Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Sunday, January 21, 2007

The kind of person you want to be

Are you the kind of person you want to be? I mean, most of us need a little more work to be a lot more like Jesus. But really, are you the person that you want to be, or the question is, are you the person God wants you to be?

So here I am. Standing in church today, singing like crazy. I can tell you that every blood vessel was worshiping God today. I was singing loud, butt was wiggling, and today, I liked who I was. The difference between last week, and this week? Probably a whole lot of prayer and I must have said 100 times this week, "satan, get away from me, you jerk". You might think I am kidding but I'm not.

And the kind of person I am today, is the kind of person I want to be. You see, last week, I wasn't good enough, all you had to do was ask me. But somehow I got to see a little of what God sees when He looks at me.

When I first started going to Metro this spring/summer, I was trying to decide if I wanted to go there on a regular basis, if I was going to be Metro (Ha! that sounds funny!). Someone was doing announcements (for the record, it was NOT Pastor J), and they said "Hi, my name is ____, you probably know me, and I might know you, but I might not, and I might never know you, there's a lot of you". Coming from a small church, where just about EVERYONE knew me, it scared me, I didn't just want to be 1 in 400. I want to make a difference, I want to serve, and if someone needs something, I want them to know who I am, so they can ask me to help. It may sound completely stupid, but that's how I feel. And so time went on, I kept going to my old church, but I must tell you, my heart pulled because I knew that Metro was where I was supposed to be, and so... God's timing (and His will), like always, prevails. And in October, I am now a card carrying (we don't really have cards-but I do have a shirt that says 'I am Metro') member of Metro. And I love it, and I will tell you, they know who I am, so much so that I get asked to do a lot of things (and sooner or later - I am going to have to say no).

Ok - there was a point, you can be whoever you want to be. Do you want to be 1 of 400, hiding in the crowd, you can do that, do you want to serve like crazy, and use the gifts God gave you? You can do that too.

Do you want to be worthwhile and special? You already are, you just need to see it, through God's glasses.

Do you have an addiction that seems to be overcoming you, but you want to overcome? You can. You and God. You might think it means that you are all alone on this earth. Nope. It means you need to be open to the resources God gives you. For me, it's my friends. I know that God has put a lot of people in my life to speak on His behalf. To love on His behalf. And it's up to me to be the person He wants me to be, and use my screw ups to help so many.

And I love who I am today, faults and all.


Sara said...

i love who you are too. i thought of you when we sang wholly yours. my butt was wiggling too. i hope i didn't hurt anybody.

Mrs. Mac said...

I envy you gals that can "wiggle" during worship at church. I'm one that is content to just stand there and "feel" the song ... thankfully it's my heart that reaches out to God and not my voice :) Did I mention that I "love" my new church? Picking up .. moving 1400 miles from "home" and starting over was difficult ... but now some "roots" are getting planted.. Praise God.