I need to take that love language thing because I know how I GIVE love but I don't know how to recieve it. Today I just had a melt down, I sassed someone I never sass, and finally I just broke down. I lost it trying to figure out which lights I needed on and which ones off. Then the computer was acting completely ridiculous!
You know everyone tells me how great they think I am and somehow I just don't believe them. I feel like they SAY it but they don't SHOW it.
I have this weird fascination about dying (I also have a weird fascination with being a mafia wife, but we will leave that for another day). I don't ever want to leave something unsaid for someone's funeral. The bible says that we are supposed to encourage each other, and I think what's the point of waiting until someone is dead to tell someone THEY loved how great they are.
There is this contest (I almost said stupid but its not stupid) by Magic called 'woman who make magic' and I've actually written about people i know and love and nominated them although they didn't win. And I KNOW that I shouldn't want to be nominated but I DO! Not really for me, but because I want to know my life counted for something for LOVE that somehow I mattered in the life of someone, that they knew I loved them in the simplest or biggest of ways. I know dumb, but I tell you, I think it would be so cool to know that I mattered, that my life mattered.
Luke 9:48 (msg) Your spirit, not your size, makes the difference."