Passion



Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)


Friday, June 08, 2007

being held together by Tacky Glue

Have you ever used Tacky Glue? It's that stuff that comes in a gold bottle, white lid. It's the greatest thing ever!

I am not my sparkly self lately. I'm being held together by Tacky Glue. And sometimes that's about all. I'm truly afraid to laugh to hard or I'll start to cry. I'm afraid to cry, because I am quite sure I will never stop. UusallyI do that in church but I can't now, because I have to serve First 5, usually second service too so, I can't be all ugly. I even heard a song the other day, "I can only imagine" and I wanted to cry but I was so pent up, I couldn't.

Could I tell you all the things that are bothering me? Probably not, do you care to hear them? Probably not. I will tell you that I am about to get in my car and just go, anywhere but here. I'm trying this day off thing tomorrow. Do nothing day. I hope it helps.

I'm not sleeping, I'm not feeling, I almost feel like a hormonal robot going through the motions. People tell me don't worry about this or don't worry about that, it's not really worry, it's just that there is so much to get done, and there just isn't enough hours in the day.

Maybe I should just shut up.

7 comments:

Mike said...

Sounds like you've had a rough week. I'm holding you up in prayer and also asking God to rejuvenate you. Nobody wants to see you come unglued. I don't think they will be able to handle that!

John Cowart said...

Hi Margie,

Sounds like you're in a lot of pain.

Damn!

It's ok not to sparkle all the time; and yes, you can blog about the things bothering you most. Your readers care.

If the drive helps, fasten your seatbelt. If the day off helps, relax. And there's no need to shut up, no need at all.

Be kind to yourself, pamper yourself a bit. Cry when needed. It's ok.

I hope your tomorrow is better than today.

Sara said...

you have to start crying in order to stop. otherwise you are just doing that ugly non crying thing for a very long time.

Becky said...

be quiet! be still! olm, if you have too. it's tomorrow. you are way too happy w/fuel/alive/metro to worry about anything else!
what about the pies?

Tonya said...

Margie, I will continue to lift you up in prayer... ENJOY your day off, you are NOT missing anything! Make peace with you know who, and you guys talk some things out, if you can not to her then who do you have.. You know what I mean. Love ya girl!

Pat said...

I pray that God would flood you with his peace - with his strength and with his calm assurance that He is in control.
Enjoy your weekend - looks like God went before you and provided perfect weather to enjoy your time off!

Sara said...

ok i'm checkin' in for boat pics and nada!