You know, I have been kind of wallowing in my life, it's not really going as I planned, mostly because of the decisions I have made, and the good Lord knows He spends a lot of time cleaning up after me. He could probably use His time helping people much more deserving than me if I would just quit being so stupid.
I'm doing a lot of praying and praising lately. I know how blessed I am, and I know that I don't deserve it... at all. I think of just a new blessing that has come way and I am so overwhelmed by the generosity of others, and a HUGE burden has been lifted, and I tell you this now... I don't deserve it.
I cannot believe how God works in my life and others. I am amazed and strive to always be better, to live a life that when I get up there and God and I are sitting across the picnic table I know that there will be parts of my life that He will be disappointed in, but I want Him to be proud of me and the work I've done for Him and even though I don't deserve anything, I don't want Him to be sorry He blessed me. Does that sound nuts?
God is so good and I am so thankful to be His.
1 May God be gracious to us and bless us
and make his face shine upon us, Selah
2 that your ways may be known on earth, your salvation among all nations.
3 May the peoples praise you, O God; may all the peoples praise you.
4 May the nations be glad and sing for joy, for you rule the peoples justly
and guide the nations of the earth. Selah
5 May the peoples praise you, O God; may all the peoples praise you.
6 Then the land will yield its harvest, and God, our God, will bless us.
7 God will bless us, and all the ends of the earth will fear him.