Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Wednesday, January 07, 2009


Some years start out feeling like there is going to be a lot of change, and some start out with the feeling that there will be a small amount of change. My heart is in constant healing and growth, so I really don't count that.

This year, I feel like there is going to be a lot of change, not sure what that means. I just feel like God is saying to me "trust Me". And so I feel like I have to be patient. I am the kind of person that doesn't like to ease into anything. Sometimes I jump with both feet into the pool before checking to see if there was water in the pool! Ugh. I like to know what is going to happen and in some way "control" it. HA! Like that really happens?!

So, I have to be patient, take my time. Go where God leads and to enjoy each step, even the bumpy ones. And to be used where ever I am even in the waiting times.

I have to tell you, I walked into church on Sunday getting ready for Alive, I typically have a purpose, I don't stop much except for a quick "hello" and maybe a hug, I have a lot to do, however Sunday one of the girls called me over to talk to me. And part of me thought "it's probably nothing really" but the important part of me thought "she needs to talk to me" and I was right, but not in the way that you think. It wasn't about drama, it wasn't about an issue, it was to tell me that I mean a lot to her and I don't remember what exactly said except that I used to call her "my little zealot". It made me smile. She has the most beautiful spirit. It was a simple message from God to say "see, you do make a difference, even in small ways".

That's what I mean, being used by God in small ways that somehow one day will make a difference in His Kingdom, for His glory. I don't think that He will ever call me for overseas missions (and I am TOTALLY OK with that, I always say if He calls me overseas, I might hang up). I think that there is so much that has to be done here, in the name of love, maybe a silly nickname, maybe a hug, a smile, a warm meal, not really sure. I just want to be used! I want to be used by God!! I want to be open to being used by God EVERYDAY! Not just when I feel like serving, I want to serve EVERYDAY! And when I feel like I don't want to serve, I want to remember that I will serve more those days, that God will hold me closer to Him those days so that my heart is inline with His. When it's easy, when it's hard. when things are going well, and mostly when they are not. To be in love with God everyday, not just to love Him but to be IN love with Him.

Psalm 7:9
9 O righteous God,
who searches minds and hearts,
bring to an end the violence of the wicked
and make the righteous secure.

Playing on my Mp3:
I'm in Love with You - Desperation Band
With all my heart with all I am
All I have I give to You
Your love has won my heart
And Your joy makes me draw near
So we dance and we sing
And we give our hearts again
And we shout to You
And we lift our voices now
I'm in love with You
I'm in love with You
I'm in love with You
I'm in love with You


Trish said...

I love your give and give. That's all God asks of us...give His love freely, what a joy that is!

Deb said...

You inspire me. When I grow up, I want to be more like you....

Louise said...

You ARE being used my Sweet friend ...and your blog is just one of the ways ... we were created to glorify God and enjoy Him forever ... you seem to be doing a great job!

Becky said...


Mrs. Mac said...

Margie ... you are a true giver. May God bless you abundantly in the coming year with health, a job, a home, food, love of family and friends. Blessings to you,