After thinking about my post from earlier today, I thought about love. And you know sometimes when I talk about being selfish, I am really talking about myself. I know, it's SO hard to believe.
But really, I have been blessed with crazy love. I'm not always good at communicating it, or showing it but my heart overflows with love. It's not always "out there" but the reason my prayer list is so long is because I love those on it. Even if I never met them.
I remember hearing for the first time that Arlene needed prayer, I don't know how but God put this HUGE love on my heart for her. Or after seeing Sara one time do Problems and Promises, He gave me this huge love for her, and trust, boy, do I trust her! And I love her mom, too, who really is my mom too.
It's wierd, I can love you even though I've never met you. You can be a 1000 miles away but only in distance because in love, you're right here. I think about the kids in our Youth Group, I think about the kids in my old Youth Group, and even though I give them a really hard time (because I want them to be all they can be) I love them so much.
I think about how much I love Phyllis. I would kick anyone's butt who hurt her. And that's really quite an understatement because even the little boys who she has crushes on, I want to pound them when they hurt her. You probably have some idea.
Remember that one jerk who posted that I must be fat because my arm was so huge, well, I am not sure if I love or even like him, but I said my butt is as big as my heart. Lord, if that were true, I think I would have to rent every seat on an airplane to fly because my heart really is that big, even when I'm being a jerk.
I was watching the Fall Out Boy video this morning with Phyllis and it had the Invisible Children on it and I've seen the DVD before, and my heart breaks. I love those kids, and I've never even seen them on anything but a video. My motherly instinct wants me to grab them all up, bring them home, hug and feed them! Alive & Fuel would really grow then :)
I think all that love I have, that's why I volunteer. I wonder if the people at GCH know how much I love them, even the ones I don't talk to. I wonder if they know how I pray for them, and when they relapse, I cry and cry, and pray and pray, and sometimes even go searching for them.
I know where all that love comes from. One place. Heaven. Did you ever see in the sky when it's sunny and there are clouds, I think that's my Fuel line, I think that on those days, God is sending His love down via sun rays to give us a fill up. I think that in every smile shown, every hug given, that's another way we get more love, and in return we give more love. it's like going to different gas stations for your car :) or eating all the different food groups, including chocolate, and coneys, and greek salad, and maybe even oatmeal.
There is one thing I want you to remember. Always love. If you love, you'll never regret it. Love your family, love your friends, love strangers, love Jesus.
1 Corin 13
1If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.