Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Monday, March 12, 2007

Yesterday our Pastor talked about a lot of things regarding "Evangelism" and how once we make commitment to spread the word that we can't turn around. Not if we are going to live like fully devoted Jesus Freaks (my words, not his). We could turn around, once we've committed and really besides me & God who would know?

I volunteered to give my teenage testimony for tonight, and part of me just wants to quit Fuel and run the other way (if you think I'm kidding, I'm not). You know what that means don't you? It means someone must need to hear it! UGH! So I will press on, nervous or not, knowing that I can't even practice without my voice cracking.

I wish that my testimony stopped there. I wish that I handed my daughter over to God and we just skipped on our merry way chasing Him.... but that's not what happened. And I am not brave enoough to tell you all the rest of the story, at least not yet.

Now when I talk to people about Jesus, even those who are believers, I want to tell them, it's not enough to just believe in God/Jesus, you've got to follow Him if you want the full affects of all He can do. A lot of people who "just" believe don't understand why I chase God so hard, why I do things that are so far out of my comfort zone, I can't even see the lazy boy, but this I will tell you, I do it because I want better for others, I would do anything so that they don't stumble, that they aren't afraid to give their testimony, that the find God walking up not crawling on their knees to Him. Sure, He finds you where you are (because He never left), He makes good from bad choices. As long as He's here, there's no such thing as a lost cause, there will always be that one sheep that He'll go after.

I guess I am kind of rambling, I'm not an eloquent writer, but my heart is the same. Don't just love God, be in love with Him. Chase Him down, get a good hold of Him, and enjoy the ride.

I was drawn to this chapter, I couldn't just pick part of it to put in my blog, so you got the whole thing.

Isaiah 55

1 "Come, all you who are thirsty,
come to the waters;
and you who have no money,
come, buy and eat!
Come, buy wine and milk
without money and without cost.
2 Why spend money on what is not bread,
and your labor on what does not satisfy?
Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good,
and your soul will delight in the richest of fare.
3 Give ear and come to me;
hear me, that your soul may live.
I will make an everlasting covenant with you,
my faithful love promised to David.
4 See, I have made him a witness to the peoples,
a leader and commander of the peoples.
5 Surely you will summon nations you know not,
and nations that do not know you will hasten to you,
because of the LORD your God,
the Holy One of Israel,
for he has endowed you with splendor."
6 Seek the LORD while he may be found;
call on him while he is near.
7 Let the wicked forsake his way
and the evil man his thoughts.
Let him turn to the LORD, and he will have mercy on him,
and to our God, for he will freely pardon.
8 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD.
9 "As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
10 As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
And making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
11 so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.
12 You will go out in joy
and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and hills
will burst into song before you,
and all the trees of the field
will clap their hands.
13 Instead of the thornbush will grow the pine tree,
and instead of briers the myrtle will grow.
This will be for the LORD's renown,
for an everlasting sign,
which will not be destroyed."


KayMac said...

Will be praying for you, girl. It is a brave thing to make yourself so vulnerable. I bet you will be amazed at the hearts that are touched and the lives that are transformed by the work Jesus Christ has done in yours.

As your voice cracks tonite..remember we are praying for you, that the Holy Spirit will lead you in this. And also remember, you are loved. I am sure your daughter is going to be very proud of her incredibly awesome mom!

Pat said...

What could I possible add to such wonderful scripture?
I don't think those kids would even notice if your voice cracked, what you saying and the words your speaking is all they are going to be hearing. Blessings!

Jada's Gigi said...

Give your testimony girl, lay it all out there...the body of Christ desperately needs the portion you bring...nervous cracked voice or not...He has done and continues to do a great work in you... praying for you..

Arlene said...

What a wonderful work God has done in you. It doesn't matter if your voice cracks or not...give that testimony!