this...
Here’s my list
1. Humidifier
2. Cushions (4)
3. Tray
4. Tray
5. Essential oil case
6. Kayak
7. Slide
8. Plates (12)
9. Beatles book
10. Spider-Man movie
11. Picture
12. Bag of clothes (12 things)
13. Signs (2)
Ive got to continue to challenge myself to let go of the things i struggle with. Stuff is one of those things because i did without for a long time.
For some holding on to things is good, for me, it’s almost like saying i don’t trust God to provide if i really needed that stuff (which i don’t) it’s also greed and frivolousness (poor stewardship) to keep it.
Working on my heart ❤️

Thursday, September 06, 2018

T shirts for clean water 

Clean water is a thing for me. I’ve always thought that people should have clean water. 

I knew a beautiful little girl in Haiti that died from cholera from drinking dirty water. I’ve personally been sick because of unclean water.

It has always been ridiculous to me that the people of Flint don’t have water free from lead. It’s been years. It’s unacceptable. We have (maybe had) the money and still...

Now there is lead in the schools of Detroit. And I’m furious, and i could yell and scream but really what will it do. Nothing. 

I ain’t about nothing. 

My friend is a principal at an elementary school in Detroit. They have water coolers but they are using cups and that’s expensive and wasteful. So she asked for water bottles, and I’ll get them. I found them for a great price. 

It’s not in my nature to do nothing. We can all do something. So I’m raising money by selling T-shirt’s and taco seasoning. Any extra will pay for water bottles for another school. Kids matter. 

Buy a T-shirt, please.

http://letloverule.com/everybodylovesdetroit/shop/home

You can read about it here:

https://www.google.com/amp/s/articles.mlive.com/news/detroit/index.ssf/2018/09/water_coolers_replace_detroit.amp