Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Thursday, October 18, 2007

One track mind

Yesterday, I had a retreating "episode". Shew, I was uneasy. I can't put my finger on it, but I was waiting to get a hug from my boy Elijah (who was being a pesky boy and wouldn't give me one until I took the book away from him, HA! then he gave me one) and someone tapped me on the shoulder (to give me a hug) and I nearly jumped right out of my own skin.

Even the one who seems to soothe my soul in my most anxious moments, one who can send me a scripture when I need it and he doesn't even know i need it, couldn't help.

I am an anxious person, I always have been. In case of fire, follow me, because I probably have two or three maybe even seven escape routes in case of any kind of danger. I should have been a girl scout (but I don't like camping). I often wish I was a "go with the flow-er" but I'm not, and we all can't be.

The soothing came eventually, above soother gave me a scripture. One that made me go "mmm..." God works in him like crazy. Even broke out the NKJV bible. (sometimes I am just amazed at how many versions of the bible I have because I never owned one for most of my life, now I even carry one in my purse).

Acts 20:22-24 22 And see, now I go bound in the spirit to Jerusalem, not knowing the things that will happen to me there, 23 except that the Holy Spirit testifies in every city, saying that chains and tribulations await me. 24 But none of these things move me; nor do I count my life dear to myself,[b] so that I may finish my race with joy, and the ministry which I received from the Lord Jesus, to testify to the gospel of the grace of God.

Later we read more, we read Psalm 102 because after all, it's not about me... which I also needed to be reminded of...

1 Hear my prayer, O LORD,
And let my cry come to You.
2 Do not hide Your face from me in the day of my trouble;
Incline Your ear to me;
In the day that I call, answer me speedily.

3 For my days are consumed like smoke,
And my bones are burned like a hearth.
4 My heart is stricken and withered like grass,
So that I forget to eat my bread.
5 Because of the sound of my groaning
My bones cling to my skin.
6 I am like a pelican of the wilderness;
I am like an owl of the desert.
7 I lie awake,
And am like a sparrow alone on the housetop.

8 My enemies reproach me all day long;
Those who deride me swear an oath against me.
9 For I have eaten ashes like bread,
And mingled my drink with weeping,
10 Because of Your indignation and Your wrath;
For You have lifted me up and cast me away.
11 My days are like a shadow that lengthens,
And I wither away like grass.

12 But You, O LORD, shall endure forever,
And the remembrance of Your name to all generations.
13 You will arise and have mercy on Zion;
For the time to favor her,
Yes, the set time, has come.
14 For Your servants take pleasure in her stones,
And show favor to her dust.
15 So the nations shall fear the name of the LORD,
And all the kings of the earth Your glory.
16 For the LORD shall build up Zion;
He shall appear in His glory.
17 He shall regard the prayer of the destitute,
And shall not despise their prayer.

18 This will be written for the generation to come,
That a people yet to be created may praise the LORD.
19 For He looked down from the height of His sanctuary;
From heaven the LORD viewed the earth,
20 To hear the groaning of the prisoner,
To release those appointed to death,
21 To declare the name of the LORD in Zion,
And His praise in Jerusalem,
22 When the peoples are gathered together,
And the kingdoms, to serve the LORD.

23 He weakened my strength in the way;
He shortened my days.
24 I said, “O my God,
Do not take me away in the midst of my days;
Your years are throughout all generations.
25 Of old You laid the foundation of the earth,
And the heavens are the work of Your hands.
26 They will perish, but You will endure;
Yes, they will all grow old like a garment;
Like a cloak You will change them,
And they will be changed.
27 But You are the same,
And Your years will have no end.
28 The children of Your servants will continue,
And their descendants will be established before You.”

My one track mind needs to be running toward Jesus


Vikki said...

beautiful...thank you I'm so overwhelmed today, I almost can't breath. I've over-committed myself and I feel like I'm drowning. I just want to crawl home and stay in bed for a week (I used to do that, for real!) Participating in life is really hard work for a someone who hid from life for a long long time :(

Mrs. Mac said...

I want a "one way ticket" please (to Jesus ... when it's my time )... in the mean time ... I hope to gather as many people and lead them straight to Him. Always Margie ... full of grace, hope and a reason.