Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Monday, February 09, 2009


One of the things that Phyllis has to do in order to go on the Mission Trip to Columbia is to rank herself in the following characteristics. I started to think about how I would rank myself.

Here they are:

Positive Attitude

And then I started thinking about a conversation I had with a friend of mine yesterday. He said that one of my worst qualities (because I'm a woman) is that I am strong. Also, I have a strong personality. Funny, I never really think of myself as strong. I often think of myself as weak. I just sometimes put on the front of being strong. Sure, I deal with a lot of stuff. That's because I have to. I'm not strong, I perservere.

Perservere: : to persist in a state, enterprise, or undertaking in spite of counterinfluences, opposition, or discouragement

Main Entry:

intransitive verb
Inflected Form(s):
per·se·vered; per·se·ver·ing
Middle English, from Anglo-French parseverer, from Latin perseverare, from per- through + severus severe

To go through something severe. Sometimes the story of my life. Many times the story of my life. Sometimes I just think it's stupidity. Just keep on trudging through. I don't always see that as a strength, I think it's sometimes a weakness. I've changed my way of thinking lately. I don't do it all on my own anymore. I think about things a lot more now and how they should be dealt with before I trudge through. I seek wisdom.

The Alive Band has a song they wrote.

I can't live by my own strength anymore.
I won't be the same
You've drawn me near
You know my name.
I won't be the same
You've washed my heart
You took the blame.
You gave
Your Son
To be crushed and wounded
Hung on a tree
You gave Your Son
He suffered, died, so that I could be free
You are the source
Of hope and peace and salvation
You are my source
And into Your arms I will run
Your Love
Saved my life
My Soul Sings Hallelujuh

This song has been radiating in my heart. Into Your arms I will run.

I keep on going, I perservere. I go through something severe. Sometimes it's not really severe. Sometimes I make it severe. That's not strength, that's weakness.

Sometimes I put up walls so that no one can get in. That's that strong personality. Make people think you're strong so that they won't see that you're weak. The weak don't survive. That's not strength, that's weakness.

You know when I'm strong? When I let God use me. When I take the gifts that's He's given me, and I use them. I'm strong when I'm in Him. I'm strongest when I'm weak. I'm strong when I'm in constant surrender. When I say... "it's not about me". When I'm encouraging and loving. When I'm obedient. When I'm weak. I've heard it said "don't mistake my kindness for weakness". Kindness might be mistaken for a weak quality. Kindness by definition is "a kind deed". That's not weakness. God called us to love our neighbors as ourselves. That's not weakness. When someone needs a ride because their kids are sick, and you're obedient, that's not weakness, that's strength, because it's using a gift that God has given us. When you see someone hurting, a beautiful girl, who just needs to be held and loved, and you do, and you pray, and you cry with her. Crying, that's not weakness, that's strength. Crying out to be rescued, by only Him that can rescue. That's not weakness, that's strength.

I wonder, of those personality characteristics, which one do I think ranks up on my list of what I am: Perserverence. Thinking about it this way, would I say it's a strength or a weakness? I'm not really sure. I guess it depends on what I am perserving through, or rather, maybe it's who I am persevering to.

Romans 5:1-5

1Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we[a]have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, 2through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we[b] rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. 3Not only so, but we[c] also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.


Trish said...

Being kind is far from takes strength and self control.
Great thoughts Miss Margie!

Jada's Gigi said...

I think you've got this whole strong/weak thing figured out. :)
I've learned that we all have weaknesses that are often perceived by others as strengths...and we all have strengths perceived by God as weakness...

A Heart after His said...

I know what you mean about your strength. I am like that know that! I would rather do things myself because i would hate to ask for help. Yesterday I locked my keys in my car. And I asked a few guy to help me get them out. Now all the guys here are real gentlemen, and this one guy.. refused to let me help. He said he would do it and that i needed to just go in (it was freezing outside) and let him get it. I was so not liking that, because it showed my weakness so much. But God showed me a lot. He showed me that a lot of time that strength and self reliance is a hindrance in my relationship with him. That I need to stop and ask for help and realize on my own I am weak!

I miss you a ton Margie!