Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Monday, September 18, 2006

Don’t talk to me, I don’t like you.

See, I don’t think there is anything wrong with that statement. If I don’t like you, I don’t want you to talk to me. I know it’s not the “Christian” thing to do. But then I wonder, isn’t it? Does God tell us to be fake? Does He tell us we have to like everyone, no I think He tells us we have to love them. If I don’t like you, I don’t think I should talk to you, I don’t think I should talk about you either.

Maybe this isn’t very inspirational, but it’s truthful. What kind of person would I be if I acted like everything was perfect, but I was lying? I would rather be honest and open and say there are things in my life that I need to work on, and work on them, look inside myself and talk to God and work on them.

You see, I think we attract more people to Christianity when we are real, when we say “I need Jesus, I’m a sinner, and everyday I need to work on it, I need to go to bed (sometimes not even waiting that long) and ask for forgiveness (and repent!) and wake up in the morning and plead for God to help us. I don’t see anything wrong with that.

I do however see a problem with someone who pretends to be perfect, who pretends that they are without sin. I have a problem with that. I make no apologies for that. There is not one person in this world that is perfect, He died long ago for us. I think that our sin, God makes good from that. He uses our screw ups to help others. He makes oceans from the rain (7th day slumber). He makes something beautiful, something that gives life, from one drop of water, from something that could be called “gloomy”. I hope that God uses the “gloomy” part of me to bring people to Him, and give them life.

I will be honest, I don’t feel very inspirational lately. I feel like I am struggling with so much. I feel very lonely. I feel lonely. I feel like I could just roll up and let the world pass me by.

Just trying to surround myself with peace.

Phil 1:9-10 9And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, 10so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ,


Jada's Gigi said...

Gosh, I didn't realize it had been so long since I stopped by.
I agree that you shouldn't have to fake your life. God doesn't tell us to like eveyone not that we should go around telling those we don't like... No need in hurting people...
Its a beautiful thing to see God at work in your life...and half that battel is realizing we have areas that need His work...
Be at peace...He is working to see his Son formed in you .

KayMac said... your heart. Sorry you are feeling so overwhelmed and lonely. Will be praying for you throughout the day...asking God for something special let you know that you are loved.

Becky said...

i love you!!!!

Sara said...

hey sister. no, i don't believe God wants fake lives. he wants surrendered lives that he can make over into his own likeness. that's the christian walk. is it ok to part ways with people? yes, sometimes. as long as it's done with wisdom and not with anger. praying for your situation. love you.

MSUgal86 said...

I sometimes find that people just talk for the sake of convincing themselves they are better or holier than me. do we need to worry about the ideas, opinions or JUDGEMENTS of these people? i look at some of the worse offenders and realize they would collapse under pressure even trying to walk a day in my shoes.