I was talking with my g-friend yesterday, she asked about Phyllis's Dad and what the story was, she was funny because she was a little nervous about asking. While I don't broadcast my story, I will openly talk about it, it is a part in the story of Margie. We ended up talking about how Phyllis got her name and some more parts in the story of Margie and how inside I am always nervous and how if I had my choice I would sit in the back and never raise my hand because I really was a nervous kid and I have to push myself to be "out there" and I said "that's my real personality" but I really started thinking about me and my life last night.
I don't have many regrets from being a kid, my childhood was pretty good. I had a pretty happy childhood with some hard times dealing with never having a mom and having a dad that was scared to lose me (he held my sister when she died and my mom's hand when she died).
Its not easy for me to get up in front of the church, if you have ever seen me get up there, I very rarely ever make it without crying or at least getting misty. But I do it.
I wonder is my real personality the one that gets "out there" with hesitation or is it the really shy person who "steps up" because I am called. I guess it doesn't really matter, it's not about me its about how God uses me for Him. Someday I am going to ask Him...
When they were alone, He explained all things to His disciples —Mark 4:34
Heavenly Gracious Loving Father, please watch over Your servants who are leaving for Thailand today. Lord, we know that You have called them to go. We place them in Your care. Lord, hold the plane in Your strong hands, and Lord, let every person they come in contact with see Your love. Lord, it's not always easy for us to let go, but Lord, we know that You have all the power, we know that You will take great care in those beautiful children. Lord, I am thanking You in advance for Your care for these children, make their trip smooth. In Your beautiful Son's name, I pray. Amen.