Passion



Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)


Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Wrestling

I need a cool wrestling name, maybe ‘Margalious’ since that’s what some of my students call me. I think maybe I might be able to join the WWE. But before I get my butt in a leotard and on TV I better drop a few pounds.

I wrestle with a lot of stuff, sometimes for no good reason.

I stepped on the scale on Sunday and gasped. I was up four pounds. It was a rough week, followed by too much eating out with the incorrect choices. Ruby Tuesdays and Roma’s and truth be told, I ate both times to the point of wanting to go purge in the bathroom. That is not good. Don’t even know how many calories that was and quite frankly I don’t want to know.

But once I looked at the scale, I simply said ‘time to get back on track’. If a train goes off a track for 10 feet there is going to be problems, if it goes off a track for a mile, even more problems, that’s why its best to just stay on track. There have been times in my life when I simply would go off the deep end for a week or two (or years) before I got back on track. And that causes quite a mess in my life. So I started tracking on Sunday and yesterday and happy to report ‘back on track’.

Another thing I often wrestle with is community. I can easily become a hermit and a loner. And if someone hurts me, I can often just retreat. I’ve been really making an effort to reach out, to say ‘yes’ when someone wants to do something though I could make an excuse why I wouldn’t or can’t. We really were meant to be in relationship with others and I know that it is in my loneliness that is when I will make a mess of myself and in that dark and scary place of my head. So I’ve been saying ‘yes’ and its actually been good. Going out to dinner with a friend this weekend that I haven’t seen in a couple years and pretty excited about it.

There have been a couple silly victories that I will share.

Third Day concert – During ‘I got a feeling’ Mac always asks the crowd to jump the second time they sing the chorus, I jumped through all of them, including the first one. That’s right, and I jumped through the whole thing, and probably could have gone longer! That was sweet!

Zumba – its getting easier, which means I’ve got to try harder! I want the best workout possible!

I chose exercise and time with God over ice cream in an incredibly stressful situation! God spoke to me sweetly and strong during our time together.

I’m sleeping well!

1 Cor 15:58 Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain.

1 comment:

Crown of Beauty said...

Hi, I haven't been around your blog much, but today I am visiting a few of the scarf sisters' blogs... and here I am!

Loved this post.

So honest and transparent.

It is nice to get to know you a bit.

Read your post before this one as well.

Will check out Caleb now.

Have a great day.

Love
Lidj