Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Saturday, September 16, 2006

What am I supposed to say?

Actual Conversation:

"I think you are pretty, great, a good person, perfect for me, I just have one problem... I have a girlfriend, who is the mother of my son, I live with her, she's mean... what do you think?"

What do I think? Oh, you don't want to know what I think! But here's what I said (after screaming in my head - God what am I supposed to say?)...

"I am too good to be second. If you have issues with your g-friend, you both need to get to church, seek God. He can change hearts. There's a great church, in Flat Rock High School, it's kind of God without the "churchy" part, great worship, great pastor, great people; Metro South. You both should go there. God will tell you where you need to be."

For real? what am i supposed to say??

Now the next thing, broke my heart...

My g-friend's family member is sick. She asked me 'why is God doing this?" (The family member LOVES Jesus).

Again, what am I supposed to say. Here was the jist of my response (after I cried out to Jesus): Your family member loves Jesus, she is going to paradise, saving a seat for everyone, maybe God is calling out to those who don't know Jesus using her as a megaphone. God is a loving God who we can cast our fears, burdens, worries upon.

I don't know what to say at times like those. I sit here now, wondering, did I do that right?? First I thought of James 1:5, then I thought about the rest of James 1, thinking "you jerk, if you answered the words God gave you, they are right". I know that in situations like that I feel helpless, I have no choice but to ask God what to say.

Does anyone else doubt that you are vessel, but are afraid that you screw it up?

James 1:5-8 5If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. 6But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.


Becky said...

oh margie,i'm sending a hug.

Sara said...

every day i wonder if i'm screwing it all up. every day i know that there's been a big mistake by giving me the responsibility to be christ in flesh. every day.

Birmingham Girl said...

Every minute of most every day.
I love your searching heart.

dawnaj1958 said...

Read my blog today. We are all just clay. Hugs, Dawna

Deb said...

You said it all with the verses you posted at the end. God always gives wisdom if we just ask. And if He gives you the words, then they are the right words, no matter how menial they may seem to us.

Just keep offering your words of comfort and encouragement. God will do the rest.