Passion



Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)


Saturday, October 04, 2008

If you think...


I've done a lot of thinking about myself this week. i know... completely selfish (maybe that's part of my problem)

I've been working being healthier (which means body and spirit). Planning to run a 5K in May.

Only to have people say...

1. You should do one in November, basically why wait?

2. You're beautiful over and over again by people who read my blog, thinking it's going to help the way I feel about myself.

All of this makes me so uncomfortable but here's my heartfelt response...

1. I don't want to run the 5K in November , this is a process for me, just like my 3 day walk. It's not really so much about the run, it's about what needs to take place in my heart to do the run, just like the 3day.

2. You can tell me over and over again that I'm beautiful, it doesn't make me believe it anymore the more you say it, actually it makes it worse because I feel like you're saying it to try to convince me of something that isn't true, like an Obama commercial. This is something that I need to work through and someone saying that I'm beautiful seriously sets me back one step for each step forward I take.

So really, if you think you are helping, it's not. I have to work this out on my own...

Ecc 3:11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.


7 comments:

Sara said...

i hear you on the beautiful thing. i have the same response. so instead of telling you you are beautiful and making you uncomfortable i will tell you that you do not look like barak obama. which is clearly true.

Mrs. Mac said...

Margie ... I'm so glad to read from sara that you don't look like barak obama ... what a relief. Margie: the one and only! That's enough for me.


We should start a 'sisterhood of the traveling scarf' club. Not sure pants will do (we don't exactly live in Hollywood) ... but a scarf would be fun. Imagine: You get it in the mail ... keep it for a week ... have a few photo's taken wearing it ... then mail it to the next 'sister' with a nice note of encouragement. Let me know if you want to participate ... maybe sara will play along too.

Stacy said...

We've talked. Do your thing. Let me know what I can do to help. If I don't hear from you, then I won't offer any unsolicited compliments. Lol! : )

Sara said...

i'm in the sisterhood.

Jada's Gigi said...

run any old time you want to...and I will not tell you again that you are beautiful..though I feel your beauty everytime I ready your blog, whether you believe it or not. :) Its a beauty of spirit since I have no idea if you look like Barak or not, well maybe I have a seen a pic or two so I know you don't look too much like him...
hey, I could do the scarf thing..that would be fun. :)

Pat said...

I'm in the sisterhood...I love the scarf idea! Notice I haven't commented on your beauty?

Becky said...

sorry i'm late-i'm in! and you don't look like barak obama!