Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Today's work out

I'm so very sorry if you are super sick of reading about my weightloss journey, but its my blog so too bad lol

Today it was so cool because Melissa lead us off in prayer and she said 'this is our worship to You God' so how can you not go all out, right?

I was plugging along, jogging, doing whatever they asked, but every time they asked for situps, I did more they asked for 20, I did 30, they asked for 40, I did 70. I like crunches (and yes, I am fully aware that I am very odd) what can I say!

But we were doing some things, and I was pushing myself, but I always end up in the middle of the pack. And I'm so afraid they are going to think I'm not trying, but I AM!! And so I was kind of feeling discouraged, because I like to do well, I am wired that way, and Joel (one of the trainers came up and said something encouraging - and I told him there was a skinny chic trying to get out, and he said 'I can't wait to meet her' and I thought to myself, I can't wait to introduce the skinny chic to the Jesus loving chic!

I never made good decisions when I was thin. Ok. That's the way it is. Most people would never know. And most people will never know. And I've been thin more than once, God had a lot of skeltons to clean out of my closet. But you know, I never really liked myself. I didn't. I kept trying to find all this value in things that don't matter.

And I'm learning in this journey the things that do matter, the things that make me a Proverbs 31 woman. I'm learning to love myself, not just loving others.

I'm so excited for that skinny person to breakout and set the world on fire with Love.

“The LORD will fulfill his purpose for me; your love, O LORD, endures forever— do not abandon the works of your hands.”- Psalm 138:8

1 comment:

jessicachubb said...

Excited for your journey.
But you will always be the same person. No matter the size of your behind, you are you. Jesus has molded and shaped your heart and that is more important than the shape of your booty. But the fact that you are taking care of your body and getting healthy is wonderful. But don't be suprised if when you do reach that "skinny" goal, you still struggle so much with all the insecurities. I cannot tell you how many times I have gone shopping and started looking at the clothes that are about 10 sizes bigger than I wear now. I look at them and then remember I am not that size and then I look at my size and the fat girl in my head says it won't fit. I am so happy that you are finally taking the time to take care of you. But you are beautiful and worthy and wonderful because you were made in the image of God. Not because you attain a certain size.
I am so excited and proud of you. Keep making healthy living a priority. The benefits are so much more than a smaller size!