Passion



Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)


Wednesday, September 08, 2010

Cinderella

Each day a good friend of mine sends me a song, or two, sometimes it’s a song that I already know and sometimes it’s a new song. One song ‘someone to fall back on’ is probably my favorite song right now, along with a song called ‘Cinderella’ by Steven Curtis Chapman. I have to admit, I am not a huge Steven Curtis Chapman fan, not because he’s not good, just because he’s just not one of my favorites but this song, blows me away.

One reason is that we all wish to be Cinderella. The story of my life is no secret to this blog, mom died, dad loved me, did the best he could. I can tell you that I loved dancing with my dad. I actually have a picture of me and my father dancing, I don't know how old I was, it was at my cousin Wendy's wedding. You can tell by the smile on my face how much I loved my dad, and dancing with him. There are times in my life that I can only imagine the anguish I brought my dad, I was and still am, quite a pill. I am also quite sure that sometimes my dad looked to the heavens (and still does) and says 'Hey Phyllis(my mom), can you take care of this one?'. Its not a bad thing, its just the way it is. I love my dad. And even though our relationship has not been without its issues, he loves me.

The other is because just like he sings… one thing I know is that one day she’ll be gone. I cannot even tell you how much I love my daughter. She is amazing, I don't say that because I am her mom, I say that because she truly is. You think when they are little that you will always have... time. I can remember times when she was little and I worked so much, I tried so hard to give her every opportunity, to be the best mom I ever could be, and loving her always. If you would have seen her when she was little, she was this little ball of smiles, when she walked, she bounced, she had that much joy! When she smiled, her eyes lit up (still does). She has always been a little fighter too, she conquered JRA with such tenacity and grace. She never gave up. Never. Now, she is a beautiful young woman who loves so much, its hard to see her hurt, but she never stops loving. She's beautiful and funny, and smart (seriously - she amazes me at the stuff she knows), and I don't know if she actually knows what she wants to be when she grows up, but she knows what she loves, and she's chasing that dream, which is super exciting to see.

The thing about the song, its true, one day that bell will strike 12 and soon she will be gone, but I know she'll always need her momma, always ebbing and flowing into new ways, and most importantly she will need me always to love her. And that I will always do.

Ek 16:44 'Everyone who quotes proverbs will quote this proverb about you: "Like mother, like daughter."

Cinderella - Steven Curtis Chapman
She spins and she sways
To whatever song plays
Without a care in the world
And I'm sitting here wearing
The weight of the world on my shoulders

It's been a long day
And there's still work to do
She's pulling at me
Saying "Dad, I need you

There's a ball at the castle
And I've been invited
And I need to practice my dancing
Oh, please, Daddy, please?"

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone...

She says he's a nice guy and I'd be impressed
She wants to know if I approve of the dress
She says, "Dad, the prom is just one week away
And I need to practice my dancing
Oh, please, Daddy, please?"

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone

She will be gone

Well, she came home today with a ring on her hand
Just glowing and telling us all they had planned
She says, "Dad, the wedding's still six months away
But I need to practice my dancing
Oh, please, Daddy, please?"

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone

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