Passion



Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)


Sunday, April 05, 2009

Mattering

I am always surprised (well, not really) how a scripture that is your favorite, in one way... for the same way can become like a new love that you've never seen before.

I wear Romans 12:2 around my neck. I love Romans in general, however this scripture reminds me while I live in 'this world' not to be conformed by it, be set apart, "I made you a new creation, stand out, be counted"

Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.

I struggle with a lot of things, one of which is mattering. Yes, that's right. Mattering. I don't know if it's a real word, but its a real word to me. At my church, we say a lot "you matter because you matter to God". And I believe that 'they' do matter. Me, I struggle with 'me' being part of the 'they'.

I talk, and no one seems to listen. It's like somehow, I have no brain in my head. I've been doing it for 2 years, do they not think I know of which I speak.

And then an issue that rears it's ugly head comes up. And 'someone' said "I hope it's ok?" and all that I had in me wanted to say:
"ITS NOT OK!
IT'S NOT OK TO HURT ME!! IT'S NOT!!!"
But I haven't figured out how to say that not mad and stomping off. Because I'm learning... it's not ok for me to hurt me, and it's really not ok for me to hurt them, nothing is solved. So I said "it's ok" and thought, wow, this is another thing I've just got to drop off at 'the foot' and leave it there... AND DON'T PICK IT BACK UP!

And while I was talking to God about all this... He sweetly reminded me that I do matter. I matter to Him. And said "Dear child of Mine, do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind." Wow. That's right, why are I am I so worried about what others think. I am smart, I do have gifts. I do matter.

So as I slowly relax, do what I do (cook and take care of my family) I am reminded that I do matter. That sometimes I will be hurt, but I do matter.

2 comments:

Stacy said...

Hey Miss Margie...was it I who upset you about not making the first 5 meeting? If so I am sorry...but regardless of that YOU matter huge to me and I love your encouragement and honesty! Love you!

Trish said...

You my sweet Margie are Gods hands reaching out...loving, feeding and showing our youth and those less fortunate in this world that they matter!
Your gifts are so important...you have the gift of Mercy...you show Love. And the greatest of these is Love!