Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Monday, January 14, 2008


Phil 9:10 9And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, 10so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ

I am terribly burdened right now. Most of it has nothing to do with me, but I wish there was something I could do to help. I am a fixer, if I was a man, I would probably work in construction or as a handy man or something.

I have a long list of things I pray for , I have a long list of things that God has burdened my heart with, almost as if to ask me to pick them up, put them in a basket, and lay the basket at the foot of His cross. I know that sounds weird, because I know God doesn’t need me, He is big enough, strong enough, smart/wise enough, I am just one of His servants.

I’ll be honest, if you were to hear my pray outloud, you’d either laugh or you’d think that I am not very close to God, because in my head, I don’t pray really like I think I pray outloud. God and I, we have conversations. Back and forth, just like you’d talk to a friend, not like those people you see on TV or Sara or Katie or Megan who pray so eloquently, I just talk to Him, sometimes not even saying Lord or God or anything. We just talk.

Adam gave us this sermon by Howard (I think Moody but I am really not sure) about prayer. He said in the sermon, you can’t move any further until you pray, you can pray and move forward but you can’t move forward without prayer. Hmmm.. How true is that? I’ve been known to run in circles 100mph trying to figure out the way, it’s when I stop for a minute or 2 or 120 that I get my clear direction, I’m getting a lot better at stopping first. Still got some work to do, but I am getting there, step by step.

Friday and Sunday, two people from my past popped up, pretty much out of nowhere, startled me a bit, wondering what was going on, what did I do, I stopped and prayed I think my exact words were “what the heck is going on?”… “just reminding you where I brought you from…” In my heart, I know that based on past experience, there’s a bump coming. That’s just how it is. If God is reminding me where I came from, I better remember to hold on, and hold on to Him I will. It might be a slight bump or a big, rip the tires off your wheels kind of pothole, this I know, I’m holding on with both hands, tight.

I feel this tremendous burden for the 20-somethings in our church. I mean like make your stomach hurt, you can’t breath kind of burden. I remember when I was 20, ugh, never would I go back, even knowing what I know now. Forget it. NO WAY, you get the picture. We had this tremendous ministry for them, Axis, for a lot of reasons, it was cancelled, leaving this group with nothing, I would love to do something, start a life group for them, help them get through what they need to get through, kick them in the rear end if necessary, but I don’t know if I am ready, because I know, I can’t move forward with it until I pray about it, listen to the plan of God and find out if I really belong in it. It might not be my cross to pick up, my job may be to just pray about the leader who will be doing the doing. I am not sure, but I’m burdened, so I will be praying.

I know how significant prayer is, I know it moves mountains, when we pray, God hears every word, and more importantly, He hears our hearts. We are having a prayer gathering for our teens on Friday at 8pm, I welcome you (ok, I’m begging you) to stand in the gap for our kids, I welcome you to come pray with them and our ministries, you can do it at home or at the church.

Matthew 21:22 If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer."

1 comment:

Pat said...

1. I loved your last post about your memories of Gram...makes us think of the lasting impression we leave on those we love.
2.This post on prayer is so good. There is all kinds of prayer, and I think we all speak to God in different ways at different times. The important thing IS to speak to Him - and to know that He always hears.