Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Thursday, April 30, 2009


There must be more

Lord I groan, Lord I kneel
I’m crying out for something real
Because I know deep in my soul
There must be more

Lord I’m tired, Yes, I’m weak
I need your power to work in me
’Cause I can’t let go
I keep hanging on
There must be more
There must be more

River flow
Fire burn
Holy Spirit breathe on me

Yesterday at church we sang this song. It was kind of a rough day, or at least it seemed to be until I gained the proper perspective. We will be on unpaid leave again this year. Two weeks from now until we leave for Austria (at this point, I think I get to pick my weeks) and then possibly one the week after the 4th.

Oh it sucks. And I got all bent because I wouldn't be able to spend (waste!) as much money in Austria as I planned. I started thinking about my dad, work, the unstability of a whole lotta things. And as I was singing 'there must be more'. And then my tears of sadness turned to tears of rejoicing. THERE IS SOMETHING MORE!! AND I HAVE HIM!!!!!!!! Then I couldn't stop crying because I was so thankful. Then you know what God did? He put it on the hearts of those who were singing (it was already scheduled to be sung) and they sang 'Come now is the time to worship'. And in the story of when I discovered that I could not live another day without Jesus, that was a song that was sung. And then I began to cry even more, you know those crocodile tears. I remembered how much God loved me, that He has never left me, that I was loved, that I AM loved, that I'm CHOSEN! That He knew me before I was born, that He loves me even in my mess. When He could forsake me, He doesn't.

Greatful and unworthy am I.

Worthy is He!!

Psalm 98
1 Sing to the LORD a new song,
for he has done marvelous things;
his right hand and his holy arm
have worked salvation for him.
2 The LORD has made his salvation known
and revealed his righteousness to the nations.

3 He has remembered his love
and his faithfulness to the house of Israel;
all the ends of the earth have seen
the salvation of our God.

4 Shout for joy to the LORD, all the earth,
burst into jubilant song with music;

5 make music to the LORD with the harp,
with the harp and the sound of singing,

6 with trumpets and the blast of the ram's horn—
shout for joy before the LORD, the King.

7 Let the sea resound, and everything in it,
the world, and all who live in it.

8 Let the rivers clap their hands,
Let the mountains sing together for joy; 9 let them sing before the LORD,
for he comes to judge the earth.
He will judge the world in righteousness
and the peoples with equity.

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