Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Friday, October 17, 2008

I'm not giving up on the dream!

Because of some financial issues (I won't be paid the last week of December - it's usually paid vacation but this year due to a lot of reasons we will have this time off unpaid), I have been contemplating not going on the Austria trip. I have been thinking of the things that need to be taken care of around here. And that money just needs to go somewhere else. A furnace, some kind of transportation for Phyllis once she gets her license, SAVINGS so if this happens again I don't have to freak out...

I told Phyllis, I knew she was disappointed. I actually didn't grasp the level of disappoint until last night when we were talking about how our needs will be met (thank You Jesus, it's all YOU!) even though I won't be paid at the end of December. She was excited about that but even more so she said "so you're going to Europe?" I said "no, we still have to save in case this happens again". Her response "who will I share Europe with?" I wanted to die. Right there. I knew it was going to be cool to experience the Hayden Festival together, we had already met Maestro Eric Knapp I was going to be the proudest mom there, thanking Jesus the whole time! But I didn't think it really meant that much to HER.

I truly can't believe that God would put this on my heart and then take it away. I want to go, I've always wanted to go. So I am praying. Please God send the money for this blessing! I want to go! And I believe that will come as surely as I remember Him saying to me the night of the meeting as I was crying thinking there is no way I can do this... He said "I put this in front of you, haven't I always provided for you" and so I am still standing on those words. He loves me and I pray that this trip is in His will, and I will keep saving for the necessities and I am praying this opportunity comes and the Glory to Him. And everyone on the plane, in the high school, in Austria will hear of His Glory!

Matthew 21:21-22 21Jesus replied, "I tell you the truth, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain, 'Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and it will be done. 22If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer."


Mrs. Mac said...

Hey Margie ... Nathan is standing next to me looking at the picture of the castles in Austria. He's convinced that this place is Disneyland and wants to stow away with you ;) .. honest ... that's what he said. I hope your hearts desires are able to be fulfilled (Lord willing).

Deb said...

...Praying that God will meet your need!

Lori said...

Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.

Step out in faith, one day at a time, at allow God to abundantly meet all your needs. Faith that is seen is not faith.

Will be praying for you!

- Lori (from CT)