Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Monday, September 06, 2010

He finds our beauty

We all have struggles, I totally struggle with beauty. I can't remember 5 times in my life when I was told I was pretty or beautiful. Whether we like it or not, as young girls, often, that's where we find our value. In how beautiful we are.

These days when I struggle, I hit the bible. As I open it, I pray, let Your Word speak to the darkest parts of my heart, Lord. Let me hear Your voice.

I saw that video, I wrote exactly how I felt at that moment. I apologize if it hurt your feelings, that was certainly not my intention. But I won't delete the post, because this is my journey, a look into what makes me laugh and cry, this is how I express what God does in my life.

Yesterday, during my run and runs before that, God has said to me, 'its time you let Me work on you, I know that you want to help, serve, but its time, I've done so much in your life, but you've got to stop being distracted, you've got to let Me just teach you who you are'. Oh. My. That's hard. To stop and focus on me, I've kind of been doing that with the Biggest Loser, but I think its time for the next level. I know that as great as its gonna be, its gonna be rough, I'll be in the fire. And that hurts, but if we want to be refined, that's what we need to do. And to be honest, I need to stop going around some of the same mountains, its time to let God move them. Or for Him to work in me, so when I have faith, I can move them myself.

You might find it odd, but yesterday, I was just moved like crazy, during a song that moves me EVERY time I hear it, 'to know your name' we just do the chorus, and somehow during that song I felt such love, that knowing that just knowing the name of Jesus brings HUGE beauty to my life. Knowing that He speaks to me in the quietness of my life and in the chaos of it.

Psalm 45:11 The king is enthralled by your beauty; honor him, for he is your lord.

The precious blood of Jesus Christ redeems
Forgiven I'm alive restored set free
Your majesty resides inside of me
Forever I believe
Forever I believe
Arrested by Your truth and righteousness
Your grace has overwhelmed my brokenness
Convicted by Your spirit led by Your word
Your love will never fail
Your love will never fail

I know You gave
The world Your only Son for us
To know Your name
To live within the Saviour's love
He took my place
Knowing He'd be crucified
And You loved
You loved a people undeserving

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