Do you ever see these families that all love each other and you wonder why you were never born into such a thing. Not only do they love each other, they like each other. Do you ever just think that somehow if you could have been born at a different time or in a different place that maybe you just wouldn't feel so alone? Do you ever wonder what you could have done differently to make people actually love you and not make you feel like you don't matter?
Our family is having a family reunion, and they forgot to invite me. If you know me, you know how easily over-looked I am -NOT! My dad says "oh, you want to go?" Now I don't have the option. I would have LOVED to go, LOVED to, I would have gone easily and taken Phyllis to Michigan Advneture becaue it's in Muskegon. We could have have some great days as a family. Except that they forgot me & I signed up for a couple of major events at chruch, just like 12 hours before.
I have had a life of not feeling like I was important. I never felt like I was loved, or really even liked, I am not saying my family didn't love me, not blaming or anything, it was MY perception, and you know, perception is reality. Some in my family may tell you that i do too much at the church.. But here's the thing, I feel like they love me there. I'm too old to try to convince someone to love me, and I probably couldn't do it anyway.
I've learned in these kind of times to fall in the arms of God when I just don't feel loved. It's amazing secure thing. I think it's a lesson He tried to teach me over and over and He constantly reminds me over and over how much He loves me.
2 Sam 1:26 Your love for me is wonderful