Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

I wish

I wish that I could tell you that I have spent the last day in sorrow but in happiness at the funeral. Those who have spoken to me, know this is not true.

In January I was told that I could do the eulogy for my Gram. I was told that "we're just putting her in the ground" (yes those exact words) we're not have a eulogy. Only to find out on Monday, we are, apparently, I wasn't good enough to do it, the priest in doing (and oh, by the way, they wanted me to tell him stories so it would sound good - YFR). You think I did? Nope. not one. THEN yesterday, 5 minutes before the scripture service (which my family is so original and probably doesn't know any scripture - we did the same ones we're doing today - ones "approved" for funerals) they said if I wanted I could say my eulogy. "No" was my answer, and I am quite sure that Jesus then put duct tape over my mouth so I wouldn't say anymore. THEN after speaking with my friend who I assured, I am adopted, I walked in to hear them talking about me. OH! that was nice.

And my last pleasantry of my blog today someone said, and I quote "I'm surprised you turned out so good, I heard about all the bad things you've done". That was nice. How do you EVER recover from that, it's rolling around in my head like a ping pong ball.

So today, I am singing loud and proud, "I'm not who I was" AND "you never let go". I'd Youtube it but my computer is malfunctioning and I can't do it at my dad's house. SO sing it with me.

And the funny thing, they have no idea of the REALLY bad things I did, I only got caught by having a daughter. And God used that for His glory, because why? Romans 8:28 God works for all those who love Him. **not approved for Catholic funerals


Heather Smith said...

Hey Margie! I've been away from the blogging world for a few weeks, so I just found out about your Gram by reading your old posts. Just know that regardless of the rules man tries to put on us, we are free to worship God! Praying for you and your family!

eliz said...

Margie I'm so sad to read all that's been happening. I'm not sure what the lesson is in all this harassment but remember that you've done your eulogy and scripture reading, it was just for a more private audience. Sticks and stones...chin up.