Passion



Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)


Saturday, May 26, 2007

me


I hate compliments. If you tell me something good about me, like you think I look nice or I'm beautiful, I'll tell you 'you need glasses' if you tell me you wear contacts, I'll tell you to go check in with your dr. your prescription isn't good enough. (BTW- I think I'm average)

I was emailing a new friend, and it's hard sometimes for me to talk about myself, so to give this person some insight, I sent him here. To my blog because if you want to know me, here's where you should come, good days, bad days, me being nice, me being mean, you can find it all here.

He said I was an amazing woman... ah... a compliment. I squirm in my seat just thinking about them. The hardest session in Dale Carnegie, the thank you session. Even tried to skip it but it didn't work, and I had to make it up with complete strangers. UGH! Not kidding.

I don't know why I am like that, because even though I could tell you a million things that are wrong with me, I can tell you some really great things about me. The most important, I love BIG. That's why I cry so much, that's why I get hurt, because I love big. I like that about me. I love that even though I've never met Deb, brillo man, & Miss O, I love them. Or that Pat was my mom before I met her. I love that the day I met Sara, I already loved her, this all may seem wierd to the average person, but maybe when it comes to loving, I am a little above average. In a life that I have not felt loved, the cycle stops here.

I take a lot of flack for the music I listen to at work, they don't understand it, so they don't love it like me (I can't sing a note on key). It's different, its what the kids listen to, and I love music, still, after years and years. There is a band, UnderOath, they are considered "screamo". I think they are amazing. They sing a song "some will seek forgiveness, others escape". It's an awesome song about love.

This seems like a really random blog today. Maybe my heart is just loving so big, my brain isn't getting an blood.

Psalm 40:11 Do not withhold your mercy from me, O LORD; may your love and your truth always protect me.



Some will seek forgiveness, others escape - UnderOath

I heard a voice through the discord
A deluge of passersby
I saw one gaze frozen in time
Watching me passing by I swear
I'll know your face in the crowd
And I'll hear your voice so loud
When you're whispering
Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger
Hey ungrateful I will teach you
To forgive one another
Here's my kiss to betray
Desperate to brush the lips of grace
Do you feel hollow when you think of how I lied?
Oh sweet angel of mercy
With your grace like the morning
Wrap your loving arms around me
Oh sweet angel of mercy
With your grace like the morning
Wrap your loving arms around me
Hey unfaithful I will teach you To be stronger
Hey ungrateful I will teach you
To forgive one another
Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger
Hey unloving I will love you
And will love you Jesus
I'm ready to come home
I'm ready to come Jesus
I'm ready to come home
Hey Unfaithful
Hey Ungrateful
Hey unloving
I will love you

6 comments:

MSU gal said...

GREAT POST!

Sara said...

i love being loved big by you. also you have big hair; which is almost as good as big love. xos

Amber Land said...

You crack me up. Unless my brain isn't geetting blood either you make perfect sense! Love the post!

Bronze said...

You suck! (well you said you don't like compliments ; )

Mike said...

I can understand why some may not like the "Screamo" stlye, but I really liked the song, the words and being able to read them, and the video, especially the flashback. Thanks for the post. Also, great work on your degree! I'm adding you too.

KayMac said...

margie, i can see why you were told you are amazing...you really are. you are filled with the love of Christ and you pour it back out on those you are around.