I wanted to be a leader of Alive. I love working with the Youth. But over the last couple weeks, God really put it on my heart, "Not now". I almost laugh when Jeremy preaches about people who need to step up and serve. That's not my issue, really it's not. Sometimes I use serving as a way to avoid going deep with people. I serve like crazy. I love serving God, I know that I can't make it up to Him for dying for me, but I love Him to know I love Him and I would do anything for Him.
So, I had to tell Adam, "sorry, I don't think I can do it, I got too much going on" and I really felt like God was telling me that I would be overwhelmed and could not do it all right if I did Alive too. I trusted in Him, and so I did what He said.
Tonight I went to learn how to use the word program at the building. It's not hard, but different that what I usually use. I picked it up. There is someone who does the words a lot, and so we decided to split the responsibility. I feel like this was EXACTLY what God wanted me to do. Being at Alive, the kids will see me around, a lot of them already know 'of' me and I will get to worship God in serving, but not being overwhelmed. It's a small commitment.
It's funny how I just needed to get out of my own way, let God guide me, and I ended up right where He wanted me. He's amazing, don't you think??
Psalm 37:4 Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart.