who needs soap opera's when you have real life??
"She (who btw wasn't involved) was hurt"
"it doesn't matter that I was hurt?"
Long pause... "well..." long pause again "it matters"
At some point past the point of anger but not yet sadness I said "I don't understand why God wanted us to have families".
Let me tell you, life is easier on your own. Now I completely understand why women after being abused go back to the abusive releationship. They think it will get better "this time". I also understand the feeling of being so hurt that you swear you will never go back again. Saying "forget it all" curling up into a shell never to look out again. At this point I can't imagine ever coming out of this protective shell and trusting again. Alone is easier, it's safer, and if we love and know Jesus, we are never really alone anyway. Some people call it being independent, some call it being a loner, I call it survival.
Psalm 62:1 My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him.