Let me first say, I am not amazing, I'm not awesome, and I am not an inspiration, I am not a hero. This is not about my self-esteem. Those things, they are about God. He is all those things.
I slip up, mess up, sin, doubt, and I want to give up on a regular basis. Ok, I said it.
I am the ordinary. I am someone who tries really hard, only to be reminded that I am just me. If God depended on me to save the world, well, I can tell you, you won't end up in paradise. But thankfully God can do anything.
Last night I went to a meeting for Phyllis's trip to Austria for the Hayden Festival in 2009. What's that you say? It's like THE biggest music festival in the WORLD, held in Vienna Austria. You think Motown is big? Mozart came out of Vienna. Yeah, 3 groups from the USA have been hand selected Eric Knapp to participate. Duke University, Princeton University, and Roosevelt Accepella Choir. yes, that's right. And my beautiful daughter is in that last group. Can i tell you? I am not sure she gets it. But her mom gets it. This is the opportunity of a freaking lifetime. A LIFETIME!!! It's amazing. And I needed to get out of Downriver mentality to get there (sorry, if I offended you), there's more to life than Wal-mart and Nascar. Like can you hear the conversation? "so, have you ever been to Europe? Yes. Where? Vienna. What did you do there? Sang at the Hayden Festival."
Not going to lie, left the meeting completely OVERWHELMED! Where am I going to come up with $7000??? Yeah, she's not going by herself, I'm going too. I have 17 months to save for it, and I'll get there, but it was a bit overwhelming, my head was spinning. "maybe if I don't eat for the next 17 months" and a million other thoughts. And then. STOP. "God's 'can' can cover all my 'can'ts'. Within the hour, the answer came.
I am still completely overwhelmed. But I am overwhelmed by the opportunities God continues to give us. I am overwhelmed by His love.
Phil 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.