This is my Sunday post... there's a lot of reading today...
I was asked a couple weeks back if I beleived in Calvanism or Arminism (sp?). I will tell you the quickest way to get rid of me prior to this was to just say mention this subject and then it was a simple "I gotta wash my hair, the dishes, my dad is calling, uh.. i gotta get the mail, etc"... I just couldn't grasp it and to be quite frank, I still can't really "buy" into either of these "theories". I do go towards one a little bit more than the other... because God reigns.
I asked a few people about it. Both ideas can be backed by scripture.
This is what I believe (for those of you who care)... I believe God reigns. I believe He calls us in big, huge, ways, in loud voices, and gentle whispers. But part of me believes I have the free will to decide to follow Him, all out, 1/2 way, 1/4 way, or not at all. He wants me to love Him, but He doesn't need me to love Him. I personally choose, All out for Jesus (surprise, surprise).
I can't seem to grasp that God doesn't love everyone. That some of us are never going to make it to Heaven... Why would He accept me with all my screw ups, mistakes, give me grace, but not someone else... You're not perfect (I hate to break it to you) and believe it or not, I'm not either. I can't believe that my sin is better or worse, or more forgiveable than anyone elses.
I also can't seem to grasp why Jesus tells us in Matthew 28... go make disciples... if He's going to call them and they can't help but answer. God's glory, I know... but really, He doesn't need me. His voice is loud enough.
I've come to realize that these two theories, while confusing, are just that, theories. And it's like the unsolveable question...
How many licks to the center of a Tootsie Pop? "the world" will never know.
Psalm 13:5 But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation.