Can you feel peaceful and trapped at the same time?
Like you can't go anywhere due to circumstances but peaceful that maybe it's God holding you there for a reason (maybe for your own good)?
That's kind of how I feel.
I'm one of those people that is a creature of habit, but when I've decided to 'kick the habit' it's really not that hard for me to walk away. And I'm about ready to 'get to steppin' ' but I can't. I find myself unable to move, but not in a bad way. I know that something is going to be happening this year, probably soon, and I know that God is preparing me in a lot of ways... and I think I'm ready, but I know I'm probably not otherwise God would have already moved me.
So I'm waiting.
Jer 14:19 God, have you said your final No to Judah? Can you simply not stand Zion any longer? If not, why have you treated us like this, beaten us nearly to death? We hoped for peace— nothing good came from it; We looked for healing— and got kicked in the stomach. We admit, O God, how badly we've lived, and our ancestors, how bad they were. We've sinned, they've sinned, we've all sinned against you! Your reputation is at stake! Don't quit on us! Don't walk out and abandon your glorious Temple! Remember your covenant. Don't break faith with us! Can the no-gods of the godless nations cause rain? Can the sky water the earth by itself? You're the one, O God, who does this. So you're the one for whom we wait. You made it all, you do it all. (msg)