Passion



Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)


Sunday, January 17, 2010

Overwhelmed

Sooo... to say I am overwhelmed by the greatness and grace of God, would be an UNDERSTATEMENT!!!!!

So this week after lesson one in our Freshman Life Group bible study, a student asked me why God let bad things happen. That's a hard question to answer and at the time, I wasn't sure of what context she was asking about (sometimes that helps to answer). I had given the example of my mom dying when I was very young. It has made me seek God in direction on how to be a mom. It sucks and you can check out my journey of giving the glory to God by selecting this link and you can read all about it.

This weekend was surely a busy one, actually busy for a couple weeks getting ready, typically on all trips, by the time we've started the trip, I am already tired.

I was doing something, and Amber and Sarah were sitting together listening to the Alive band practice, so I went and sat with them and Miss Emily joined us. (I was told there is a picture of it, but no picture can even come close to the view I had but I'd be lying if I said I didn't want to see it). I started to become overwhelmed with the grace and greatness of God, and started to cry. Who am I to get to love these girls? I am certainly a wretch, I continue to screw up all the time, however, because of God's goodness, I am blessed by their lives. I am a mother figure in their lives, I kiss the tops of their heads, I hug them (the students), I tell them to get their butts in line when need be, and I love them, even when I screw up. To some of them, I am their mom. And once I started crying about the greatness of him

So I was thinking about why God let's bad things happen and the example I gave her, of me and my mom, and I thought tonight about that moment. God has made me who I am, the loving parts of me, that's all the goodness of God, He has shown me such a love, and love that I am blessed to pass on to others.

Because I didn't have a mom on this earth growing up, I try to be who I needed when I was young, I think about what I needed, kisses, and hugs, direction, and encouragement.

God, please use me, please continue to help me grow into who you want me to be, who You say I am. Let me see Your greatness everywhere I go, and Lord, let me see You in me. Lord, I love You, I am so thankful for who You are, and for who you make me. I love you so much, and You love me more! That is truly amazing.

Jer 29:11-13 11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

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