Maybe I am just too old for this type of thing...
I'm tired, sleeping on floors, staying up until midnight. I'm tired. I love these kids so much, but I feel like the biggest nag. I must ask for something to be done 5 times before sometimes it gets done. I want their trip to be great, but I don't want to have to do everything. I don't think they would get the point. I'm struggling. I love these kids so much, but I'm tired.
I don't want you to think it's been a bad trip, because it's been awesome. Working at Grace Centers of Hope has been an amazing experience, and whatever you think about them (assuming you think it's great), it's 10 times better than that.
The church that we are staying at is small, they are trying to grow. they are shackled by the "we've always done it that way" mentality but their pastor is amazing, I think His heart is as big as the block the church sits on.
I just keep thinking aobut GCH. I can't believe the bravery the people have their and the hope that in Jesus they will be healed of whatever their issues are. Some struggle with addiction, others just major pain. And when they walk through the doors, they have hope. Hope for a future, hope to get back on the plan that God has for them. There probably will be consequences due to their choices but because of this great place they will learn what is to be forgiven, and to forgive. They will learn the skills they need make it. The will learn Grace. Whether you want to believe it or not, it could have been you, and it certainly, on more than one occasion, could have been me.
This trip has taught me a lot, I've cried, and at one point, laughed so hard I fell off a pew, I've literally made 60 grilled cheese in 2 days. I can't believe what a blessing its been, driving an hour away.
Psalm 25:5 guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.