Today I got a phone call from a dear friend. Someone I love and pray for, however, I think in many ways I have failed my friend. I just think I didn’t love her enough. I hope that in today’s phone call, she knew I loved her, and that I will be striving to be a better friend, I will strive to love her more. Sometimes I do think ‘someone else is probably doing something’. I tell my kids “you are someone else’s ‘someone else’ “ I not only failed my friend, I failed God. He gave me the opportunity to love, and I fell FLAT on my face. Ugh. And so I will remain on my face, asking Him to show me more opportunities to love. No matter how big or how small, even if it just means whipping up a batch of brownies.
You know I am highly moved by music. ‘Amazed’ by Desperation Band. “You sing all around, but I never hear the Sound”. I want to hear what God sings, I want to feel the comfort of Him, the direction He gives, I want to hear and feel His love everyday. But know this, and I’m speaking this to myself, so I hear it loud and clear, I do not want to become busy doing, I want to be LOVING. In order to live this crazy life, in love with Jesus, I must be less of me (busy) and more of Him (loving).
I do not want an opportunity to go by without loving. Others and myself.
I sound like one of those ‘churchie’ people. I don’t want that, I just want to be one of those people that point people straight to a God who loves them.
John 3:30-31 30He must become greater; I must become less. 31"The one who comes from above is above all; the one who is from the earth belongs to the earth, and speaks as one from the earth. The one who comes from heaven is above all
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